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Imagine preferring a convicted felon over a woman. Imagine choosing that felon for president over a woman. Imagine choosing the convicted village idiot over a qualified woman.

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The problem is that America has beaten down its people for decades and gotten them weak and desperate and now promises a way out, a way to transcend and rise above, through selling out their fellow man. They encourage contempt and hatred as one way ticket to not being included with the masses being death marched to poverty or imprisonment or whatever other bitter end surely awaits the people they’re told are beneath them. An embarrassingly large chunk of white men are just straight up nazis these days as a way to dissociate from the rest of the carnage around them, even if they’re broke and uneducated and from an impoverished background themselves. They’ll vote for and align themselves with anything for a taste of power and control that makes them feel a little less helpless. The same goes for minorities. They’ll punch down if they think it’ll get them somewhere, even if in reality they’re punching sideways. I don’t know what else to say, really. Everybody is so incredibly hateful. We are a loveless, disrespectful nation. We are so spread thin by our government that we would sell each other out in a heartbeat for an ounce of relief. This is what we’ve come to.

It���s not even about Trump at this point. He’s gonna get in office and do whatever he does and it’s gonna be a mess but whatever. This is indicative of deeper problem. This is just the ugly consequence of the already present reality in this country that we all just despise each other. There is no solidarity and there is no love. Trump being in office or not doesn’t change the fact that America is a breeding ground for violent hatred. Trump has given people a shining example of how to give in to the worst parts of your human nature and make it the problem of everyone around them. I don’t even know what we’re supposed to do about that. I don’t know if that’s something we can come back from. And if anything COULD be done about it, Trump certainly wouldn’t do it. Honestly, Kamala probably wouldn’t have either. We are so deeply fucked.

However, I must say, if you voted for Trump, I hope that peace never finds you. Instead, I hope clarity strikes you someday like a clap of lightning and you have to live the rest of your life with the knowledge and guilt of what you’ve done and who you are as a person.

Love yall. Shit is so bleak but the world keeps spinning until it doesn’t, I guess. We can’t count on the government for literally even a shred of progress or hope so just keep up the good fight in your own personal lives. That’s literally the only thing to be done at this point. Stay safe out there. Maybe buy a gun.

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So I’ve started reading Mansfield Park for class, and I must admit Fanny Price hits too close to home. The girl is so grateful of every minor things, even when it’s someone granting her one of her simplest, most basic right. I hope that by the end of the book, she’ll know she deserves it

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it's dangerous that you have to log into your bank account to see your balance i should have it in the corner of my vision at all times like a video game

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when you start reading again and it's like oh. oh . the sun actually does still shine.

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sometimes i just look at my girlfriend and wonder how someone so fun, pretty, interesting and smart can love me ? how can my love be reciprocated ? when there’s people so much better than me in the world ? no, it’s crazy man. i love her and she loves me. SHE LOVES ME AND I LOVE HER !!! what in the world could be better than that ?!

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🚨CALL FOR HUMANITY DO NOT IGNORE YOU CAN SAVE A CHILD'S LIFE‼️

I have lost more than 30 members of my family.I don't want to lose anyone else .All I have left is Lolo, the only survivor. I do not know what her future will be like without her father and her life as an orphan. Please, any amount will save the rest of my family.Please help my family survive these massacres & this war.The crossing will open at any moment.I have to register my family to travel. There's not much time

@appsa @buttercuparry @baby-girl-aaron-dessner @sayruq @megalo-station

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wish i had a mood indicator above my head so people would know not to talk to me

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learning new languages is so fun, but also hard at some points. i have a 460 days streak on duolingo but it’s not enough, do you have tips for learning languages ?

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i just want the silly little lesbian girlies in my book to have a happy end, is that too much to ask !!!

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— Michelle Williams

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what studying literature feels like

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rip holden cauldfield, you would have loved social medias hatred

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writing job applications and thinking that perhaps I wasn't made for this world

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just one more graduate degree bro. i promise bro just one more graduate degree bro and it'll fix everything bro. bro. just one more degree bro. please just one more. one more graduate degree and we can fix this whole problem bro. bro cmon just get one more graduate degree bro i promise bro. bro bro please you jsut need one more degree

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I’m just like Holden Caulfield (a hater)

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"i love you" when Cardan said "have i told you how hideous you look tonight ?" knowing he couldn’t lie