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hello! for the prompt: "wait a second, you're not straight?"

Castiel Novak is an asshole.

Seriously, screw Castiel Novak and his gorgeous eyes and hismessy hair and his terrible attitude and the fact that he’ll barely even give Dean the time of day, even though they’ve been at the same college for three years.

Screw him, and screw Dean’s life that he agreed to do an interviewwith him, because now he’s stuck sitting across a café table from an unfairlyhot douchebag who won’t even deign to look him in the eyes half the time.

“How old were you when you first became interested in baseball?”Castiel asks curtly, writing something on his notepad. He sounds as annoyed asDean feels, like he’d rather be anywhere other than here, and that makes two ofthem.

Dean casts his thoughts back several years – a lot ofyears. “Probably ten years old? I never really did the whole ‘little league’ or‘t-ball’ thing, I didn’t actually join a team until high school, but when I wasten, uh…” He trails off for a second, wondering how much he should spill about his less-than-storybook childhood, before deciding to gloss over…well, almost everything. “When I was ten, my brother and I went to live withour Uncle Bobby. He took us to the park to play baseball one day, and it just kind of stuck, I guess.”

Castiel, the asshole, doesn’t even glance up – just scribblesaway on his notepad, looking bored. Dean stews silently in his seat, resistingthe urge to fidget, and wonders why the hell he agreed to this interview again? School spirit? The free coffee and donut?

Then Castiel finally glances up, blue eyes boring into his withan intensity that freezes him in place, and oh yeah, he remembers now - becausehe’s got a massive, unrequited crush, and apparently he’s a sadist and a glutton forpunishment, that’s why.

“Who would you say has been your biggest supporter?”

“Uh –“ Dean is distracted for a moment, pinned by those eyes -

- until the silence stretches on too long, and then those eyesnarrow at him, Castiel’s lips pressing together in annoyance. “It’s just anarticle for the school paper, Dean. You don’t have to think of anyaward-winning answers.”

That snaps Dean out of it, and he shoots a withering glare across thetable. “I guess,” he says loudly, deciding to ignore Castiel’s jab, “probably my brother. He’s always pushing me to do more things formyself, and playing college baseball was one of them. He’s the one whopushed me to look into baseball scholarships.”

“I see.” The tone says that yes, Castiel sees, and he obviouslydoesn’t really care. Castiel moves on. “What’s your favorite professional team?”

Dean huffs a laugh at that. “Honestly? Don’t really have one.Anything but the Cubs, I guess. I had an ex-boyfriend in high school that was adiehard Cubs fan and things didn’t end great between us, so now I can’t reallystand them. Not fair to the team, I guess, but ’s how it goes.”

Castiel jots down another few notes, eyes roving over his notepad. “And did you ever –“

He cuts off, snapping his mouth shut so abruptly thatDean actually hears his teeth click. His head jerks up like it’d been yanked by astring. The effect would’ve been hilarious if Castiel wasn’t gaping at Deanlike he’d grown an extra head, and Dean fidgetsuncomfortably under the scrutiny. Maybe the guy was a Cubs fan?

“What?” he finally snaps.

“You said ex-boyfriend,” Castiel points out.

“Uh, yeah, thanks, Captain Obvious?”

Instead of moving on now that the point is clarified, Castiel looks more confused. “Wait asecond, you’re not straight?”

Dean’s eyebrows pinch together. “No? Who said I wasstraight?”

“I…well, no one actually said, but I just thought…”

“Nah, man, I’m bi. I mean, I don’t exactly broadcast the fact, but it’s notlike I’m not in the closet, either.”

“But –“ Castiel looks totally thrown off, floundering, and it’s a little - okay, a lot - gratifying. It’s sweet karma, that’s what it is, for all the times he’s made Dean feel like a lumbering Neanderthal. “You’redating Jo Harvelle!”

“Okay, one, that’s gross, I’m not dating Jo, she’s practicallymy sister,” Dean says, making a face. “And B, you do realize I’d stillbe bi even if I was dating a girl, right? That’s, like, the very definition ofbeing bisexual. Y’know. Dating men or women. Innies or outies. Both.”

“Yes, I know that,” Castiel snaps, looking flustered. “Ijust…never realized you were bi,” he ends lamely.

Dean can’t believe they’re actually having this conversation. “Are you serious? Dude, I go to the campus LGBTQ meetings, we’ve literally seen each other there!”

“Yes, but you always come with Charlie Bradbury!” Castiel protests. “I just thought you were attending as an ‘ally’!”

“…okay, I guess I could see that,” Dean concedes. “But c’mon, I’vebeen hitting on you since Chem Lab in freshman year. I’veasked you out like five times!”

And always been shot down, too. Brutally, without an ounce of mercy. Not that Dean is bitter or anything. Nope, he’s definitely not bitter. Not at all.

Castiel actually has the good grace to look ashamed,fidgeting with his pencil and glancing down at his lap. “…I just thought youwere being facetious.”

Dean gapes. “What?”

“It means ‘teasing’, behaving in a joking or humorous -”

“I know what ‘facetious’ means!” Dean interrupts. “I just can’tbelieve you thought I was flirting with you as a joke,like some kind of monumental asshole.”

“I didn’t think you were an asshole, necessarily,” Castiel mutters, looking moresheepish by the moment. “Just…disingenuous.”

“What?”

“It means – “

“I know what ‘disingenuous’ means, Cas! Christ!” Dean’s anger ismounting, stoked by each discouraging revelation, and it doesn’t help that Castiel apparently thinks he’s an utter moron. “You know I’m an Education major, right? You’ve been asking me about baseball for the last halfhour, but you haven’t asked a single question about what I’m actually doing hereat college. Surprise, surprise - I’m actually halfway decent at my classes, too.”

“I…was not aware of that, no,” Castiel says quietly, then seems to realize what he’s said and hurriedly adds, “Not the part about you doing well in classes, I meant the part about you being an Education major! I wasn’t aware you were majoring in Education.”

Dean snorts. “Yeah, well, baseball ain’t much use to me aftergraduation. I wanna be an English teacher, for yourinformation.”

Castiel looks properly cowed, and, for once, is apparently outof things to say. An awkward silence descends on the table – Castiel staringdown at his notepad, Dean glaring across the table at him. He’s simmering with anger, a righteous anger because he knows it’sjustified, but in the face of Castiel’s hunched shoulders and ducked head, it’s starting towaver a bit.

Castiel breaks the silence first, clearing his throat andlooking up into Dean’s eyes. God, even as pissed as he is, Dean’s still a sucker for those blue eyes.

“Dean, I apologize. I’ve treated you very unfairly these pastthree years, and you didn’t deserve it. I’m realizing now that I made a lot ofassumptions about you that are untrue, but it affected the way I treated you. I’ve been a complete assbutt, and I’m sorry. Please forgive me.”

Castiel sounds properly chastised. Like a pricked balloon, Dean’s anger starts to deflate inthe face of that earnest, hopeful expression, and he sighs and runs a handthrough his hair. “Yeah, well. Y’know what they say about assuming, I guess,” he jokes weakly.

Castiel cocks his head, looking nonplussed. “No?”

“Oh. Really? Uh –“ Dean doesn’t really want to say it now, incase it pisses Castiel off and makes him revert back to being a douchebag, but Cas is obviously waiting, full of curiosity, so hebites the bullet. “…when you assume, you make an ‘ass’ out of ‘u’ and ‘me’,” he quoteslamely.

There’s a beat of silence, and then Castiel bursts out laughing. Dean stares, a little entranced. He definitely didn’t expect that reaction. He’s barely ever seenCastiel crack a smile, much less laugh, and it’s - wow. He wouldn’t mind seeing a lot more of this Cas.

Castiel meets his gaze, eyes still crinkled with mirth.

“Dean, do you think it would be possible to start over? No assumptions?”

“Yeah. I’d like that, Cas.”

“Good. I’m Castiel Novak.”

When Castiel holds out a hand across the table, Dean shakes it, amused. Castiel’s palm iswarm and broad against his. “Hi, Cas. I’m Dean Winchester.”

Castiel smiles. “Hello, Dean.”

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nesthemonster · 6 years ago

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Destiel and Cockles Rec List

Edit: You can find my second Destiel rec list HERE.

A few people asked me a list about my favourite Destiel fics so here you are, I’ve made it :) There are short ones and long ones and there’s a Cockles list too. It’s a shame that it’s too short. Sadly, I don’t find a lot of good Cockles novels :( But these… These are really precious to my heart. :)

I hope you enjoy them :)

All of them is explicit or NC-17, so yeah, be careful. :) (There are only 1 or 2 exceptions in the list :D)

The list is going to be longer because I read a lot :) Come back to check the new ones on the list. :)

PS: Sorry for my grammer, English is not my native language.

DESTIEL LONG FICS

I have to tell you that I think that there are some Destiel masterpieces that everybody should give it a try. They are epic, beautiful Destiel fics. These are: Twist and Shout; Out of the Deep; Morning Teach; The Unwavering Heart of a Winchester; I Wanna Get Outside (Of Me); The Shattered One; A Winter’s Tale; Pick It All Up; A Room Of One’s Own; The Mirror; I Would Choose You; Painted Angels; (Read more descriptions about the fics below).

Twist and Shout, AU What begins as a transforming love between Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in the summer of 1965 quickly derails into something far more tumultuous when Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War. Though the two both voice their relationship is one where saying goodbye is never a real truth, their story becomes fraught with the tragedy of circumstance. In an era where homosexuality was especially vulnerable, Twist and Shout is the story of the love transcending time, returning over and over in its many forms, as faithful as the sea.

Your heart will die, you’ll never forget this fic, and you’ll need some hug, maybe the Facebook support group’s help, but you can’t skip this masterpiece. All time favourite. From all of the fics and books I’ve ever read! Trust me, I’ve read a lot and I’ve never met a story so intense like this. It’s a heartbreaking novel but I’m never gonna regret that I’ve read this little miracle. :)

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Morning, Teach; AU Art teacher Castiel Novak has just turned 29 when he meets Dean Winchester at a gay club. After sleeping with the boy, he leaves in a hurry, trying to cope with the guilt over betraying his girlfriend and his overly conservative parents. But forgetting Dean becomes close to impossible, when Castiel’s new job at a High School in San Francisco reveals Dean to be a most troublesome student…

The best HS AU I’ve ever read. Intense, lovely, hot, hot, hot and so beautiful. It’s just perfect the way it was written. It’s fav high school AU. It’s… Just… You can’t be able to not love it. :)

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Out of the Deep, AU ʺStay away from the light-beds. Stay in the deep.ʺ It is the first thing hatchlings are taught the moment their fans unfurl and they can swim without their parents to buoy them along. It is the first rule, the first law. It is the beginning of every boogey-monster bedtime story told when they settle against the cliffs to sleep. Castiel should have listened better.

It’s a kind of creature!fic but trust me, you’ll love it. It’s so beautiful, hot, the slow burn is perfect, the pain sometimes killing you but at the end you only able to say one tiny sentence: it worth it. The author made a very good job and your heart gonna melt away, there will be some pain too but at the end… :) It’s like Dean and Cas’ (the angel and the celestial being) love in Supernatural. Epic. :)

Also, I highly recommend anything and everything from riseofthefallenone. Her works are masterpieces and never disappoints us. :) (P.S:: She still working on this fic’s AU version. Can’t wait for her to finish it. :) )

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300 Things, AU Dean’s life at twenty-four makes him feel like he’s forty—he works two jobs to help pay bills for his house and put his genius little brother through private school, and has spent six years (on and off, let’s be honest) working on his mechanical engineering degree at KU. With so much of his life devoted to his family, Dean has little time in his schedule for class and no time for social interaction. Then, while getting his classes together for the fall, he finds himself in a do-or-die situation: He must take his last literature class now, his spring already filled with those left for his major…except that none of the English classes will fit his schedule. This is how Dean grovels and begs Dr. Castiel Milton to make a special arrangement for him, and Dr. Milton does.

It’s just perfect and beautiful and you can’t put it down. Have to read it because it’s too good to miss it.

Sadly, it has been deleted. :( Messega to me about it.

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Painted Angels, AU Author Castiel Novak has finally hit the big time, with a book based on his failed college relationship with a brilliant painter. He’s put all his pain behind him, but at a book signing, he comes face to face with Dean Winchester for the first time in twelve years, and the reunion doesn’t go like Cas hoped. Dean’s a broken man, with a lot of scars and secrets, shoulders weighed down by his demons and self loathing. Cas sees a second chance with the man he’s never stopped loving, but Dean’s moved on, and is about to get married. Sam launches a “brilliant” plan to reunite his brother and his best friend, but Cas is worried it will all blow up in their faces, and he’ll go through the agony of losing Dean a second time.

Hurt, pain, love, love, love, and a truly deep and beautiful Destiel fanfiction. Soon it’ll be published. Don’t miss it.

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Misha’s Not in Vancouver Anymore, Destiel & Cockles An accident on set results in Misha ending up in the SPN!Verse and stuck with a confused and irritated Dean Winchester. Dean, Sam, and Castiel have to work together to find a way to send him back. Misha’s cheekiness brings to light the things that Dean only ever thinks about in the space between waking and dreaming.

You want some lovely Destiel and Cockles fic? That’s it. Beautiful story, lots of love and some hot scenes. Oh, don’t forget to mention the hot threesome. I fall in love with this fic because the story was great and the way Misha and Dean have fallen in love… And in this fic there’s a lovely threesome with Dean, Cas and Misha. Why? Reasons. :) Give it a chance, it was great and lovely. :)

I recommend her other works too. Destiel or Cockles? Doesn’t matter, she knows what she’s doing and her works are fantastic.

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A Little Patience, AU It sometimes feels a little wrong thinking debauched things about a guy who could very well be one of Sammy’s teachers. But then those wrong feelings go up in smoke when the downright sinful fantasies kick in just from thinking the word ‘teacher’. Those are always pretty darn amazing and Dean has a very vivid imagination.

It’s a very hot, beautiful, kinky fic. Cas and Dean tries a lots of things to find out what they like in bed. They discover their kinks and fantasies in a healthy way and at the end… There’s love, some fear and a heartmelting happy ending.

As I said at ‘Out of the Deep’, I highly recommend riseofthefallenone’s other works too. P.S.: she’s working on this fic’s “other side”, Castiel’s side of ‘A Little Patience’.

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Standing There, AU After the tragic death of his father, twenty year old Dean Winchester needs to prove to social services that he’s fit to become his brother Sam’s legal guardian. He’s willing to do whatever it takes, even if it means becoming employed by a feisty Peruvian dominatrix, who introduces him to his first client, the mysterious Castiel.

Not an easy fic but it’s so great, hot and lovely with lots of triggers.

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A Room Of One’s Own All Dean wants is a little privacy. Cas doesn’t understand.

So what happens? A lot of misunderstanding, miscommunication problems between them and for the readers? Lot of laugh and hot scenes. It’s so funny and lovely. Can’t miss it. Really, if you want to laugh ‘til you barely breath, that’s what you need. :)

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Tamed, AU-ish In a world where supernatural creatures are coveted for their powers, and often kept as pets, Dean and Sam are infamous hunters. Known for capturing creatures too dangerous to own and selling the ones that aren’t. When they hear about an Angel sighting, they know they have to find this rare and dangerous winged creature. With a help of an Enochian book with instructions on taming Angels, they manage to capture Castiel. When things take an interesting turn between Dean and the creature, Sam realizes he may have made a translation error that will change his brother’s life forever.

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Until The Masquerade Is Over, AU College!AU: Castiel isn’t the kind of guy who would let just anyone get into his pants. He has rules to keep his dignity and not to get his heart broken by a random stranger, but when he attends a Halloween party at his college and catches the attention of a mysterious guy in a Batman suit with the most stunning, green eyes ever, Castiel finds himself breaking that rule. But who is this green-eyed man, whom he ends up having the best sex of his life with, and will Castiel ever find out who the guy behind the mask really is?

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The Grace Archer, AU As all the great tales begin: once upon a time, in a long forgotten place, there lived an archer. He shot so well and so true that the king took note and rose him in rank, until the mysterious archer was the king’s most trusted adviser. The archer served the king well, until the royal line was no more, and further still. Tales of The Grace Archer were told for centuries. Fact turned to legend. Legend passed into myth. And that is how the archer preferred it, hidden in the forests and lost to mankind. There he would have forever remained, if a young man with dark blonde hair and green eyes had not crashed into his life with a problem only The Grace Archer could solve…

If you’re into some great tales, that’s the fic you’ll love.

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Snow Place Like Home (But My Home Is With You) It’s Christmas Eve, and Dean, Sam and Castiel are snowed into a small town with a big festive spirit. They splurge on a fancy room in a B&B – hey, they deserve a treat. There’s a tiny plastic tree and a working TV, so they could perhaps overlook the lack of hot water and Dean having to bunk with Sam. Sleeping arrangements soon reach a happier equilibrium: Dean’s just cuddling Cas to keep him warm, he swears – the tingly feeling means nothing! Christmas Day arrives, and Cas still doesn’t have a gift for Dean. Dean doesn’t know what to give Cas, either. Sam has a few ideas, but will the other two truly understand what he means?

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Future Plans and Other Dumb Ideas, AU Dean and Cas, college juniors, are quietly and deeply in love. With no worries bigger than passing their exams, their future together looks bright. Dean’s status as ChildBearer-Positive isn’t something either of them worries about; he’s on birth-control and they’re both conscientiously safe and sensible. One night of drunken celebration, however, proves that accidents can happen to anyone. After’s Cas’s casual revelation that he doesn’t want kids, a panic-stricken Dean hides the truth from himself as much as Castiel. An action that threatens his health and their relationship.

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We’re The Cliché, AU Dean Winchester is new to the senior year, and he’s kind of your stereotypical bad boy. Castiel Novak does not want to sleep with him. He doesn’t.

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The Shattered One When it struck Castiel, he was in mid-flight. It dropped him out of the sky like a sparrow buffeted by gale-force winds. Castiel set down the first place he could find. He ended up standing in a field in Switzerland, swaying on his feet and staring down at his body, dazed by what it had just done.

Rating: M. Beautiful mpreg but not in the way you expect it. Pre-Destiel but I sweare, this is the most beautiful mpreg I’ve read and this one is a perfection.

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A Winter’s Tale Cas is sick and Dean finds a journal that Cas kept about his time alone as a human. This fic is a retelling of first half of S9 from Cas’s POV (via Cas’s journal). Lots of Cas angst/loneliness and a correspondingly equal volume of Dean guilt. Sick fic, hurt/comfort, journal fic, and a Christmas fic too.

NO SLASH but the entire thing features a strong Cas/Dean friendship. Beautiful, hurtful, pre-Destiel fic, but it has an explicit, Destiel-sequel. A Close Shave - http://archiveofourown.org/works/3090167

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The Mirror When Dean touches a strange mirror, he’s whisked away to one alternate reality after another and it doesn’t take him long to realize the universe is trying to tell him something.

You can’t miss this perfection. It tells you a beautiful story. Dean’s and Cas’ beautiful story about true love. :)

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Unintended, AU Castiel is a successful defense attorney beginning to doubt the integrity of the work he does. After winning a date with a firefighter named Dean at a charity auction, Cas decides that he needs to make a change in his life. He just has one more case to take care of, but his involvement has devastating consequences.

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A Warrior’s Rest Castiel, an outcast fairy, has lived most of his life in the guise of a human in a sleepy Northwestern town in the state of Oregon. It’s quiet. People move there to retire and forget the world. And it’s small so newcomers are a thing of note. So when a man not near retirement age moves in, green-eyed and handsome, Castiel pays attention. But his cabin is set up in the midst of the woods the locals avoid. Where the entrance to his people’s lands rests. The thickset trees are teeming with the supernatural. So how is it this man hasn’t run screaming from the woods? And why does his home feel so strange to Castiel’s fairy senses? But, more importantly, does he even care for those answers when the man grins so warmly?

So much fluff for hard and depressed days. I loved this fic, so beautiful and just a little angst-y :)

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I Would Choose You, AU, (A/B/O) Dean Winchester found out he was an Omega when he was 12. He was ashamed at first but even then he promised himself he would never be someone’s bitch. He would never BELONG to anyone. When he gets his first real heat at 14 at school, Castiel Novak does the unthinkable and changes his life forever.

I searched for good alfa-beta-omega fics, I’ve read a lot but they always had something that couldn’t reach my heart and couldn’t make me fall in love with. And finally I found this. The charachters are perfect, the story is perfect, the A/B/O universe is perfect. This is a story about the status that they can’t change and the true love which can win and make the whole world a better place.

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Angelic Behavior isn’t so Angelic, AU Dean Winchester has a doctorate in Angelic Behavior and he decided what’s better than to adopt his own? In a world where angels, demons, and humans coexist, Dean goes to an angel reserve to adopt his own, leading him to meet one of the oldest and rarest of their species—Castiel, a dominant angel who actually descended from heaven. Castiel is anything but eager to get adopted by such a “mud-monkey” as Dean Winchester, but Dean only wants to study the magnificent creature… Oh how wrong he was. Castiel first appears anything but eager, but develops some dark feelings for the human; huge wink!kink, dom!angel!cas, kitten!Michael, S&M, sleepy blow jobs, the list goes on!

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Pick It All Up, AU Army veteran Castiel Novak is a wreck after his tour in Afghanistan, brought home to his brother’s apartment in Lawrence, Kansas with scars both mental and physical. He copes poorly, and during one night of bad decision making, meets somebody just as much of a disaster as he is – a prostitute named Dean Winchester. And suddenly, two damaged men might not be as irreparable as they believed.

Perfect perfect perfect fic! Very angsty and the condition about Cas’ tells you at the very begining that this fic won’t be a fairy tale fic. It’s the real life but it’s very beautiful. Two wrecked men find each other, help each other and the way along this journey they finally start to heal themselfs too. And it’s ending is not the tipical happy ending. It’s happy, I swear too you, but it’s a real life, beautiful ending. The perfect ending for them and for us too :)

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Cursed Or Not, AU-ish While experimenting with magic when he was a kid, Sam accidentally cursed Dean. Now, Dean is forced to wear a spelled amulet constantly, or he’ll turn into a random animal. For a little over a decade, he’s learned to live with the curse, and has even found it useful in some cases, but he sure would be happier without it. When he meets a witch named Castiel, he’s offered a deal. Instead of assuming all witches are bad, Dean can spend a season getting to know him. If at the end of the season, Dean still thinks he’s evil Castiel will send him away with his memory wiped of the whole experience. But if he learns that Castiel is not the monster Dean assumes he is, he’ll lift Dean’s curse. It’s an offer Dean can’t bring himself to pass up.

This fic is so exciting and beautiufl and you can’t miss SPOILER familiar!Dean and witch!Cas END OF SPOILER. So good, with a little bit of angst, but trust me, you will love their beautiful love story. :)

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Any Little Heartbreak, AU Dean Winchester knows everything there is to know about the human heart. Well. Anatomically speaking.

Perfect, lovely, refreshing hospital AU :)

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The Unwavering Heart of a Winchester, AU There’s no point in mincing words. Sam is dead, and without him Dean is a drunken shell of who he used to be. When he finally pulls himself out of a growing pile of whiskey bottles, Dean finds it hard to go back to his life. With one flippant comment from a friend, Dean thinks he might finally have a way to make peace with the loss; Sam was an organ donor, and Dean’s going to find the recipients, talk to them, and see how their lives are better because of his little brother. For the first six stops on his road trip, things go mostly according to plan, and then he meets the man who has Sam’s heart. Dean had hoped he might find peace on this trip… he never expected to find love.

Be prepared. You will cry, there’s no exception. It’s heartbreaking but sooo beautiful with happy ending. It’s a kind of “must read fic” :)

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’I Dream of Deanie’ series Castiel takes a dose of djinn toxin and gets to experience first hand what he’s desperately wanted for a year and a half. After that, he won’t stop til he gets to have the same experience with the real Dean Winchester. This is a series of stories that, individually, are basically PWP but taken as a whole have a distinct romantic build and some other traces of plot.

Seriously. You have to read this beautiful, emotionally fantastic masterpiece and you’ll fell in love with how the author’s workings with her characters. :)

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I Wanna Get Outside (Of Me), AU Dean is a novice in the dom/sub world asked by his employer as a desperate last resort to be a sub for his recluse of a brother, Castiel. Castiel is a diagnosed OCD suffering from PTSD and agoraphobia, mysophobia, and dystychiphobia. Needless to say—he’s a mess who hasn’t stepped out of his home in literally seven years. The only times Gabriel can see traces of the way his brother used to be is when he feels in control—specifically when he has control over a sub. However, due to his idiosyncrasies and paranoia, keeping a sub around has been impossible. Enter Dean, who’s not a very traditional submissive, to try his hand at subbing for the hermit.

THIS! I’ve never ever was disappointed by emwebb17’s works. This one? Proof that she really is one of the most talented authors and we are so lucky that she gives us these beautiful fics with Destiel and Cockles. This is the best dom/sub and BDSM fic I’ve ever read, and trust me, I’ve read a lot. The story is so well written, the character are marvelous and the end… Oh my God, she always gives me this chatartic feeling. :) You should read this one too :)

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Some Things are Brighter in the Dark Dean Campbell had an alright life. Nothing really to complain about. Well… except the seizures, and the general sensation that something was wrong. But then he crashed the Impala, and two days later an innocuous man moved in across the hall and everything changed. It was intense how he felt about Cas, this blue-eyed mysterious guy that said the strangest things. Dean fell for him so hard it was borderline insane. As much as it terrified him, Dean gave into it… let himself be happy. Of course, that was when it happened, when something shattered the lie. The mystery of his life had been solved, but what would it cost him?

Cas asks Gabriel’s help and they erease Dean’s and Sam’s memories and give them a normal life they think they deserve. Sam has a beautiful apple pie life, loved job, wife, everything he ever wanted. But Dean? Well, Dean’s miserable. He’s missing something in his life, but don’t know what, and the top of that, he gets horrible headache’s, unbelievable nightmares and seizures. Something changes when he gets a beautiful, blue eyed neighbor. He wants him, he can’t help himself, he doesn’t date with guys (only one night stands with them) but Cas is something else. He doesn’t know what happens to him, he can’t get Cas out of his head. The misterious new guy. Finally, Cas gives him what he wants. Their first date… The first kiss… Every damn “first” of their relationship is sooo beautiful, and lovely, and my heart just melted away :) But it has a bit angst and, well, there’s always consequences, and Cas will learn this soon. :)

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Professional Couple Only There’s a haunted apartment building in Vermont, and the ad says “Professional couple only”. Dean and Cas rise to the occasion.

They have to pretend that they are a couple. And, well, on the road along with their perfect plan, they finally find each other in their arms. :)

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Bind Me ‘verse Dean is struggling with adjusting back into the civilized world after a year of fighting for his life in Purgatory. He’s going to need some angelic assistance reining in his darker impulses.

I’ve read this fic a while ago and still don’t know what I loved in it. It’s so dark, and desperate, but… I don’t know. It’s not my style to reread fics, but some reasons I had to read it twice. And I think it wasn’t my last time with this fic. I love Dean’s and Cas’ new dinamic, how Cas is trying to help and save Dean, and Dean will do the same for him in a heartbeat. Literally. :) If you feel yourself brave enough for a dark journey in Dean’s messed up head and their Cas undying love for him, well, you will love this story. :)

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Our Bodies, Possessed By Light Purged of all his souls, Castiel is a changed being, stronger than an angel and too powerful for Jimmy’s body to contain. Happily, there’s an archangel’s vessel on hand, and he could use fixing, too. Dean isn’t too happy about the idea of his brother acting as a vessel for Castiel, and Sam can guess why, but it isn’t until Castiel gets inside his head and they learn to share the vessel – and their thoughts – that Sam realises Cas is as in love with Dean as Dean is with him. It’s unfortunate that there’s nothing much to be done about it now, but Castiel will get another vessel soon. The Winchesters will make damn sure of that. In the meantime, it’s up to the three of them to establish their own strange accord, and Dean realises more fully than ever that it’s Castiel, and not his vessel, that he loves.

An epic story about how Dean and Cas realizes that they deeply in love with each other. There’s no Wincest in this fic, trust me, you will love the way Dean and Cas suffering until they can find a ’new’ vessel for Cas. And Sam’s and Cas’ friendship is so beautiful. :)

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DESTIEL SHORT FICS

Sometimes I like to read short novels and if they’d impressed me I save the links. So here’s my favs. :) Only two of them have Major Character Death but seriously, you won’t regret to reading them. And that’s the the two of all of them which is not NC-17. :) Also, these fics are the ones that I can read several times :) The first three is my old time favourite. :)

How A Righteous Man Raises A Rose You can’t miss it, even it has a very beautiful and heartbreaking sad end.

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Sam Accidentally Sees the Whole Picture Sam’s been through a lot lately, what with tonight’s hunt rendering his skin an aching shade of purple and all. He can deal with Dean being overly concerned about Cas’ broken finger, and - God help him - he puts up with the sound of their preposterously soppy love confessions and first kisses on the adjacent bed. But he cannot be expected to remain silent and feign sleep throughout the entire duration of their first-ever lovemaking session. He just can’t. Especially not, because it seems apparent that Cas is more intent on deflowering himself than letting Dean do it.

It’s so beautiful, trust me, you have to read it :)

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Somethin’ About Wild Horses, AU They work for Gabriel, and they are his porn stars and they hate each other. The problem is that their fans want a film and want to see the passion in the screens. What they can do? Probably they’ll kill each other in the bed or.. Or they’ll have their best sex in their life. :) To find out what’ll happen read this hot masterpiece. :)

Be prepared for needing a cold shower. OMG, this fic is so good, hot, and the characters and the dialogues are fantastic.

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Claiming Good old fashioned handprint!porn between Castiel and Dean!

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The Tale of the Awkward Boner Cas has a, um, problem. He and Dean have an incredibly awkward conversation about it.

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Do What Feels Good Castiel learns to love alone time in the shower. And then he learns to share.

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The Second Circle There’s nothing kinky or glamorous about this; it’s poison, working its way through his system slowly and methodically, and he has maybe fifty minutes left before it kills him. Sexpollen!fic.

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Ammunition Dean’s breath hitches for a second, displacing a strand of hair beside Cas’ ear and simultaneously breathing in the smell of his friend’s skin. Of his soap and the moisturiser he uses, the oddly earthy scent of his shampoo and the light tang of his natural scent which still, even now, smells ethereal.

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Show Me How Castiel asks Dean to teach him how to kiss. Because there just isn’t enough of this cliche, apparently.

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Feels verse Castiel discovers that being human is very different from being an angel, physically speaking, and Dean helps him explore the differences. AU for season 9 in which Cas goes straight to the bunker and Sam heals spontaneously from the trials.

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Skirt!Verse ean asks Castiel to wear “something different” does he know how literal Cas will take the suggestion? Or what his consequences will be when Cas shows up in “something different”?

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Mr. and Mr. Smith, AU Dean and Castiel Winchester are married and living normals lives, until they discover that they are hiding the exact same secret. When they are pitted against each other by their warring bosses, they must choose between their jobs and each other.

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Mr. and Mr. Smith, AU (an other good version) Dean and Castiel Winchester are a normal married couple, living a normal life in a normal suburb, working normal jobs—both as secret deadly assassins. When they find each other as targets, their quest to kill each other leads them to learn a lot more about each other than they ever did in five (or six) years of marriage.

This too is a fantastic fic, love both versions. :)

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A Question of Lust When Dean uses prayer to lure Castiel to his bed, the angel decides to teach him a lesson on abusing the ability to communicate. The only problem is that Cas finds himself enjoying the process too much.

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Wet Cas is wet and naked in there, miles of warm skin Dean has never seen.

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We Can Watch The White Doves Go “Wait,” Dean says, just as the door snicks closed. It comes out as barely whisper; he clears his throat and tries again, a little louder this time. “Cas, I – wait.” S10E03 coda

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Staying Up Sore and exhausted, Castiel feels the weight of his loss of grace, and Dean tries to fix it. With touch, with words. Every way he can.

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The One Where Dean Loses His Voice Dean and Cas never have enough time for sex, but Castiel is going to take his time this time. His goal? Mind-blowing sex that causes Dean to lose his voice.

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Seriously? Where? Dean doesn’t know how to ask for what he wants, but fortunately for him, Castiel can open his door without him hearing.

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Wings Dean and Castiel experiment with Cas’ wings. OR How Dean got the angel feathers.

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Honey Remember that time Cas turned up naked on the Impala covered in bees? Yeah, so does Dean.

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It’s All Been Leading Up To This Dean and Castiel make up for lost time. Set sometime in season 8 after Cas gets out of Purgatory.

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'Cause It’s Easy Once You Know How It’s Done, AU This has been an ongoing thing for months now: Dean will go to the bar a few blocks from work on Friday night after his late shift, get there around ten, and shamelessly flirt with the hot bartender once he’s drunk enough to justify it. He’s never done this kind of thing before, never propositioned a man, and it’s not that he’s embarrassed by the idea of getting it on with guy. He’s scared, if he’s being honest with himself. His inexperience, combined with the hungry way the bartender - Castiel, Dean reminds himself. His name is Castiel - watches him on Friday nights, it all makes Dean’s heart pound like he’s just run a marathon. Under normal circumstances, that adrenaline rush is all he would need to just tell the guy, “Hey you’re fuckin’ hot. Wanna be my gay thing?” But God that sounds so lame. And Dean Winchester is anything but lame.

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Tales of Little Red Riding Dean, AU Dean needs a ride. Cas gives him one.

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Is This Bed Taken?, AU Castiel Novak has a big fucking problem. Currently, that problem is six feet’s worth of green-eyed, freckle-faced, bastard-child-of-Eros-and-Adonis trouble named Dean fucking Winchester, sprawled out on the bed across from him.

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Let Me Please You, AU Dean liked to read the casual encounter ads on Craigslist. He really did. Not that he ever intended on answering any of them. Then one caught his attention…

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Touch Me Deep “You’re in a good mood tonight, Dean.”

What can I say? :) A hot, lovely PWP. :)

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The Pros and Cons of Miscalculation Cas promised he’d check in every day and Dean hasn’t heard from him in three. In which Dean tries to keep from panicking, finally tells Sam the truth about him and Cas, takes care of his angel when something goes wrong and then takes care of him again on the floor in front of the fire place.

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Out of Character, Desitel & Cockles Jensen and Misha are filming Dean and Cas’ first sex scene. It’s a little more difficult than they imagined.

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The Stakeout While Sam & Dean are on a stakeout, Cas uses his invisibility for a little payback.

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Never Leave Cas has heard every thought Dean has had about him, including every fantasy. One day while Dean is fantasizing about them he reaches his breaking point.

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So Much Better When You’re Naked, AU The story of how Dean Winchester took Castiel Novak’s virginity. (And it may or may not have taken four months to get them there, but who’s keeping count anyway?)

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Offer Me That Deathless Death Total plotless destiel smut thing. But it’s a perfection. You’ll melt away, I promise. :)

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Did What I Could, For One Of Us The one good thing he can say about the Apocalypse is that it gave him Cas by his side. And he will never let him go. Never.

It’s a very shocking story with a great plot twist. Warning? Sad end… But you won’t regret to reading it.

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I Found It On Ebay What happens when Cas discovers ebay? :D

It’s too cute to miss this one. :D

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People Skills It’s a hot summer night in Georgia and Dean just wants to cool off.

Very funny, lovely, cute, first time fic :)

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Dean Winchester Does Not Cry During Sex Dean is hit with a cuddling curse and when he isn’t being hugged he gets very emotional. Thankfully, Sam and Cas are there to help.

Humor, fluff and lovely first time. :)

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Scars Dean brings Castiel home to the bunker after finding him homeless and hungry. He Ignored Zeke’s command to send Castiel away. Dean takes him to his room eager to make love to his much missed lover but there’s something different about Castiel, something different on him.

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Remember Me as a Time of Day Castiel is still hallucinating at the mental hospital, lashing out with his angelic strength when the visions get really bad. In a desperate bid to escape Lucifer, Cas travels through time and meets a much younger Dean Winchester. Meanwhile, present day Sam, Dean, and Meg need to figure out where their angel went.

Perfection, perfection, perfection, feels, feels, feels. You have to read it, it’s beautiful, perfect Destiel.

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Healing Dean This is a one-shot between Dean and Castiel. Dean is injured and needs healing but Cas’ Angel mojo is drained so heals him in a more intimate way that leads to passion and love. Destiel. Smut. Rated M for a reason. I do not own any Supernatural.

Beutiful, beautiful, beautiful. Right punch on the feels, you have to read this perfection. :)

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Can’t Breathe Without You Set Post 9x13(ish). Cas shows up where Dean is staying and they haven’t seen each other in weeks. Dean pulls his friend into a tight embrace, and for the first time, Cas hugs back. Dean falls into a panic attack; can’t breathe or comprehend what is happening to him. Cas comforts him and in a split-second everything changes and Dean learns why he couldn’t breathe.

Fantastic fic, you really have to read this perfection. :)

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A New Language Alternate ending for episode 10x22. Cannon divergent from the moment that Dean beats up Cas and winds up with him pinned on the ground with the angel blade poised and ready… Dean and Cas find a new way to communicate (besides pensive stares and glances).

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Order 243, AU, reverse verse Dean is a guardian angel. Every generation, he’s assigned a mortal to protect; he does so from the day they are born until the day they die. His latest charge is a baby named Castiel Novak. From the first, Dean knows there is something different about Castiel, but he tries not to think about it too much. After all, he has a duty to perform: protect Castiel when he needs to be protected and otherwise to do nothing to interfere with the course of Castiel’s life.

I’m not fond of the reverse verse fics but the author proved me several times that her works are fantastic. This fis is so good and lovely and hot and you also will love Sam and Gabe :D

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At Ease, Soldier “Dean wondered what the hell was going on, but then that was nothing new. He’d often observed the two angels in similar situations, picking up a conversation that had dropped off centuries ago like only minutes had passed. Referencing moments shared between them over the course of their vast existence that Dean would probably never know about. They exuded such an easy camaraderie, such a fluidity to the way they acted and communicated with one another that spoke of a very, very long friendship and it tugged sickeningly at Dean. He’d never have that with Castiel. He felt like a piece of garbage when he thought things like that, when he got jealous – because that’s what it was – of what Hannah had with Cas; what he wished he had with Cas.”

Beautiful fic, with a whole new perspective to describe the angels. They are so beautiful, cute, powerful warriors. And in this fic, I loved Hannah very much, loved her deep connection with Cas. Which, in that case, helps Dean to realize what Cas means to him. And at the end? You will got an epic wingfic Destiel fic. :) Seriously, I’m in love with the portrayal of the angels, in love with their beauty, their wings, and their gracefulness. :) Hannah has been moved in with them and after a hunt, the four of them find themself in the rainy, foggy beach. They spend some time together, just trying to relax, but it’s not so easy when one’s feelings are started getting out of his hands. :) The whole fic, the wings, the flying, Destiel, caring Dean, his deep and endless and selfless love for Cas, everything is so epic, it nearly hurts :) Loved this masterpiece :) Oh, and should I mention the sex on the beach? :) Which is more likely an epic lovemaking on the beach. :) I nearly felt like crying in that intense, beautiful scene. :) Fluff with a bit angst, the balance was perfect. :)

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Poke Chop Shandwich Fic based on watching a video from facebook about Turkish Oil Wrestling that was posted in the DESTIEL FOREVER Facebook closed group, and its ensuing comments… mostly along the vein of “Can I get this in a Destiel flavor?” and hhhhnnnnnnnnnngggggh. I felt the muse descend and here we are. If you’ve never seen Turkish Oil Wrestling, you should. It’s delicious. Here, have this one: [x]

Seriously, you have to read this hot masterpiece. It’s sooo hot and lovely. :)

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After Midnight, AU “How can you know you don’t like guys if you never tried to sleep with one?” Dean can’t get Sam’s words out of his head so he goes and picks up a guy. It doesn’t take long before he realiyes how extremly lucky he was to find someone like Castiel

And Seriously, that’s the begining of an epic, beautiful fic. :) And love, of course :)

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COCKLES FICS

I’m 100 % sure that Cockles is real, so that’s why I love them. :) The first fic is a very hard story with lot of triggers but it’s the only one which impressed me a way like ʹTwist and Shoutʹ did. Also, the ʹOff the Reservation’ series is my number one Cockles fic and it’s in my TOP5 list with the Destiel long novels :) There is no Major Character Death in the list.

‘Off the Reservation’ series (Or the ‘Po Lazarus’ fics) AU Jensen is a young corrections officer on his first job at LA County’s maximum security prison. Misha is an inmate with no sense of personal boundaries.

Lot of triggers but what do you expect? Misha’s a russian hitman and it’s a really hard story and at the end maybe you’ll have a lot of questions. It’s not a healthy dom-sub relationship but you’ll know Misha and you’ll understand him and accept their relationship? Why? Don’t know. That’s what happend with me at the end. Perfect story, perfect characters, and I highly recommend anything from emwebb17 because she is never disapponting me. :)

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You want some lovely Destiel and Cockles fic? That’s it. Beautiful story, lots of love and some hot scene. Oh, don’t forget to mention the hot threesome.

I recommend her other works too. Destiel or Cockles? Doesn’t matter, she knows what she’s doing and her works are fantastic.

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Whisky Lullaby, AU Jensen is a college junior with one goal in mind; hook up with the hottest bartender at the coolest bar in town. Unlucky for him, Misha Collins doesn’t go down easy.

It’s a so beautiful Cockles fic, I don’t regret that I’ve read it.

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Arrival of the Birds The call had started like any other. He was in the kitchen, he still remembered the scent of the tomato soup he was making. West behind him, going endlessly on about something in his clear child’s voice, bare feet tapping the floor, tap tap tap tap, and the sound of Vicki turning the newspaper’s page by the table. From that moment on, it was unlike any other phone call Misha had ever received.

It’s not an easy fic but somehow it too good and I had to read it.

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Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder Jensen had a long time to think about how much he missed Misha while the latter was back in LA. When Misha came back to the set, Jensen decided it was high time to show him just how nice it was to have him back.

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Out of Character, Destiel & Cockles Jensen and Misha are filming Dean and Cas’ first sex scene. It’s a little more difficult than they imagined.

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Of Love and Other Politics, AU U.S. Senator Misha Collins is knee deep in campaigning to be the next President of the United States when he gets a new personal assistant named Jensen Ackles, who quickly turns the entire campaign on its head.

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A Lesson in Inflection Misha heard Jensen’s The Saint impersonation during the Nerd HQ interview; he thinks Jensen’s accent could use a little improvement.

Accent!kink, accent!kink, accent!kink! Have I mentioned accent!kink? No? Believe me, you’ll this hot piece of masterpiece :)

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Nothing If Not Observant Jensen seems to have interesting responses to Misha’s Russian accent, and Misha is nothing if not observant.

Accent!kink, accent!kink, accent!kink! You have to read this one too :)

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Accent Misha would almost feel ridiculous about it. Almost.

Very hot and lovely fic :)

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Negotiation Misha leaves Supernatural to do another show and clicks with the cast. Jensen sees how well Misha fits in with his new cast mates gets a little jealous and realizes exactly how much he misses him. He wants him back on Supernatural, and he’s not willing to negotiate.

Shipper!Jeremy, Cockles is love, jealous!Jensen, supportive!wives, clever!Misha, shipper!Misha. What else do you need? :) It’s perfect. :)

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Morning Sex and Semi-Scandalous Tweets

Waking up in a great mood, Misha decides to take a private 'You Are Not Alone’ video. And if he ends up tweeting the first frame as a picture, so freaking what. Hehehe… No one will ever know!

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In Bloom

After Jensen misses the Petal Drop, he decides Misha needs to be pampered. With the help of their wives, he surprises Misha with a grand romantic gesture.

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Always Enough

Making time whenever they can, Jensen and Misha spend a quiet moment on break for their own Valentine’s celebration. It isn’t much, but being with Misha is always enough for Jensen.

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Aloha Cowboy

He may not need to be on set that day, but watching Jensen ride a mechanical bull is something Misha just can’t pass up.

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Scruff

Jensen is going to miss Misha’s scruffy face…

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The Sex Tape

Misha accidentally leaks his and Jensen’s sex tape to the world.

This is hilarious and hot. :) Seriously, read it. :)

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When In Rome

Misha actually finds himself getting annoyed by it before he reminds himself he’s being an asshole. It wasn’t always like this. There was a time Jensen was the uptight mopey one, and Misha had to practically unhook the stars from the sky to get a genuine smile out of him.

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When Harry Met Sally

The love story between Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins, based on true events of their friendship between the years 2008 and 2013.

GUYS, GUYS, GUYS! Seriously, read this fic! This… It’s so true, based on true events, even contains the Cockles break-up theory and it’s just so true, I wouldn’t been shocked if it would turn out the it’s been written by someone close to the boys and all of it is REALLY true. :) Epic and beautiful. :) My second favourit Cockles fic next to the “Off Te Reservation’ series. :)

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