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No one sent me 15 dollars with a pigeon but have the undercut mcqueer death god bath portrait anyway.

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Scribble but I got too lazy to finish the background ebwjkek2

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What can I hold you with?

I offer you lean streets,

desperate sunsets,

the moon of the jagged suburbs.

I offer you the bitterness of a man who has looked long and long at the lonely moon.

by 肉 （@braisedtooooofu) same handle on Twitter

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I commissioned a thing! Look at what the amazing Mazmorra Customs made! 😍

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Last Words (Thanatos' Theme) - Piano Cover/Arrangement 🦋

Original by Darren Korb

Arranged and played by TopfSecret (Tumblr) | HouseOfHadeh (AO3) | Thanathicca (Telegram)

Thanatos art by Jen Zee

💛 Classical-style improvisation version, coming soon! 💜

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tell me who

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It fascinates me that Alistair gets lumped in with the “Chantry Boys” in discussions about Dragon Age Archetypes because it’s just. Very untrue. But it’s an idea the text actually pushes you to connect with in a way I think is purposeful.

This guy introduces us to the lore of the Blight by asking if we want “the chantry version or the truth.” If we ask if they’re not the same thing he smirks and says with some attitude “they rarely are.”

He sums up his religious beliefs saying he’s “not especially” Andrastian, and that “believes in the Maker well enough.”

He’s actually LESS religious than Zevran, who describes himself as fully Andrastian with a regular prayer routine in optional conversation branches.

The things that people use to categorize Alistair’s supposed “Chantry Boy” boy status all have non-religious motivations.

For example, the big one, his virginity, is because 1. He’s nervous around women, which is the gender he finds most attractive 2. He’s actually the youngest Party Member, being freshly 20 years old. 3. And most importantly, he correlates sex with love and was brought up to see them as requiring the other and so feels uncomfortable having sex without what he sees as “true love.” And he just hasn’t been in love yet.

Another example would be his reaction to the Urn of Sacred Ashes. He reacts with wonder akin to Leliana where many others react with a contrasting blasee attitude. Even the Andrastian Zevran.

But you gotta read between the lines here. Zevran doesn’t hold remains as sacred. He’s an assassin. So his prophet’s body is in that urn. It’s a body. The least remarkable and most mundane, perhaps even the hardest to swallow, thing she could ever be to Zevran is a corpse. Kinda takes the wonder out of faith for an assassin if she dies and rests just like any one else.

But Alistair is fascinated, in awe. 1, probably because the Chantry he doubts so much now has some kinda proof that something they said was true, unlike what he previously believed. 2, Alistair is WAY more patriotic than he is religious and we gotta remember that the Fereldans pride themselves on Alamari heritage, and Andraste was probably the most powerful and influential Alamari person to ever live. 3, he’s actually a giant history buff. He info dumps history on you often, with the memorized readings of whatever question you ask. If asked about the King and Loghain before the betrayal at Ostagar, he shows respect for Loghain’s service in the War for Independance, and knowledge of his tactics. And when speaking about his time in training with the chantry as a child, he says the education was actually what he liked most. And a lot of his gifts are things like replica soldiers, Fereldan historical things, maps, (along with his interest in magical artifacts but that’s for another day.) etc. Given his patriotism and love of learning history, yeah, the Urn is a big deal to him.

I have more things I could say, but really, I just find Alistair to be one of the most misrepresented by fandom characters. His character has a TON of subtext that challenges you to look beyond what others represent him as and the low opinion he holds of himself.

The perception of him as Andrastian and devout is one pushed on him by people like Morrigan (and others to some degree) who fights Alistair more like a straw man representing society than she engages with him as himself. She sees him as a Templar even though he left the order specifically because they abused him And he fundamentally disagreed with their practices, The Harrowing specifically being what pushed him to fight to leave.

There are, textually, two ways to interpret Alistair. Through face value aesthetics and symbolism pointing to association with the Chantry and by observing other’s opinion of him. Or through actually listening to what he says and watching what he does.

And it’s just interesting to me that a lot of people get caught in the trap of what he represents aesthetically rather than who he is.

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☄️Kaidan x MShep 🚀

(I just discovered this)

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Big brain thought

Buck is absolutely doing Fine. He’s Great. Helping Eddie get everything planned and shipped and ready to finally get moved to El Paso and he is doing FINE, okay, just drop it.

And he drives Eddie to the airport and he walks him to the door and we get a shot like this

Except

Except this time before the door shuts all the way, Buck surges forward and runs after Eddie.

“Eddie, wait!”

Eddie turns around, confused, watching Buck run up to him.

“You were right, I’m not okay,” Buck says, body shaking with nervous energy, “I’m not, I don’t… I don’t know what I’ll do without you here.”

Eddie softens, a small, sad smile gracing his face.

“I know, I don’t know what I’m going to do either,” Eddie tells him, “but I have to go, and I know you know that.”

“Of course I do.” Buck goes to reach toward him, but aborts the motion. Eddie hesitates only a moment before reaching out to take his hand. Buck huffs outs a breath before continuing, “but Eddie, you gotta promise me you’re coming back.”

“Buck.”

“No, I know, I know that’s your plan,” Buck grips Eddie’s hand tightly, “but you never know what’ll happen right? So I just, I really need you to promise me.”

Eddie drops the duffel bag he’s and takes Buck’s other hand as well, stepping closer to him. They’re standing just inches apart now, basically sharing breath. Eddie has to just barely tilt his head to look in Buck’s eyes.

“I promise I’m coming back.” The words are soft, almost a whisper. “There’s this guy I was planning on asking on a date.”

Buck can only smile and surge forward and press his face into Eddie’s neck as he hugs him tightly. Eddie turns his head and plants a kiss into Buck’s curls and allows them to settle in the embrace for a few moments before pulling back.

“You keep my seat in the engine warm, yeah?”

Buck nods, cheeks red and eyes shiny.

“You hurry up and get back here so I can kiss you,” he tells him, “I’ll save it, so you have more incentive to come back.”

“All the incentive I need is you.”

“Sap.”

Eddie chuckles, putting one hand on Buck’s cheek and leaning forward to press a kiss into the other.

“I’ll see you soon, Buck.”

“Yeah.”

So Buck watches as Eddie finally has to turn and walk away again, this time on the other side of the glass doors.

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how many of their dates do u think end up like this.

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I wish you didn’t have to go

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Happy N7 day from our favourites, deafult Sheps and Ryders :)

Artwork without the title & closeups:

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Could recognize him by touch alone...

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will the two men kiss tonight? 

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HADES : Thanatos × Zagreus

HADES : タナトス × ザグレウス

May / 2024

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My Mass Effect wedding was perfect