neucours

[neucours]

thank you for the help!! i definitely am considering if i am a neutral-leaning anti radqueer and i am looking more into all the transid alternative stuff (because there is honestly a lot) im also interested in radqueer/transid complex, if that is actually thing

i do completely agree on the belief that you dont have to fully fit in, but im a somewhat opinionated person in the sense i feel like i have to have an opinion or i just feel weird?

but anyways, i think i am definitely going to become a non-radqueer, im just not 100% set on the details at least i think. thank you for the resources n everything, i will keep it in mind

hello anti-radqueer community

i am a radqueer (well technically radqueer-adjacent) and i'm considering leaving the rqc. i apologize if i am invading your tags /gen if you are interested in listening to my thoughts you can read below, asks/comments/reblogs are welcomed

i feel like im in a situation where both sides don't look good so i just have to choose the 'less worse' one. i dont feel safe in this community much anymore, i get spikes of feeling safe an then spikes of wanting to leave. i've been harassed by people inside the rqc and antis so now my question is.. where do i even belong?

i have i guess what's called atypical dysphoria, as well as psychosis which does not help, which is why i got so attached to transids and the reason i was led into joining the rqc. but i just. cant. with this community anymore.

what really made me question why i was in the rqc was that most people within the community believing that kids/animals etc can consent. i think i turned somewhat of a blind eye to things when i first joined, i had made the huge decision of finally leaving my grxmer and shortly after (like maybe 2 weeks after? i dont remember) is when i ended up joining. i was not in a good state mentally so i just ignored everything bad i guess? but then i felt awful from times, because there were said that just remind me of my ex.

but why dont i just leave? i dont even know how to put everything into words. but a big reason is the fact that i see lots of anti-rqs (not trying to say its all, obviously.) judging, hating, even harassing rqs and i just dont want to be apart of that. because i know there is people in the rqc that are like me. another reason i was scared to leave is because of that, if the anti-rqs hate me and dont want me then why would i ever leave the rqc? its the only place that seemed to want me.

it seemed like the only place that supported me for being a para and having atypical dysphoria. it was the only community that seemed.. safe?

i also dont want to hide my dysphoria.. if i hide it, theres a chance ill go back to identifying as transids and rejoin the rqc. i know there is transid alternatives (which im not super educated on the details of them) but i dont have dysphoria about one, two or a handful of things. im dysphoric or experience delusions about so many things and will people still accept me if i identify as a lot of transid alternative based identities?

idk maybe im just stupid and overthinking it, but its really not that easy to just say "oh yea lemme leave this community." or well im sure it might be for some people but for me, someone who has been in it for.. over a year now actually! its hard to leave the community who seems to love me and join a community that probably has a bunch of people who hate me (since ive been harassed on more than one occasion)

thank you anyone who read this far, i apologize if anything was worded poorly as i had a bit of a hard time writing this and i wouldnt be surprised if there is mistakes. as stated in the beginning, if you want to send an ask, comment, or reblog please feel free too! i will try to respond

anyone may interact. the only people i do not want PERSONALLY interacting (like commenting, reblogging, or sending asks) is fdc or sc users/supporters, sorry!

[neucours]

hello anti-radqueer community

i am a radqueer (well technically radqueer-adjacent) and i'm considering leaving the rqc. i apologize if i am invading your tags /gen if you are interested in listening to my thoughts you can read below, asks/comments/reblogs are welcomed

i feel like im in a situation where both sides don't look good so i just have to choose the 'less worse' one. i dont feel safe in this community much anymore, i get spikes of feeling safe an then spikes of wanting to leave. i've been harassed by people inside the rqc and antis so now my question is.. where do i even belong?

i have i guess what's called atypical dysphoria, as well as psychosis which does not help, which is why i got so attached to transids and the reason i was led into joining the rqc. but i just. cant. with this community anymore.

what really made me question why i was in the rqc was that most people within the community believing that kids/animals etc can consent. i think i turned somewhat of a blind eye to things when i first joined, i had made the huge decision of finally leaving my grxmer and shortly after (like maybe 2 weeks after? i dont remember) is when i ended up joining. i was not in a good state mentally so i just ignored everything bad i guess? but then i felt awful from times, because there were said that just remind me of my ex.

but why dont i just leave? i dont even know how to put everything into words. but a big reason is the fact that i see lots of anti-rqs (not trying to say its all, obviously.) judging, hating, even harassing rqs and i just dont want to be apart of that. because i know there is people in the rqc that are like me. another reason i was scared to leave is because of that, if the anti-rqs hate me and dont want me then why would i ever leave the rqc? its the only place that seemed to want me.

it seemed like the only place that supported me for being a para and having atypical dysphoria. it was the only community that seemed.. safe?

i also dont want to hide my dysphoria.. if i hide it, theres a chance ill go back to identifying as transids and rejoin the rqc. i know there is transid alternatives (which im not super educated on the details of them) but i dont have dysphoria about one, two or a handful of things. im dysphoric or experience delusions about so many things and will people still accept me if i identify as a lot of transid alternative based identities?

idk maybe im just stupid and overthinking it, but its really not that easy to just say "oh yea lemme leave this community." or well im sure it might be for some people but for me, someone who has been in it for.. over a year now actually! its hard to leave the community who seems to love me and join a community that probably has a bunch of people who hate me (since ive been harassed on more than one occasion)

thank you anyone who read this far, i apologize if anything was worded poorly as i had a bit of a hard time writing this and i wouldnt be surprised if there is mistakes. as stated in the beginning, if you want to send an ask, comment, or reblog please feel free too! i will try to respond

anyone may interact. the only people i do not want PERSONALLY interacting (like commenting, reblogging, or sending asks) is fdc or sc users/supporters, sorry!