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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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"I would kill for you. I would die for you" would you take a break for me? Would you sit down and rest? For a day, a week, a year? Would you let others take care of your needs for me? Would you let yourself be held for me? By me?

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rite here rite now. (a little resurrected terzo as papa v au….. not gonna happen but still fun!)

prints + merch + commission info pinned to profile :)

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oh I see. it was the crime of wanting. that's why I deserve it.

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and now… The Weather

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🎵 Prokleta je Amerika🎵 sure hits differently nowadays.

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Have a man with “the cold, calculated demeanour of someone not to f**k with" and his hype John. A more malevolent John, and an Arthur under normal lighting below.

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do you ever become obsessed with a character and you just go "of fucking course its that one" at yourself because you are so incredibly predictable

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It is sad Copia hours. He is overthinking and can‘t sleep😣

I feel like shit so I am projecting onto him. I am so sorry little rat boy😭♥️

I want to stroke his hair, that would cure me🥹

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cemetery of laeken, brussels.

the story of a marble worker evrard flignot who devastated by the death of his wife built a mausoleum for her. at first look inside, there is a mourner reaching out to an empty wall. but, once a year, on the day of the summer solstice, the sun draws a light that recalls this love for almost a century.

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🐈‍⬛🤍

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Prequelle

Portrait of Cardinal Copia and background inspired by the medieval theme of the album Prequelle. Rats! Ghouls and skeletons! Dance Macabre!

digital drawing

Bonus: The Cardinal without his makeup 🤭