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This fandom is literally a prison. I hate to be negative and I never thought that I’d say this, but i usually scroll away from Loki content nowadays because I’m so annoyed by the comments, and by other fans. And it sucks because at one point, he was my main and pretty much only interest. He’s always going to have a place in my heart but it’s soooo difficult to stay in the fandom. It’s hard to be in a fandom when most people in it don’t love the character as much as you do. There’s nowhere for you to share all that love with other people. (Besides here of course. Appreciate you guys heavily)

I like coming on here from time to time, but UGH I’m just so done with all the bs. Corporate greed and shitty writers who do not respect previous works/writers will be the death of us

It’s just so crazy because I’ve never had a fandom experience like this. Of course I’ve had bad fandom experiences, we all have. But I’ve never felt… so alienated(?) from other supposedly like minded people like this. I hate being in a VERY popular fandom where people only casually like the character you love, and do not question anything. Small fandoms for the win, always. I don’t feel any superiority over any other Loki fans, I respect that they casually like Loki and all it’s just I wish there were less of them, and that there were more dedicated fans. But this is also the MCU I’m talking about. It fucking sucks and most people can only like it casually, or use the characters as bases for their fanfics and shit

I love and hate how vaguely Loki was written. It brings in really cool people, and it also brings in people who try to fill in those “blanks” with cliches and characterizations of other characters. They don’t even try to consider what would Loki be like… what would he say… what would he do… nah, let’s just treat him as if he’s like every other character.

No hate to anyone I’m just so tired of it all. I’m more annoyed at the positive reactions to Loki being in doomsday than I am annoyed by him being in doomsday. You guys should know better. This fucking sucks stop taking the bait

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Just another day when Loki Odinson makes me emotionally and physically unhinged.

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I just want to reflect how much the Loki show ruined Loki as a character for me and how much disheartened I was with it.

I had always wanted a spinoff on him, which explored him more. And the Loki show did anything but that.

Do you guys remember how Loki was in Infinity War for like 5 minutes, yet Tom Hiddleston was at almost every media interaction the cast had? The same thing happened in the show as well. They used him to market the show, then sidelined him in his own show. I think that was unacceptable, because they used Loki as a bait to promote a character that I held no emotions for.

Sylvie.

The argument that one does not like Sylvie because they “hate a strong female character/a character with complex arcs” is so pathetic. I don’t think I would’ve liked Sylvie even if she had the most elaborate arc in the MCU (which she doesn’t) because it just wasn’t meant to be about her.

I wanted to see Loki’s story, his journey, and if you take this moment to interject with the statement that “she’s Loki too, just different”, then I say that I wanted to see our Loki, the one who was broken when he found out that he was the monster parents told their children about at night, the one who had plethora of iconic dialogues while fighting the avengers, who was killed only for us to realize that he wasn’t.

Everytime I said that we needed a Loki spinoff before it was announced was not because I wanted new characters, it was because I wanted to see more of the character that was already there, very much beloved by the fans. I wanted them to explore his character in a deeper sense and maybe dip a little into mythology as well.

I think Loki was one of those characters that neither needed a love interest nor was ready for one. I don’t ship him with either Sylvie or Mobius, because it feels like neither of them genuinely like Loki for who he is.

Loki had far more compelling things they could have explored like his jotun heritage, his trauma from the time with Thanos and his magic that is the only memory he has of Frigga instead of his love life.

The whole show felt like it was written by someone who wasn’t the least bit interested in Loki and barely looked into him before creating his female counterpart.

It feels like a disrespect for the fans who were connected to Loki on an emotional level.

Why am I saying this now, after like 2 years since the show came out?

I don’t know, after hearing the news about season 2 releasing in October, I just feel so upset. Tired. I hate this show much because it made Loki so irrelevant to me. A sidepiece in his own show. He went around in ugly costumes and all the regal vibes I had from him just disappeared.

I still remember a time when Loki was on the top of my favorite characters, and I loved him so much. I still do, but I’m not sure if I’ll watch the 2nd season and my 13 y/o self would hate me for this.

I’ve gotten detached from his character and I hate myself for it because Loki was someone whom I adored more than anything else in the fandom world.

Loki is that one character who is loved by the fanon but absolutely despised by the canon.

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So, I was reading the first Thor movie script and I came across this simple line right here:

It's a very simple line and seemingly there isn't much to it, but all I could think of when I read it is that Loki is so desperate to best Thor at something, literally anything, he takes pride in his intellect not just because he enjoys being clever, but because it's probably the only thing in wich he bests Thor at

When he says "I was always more clever than you" I can only see it as a desperate attempt to confirm that not only to Thor, but also to himself, he wants to believe he is better than Thor in at least something, just this one little thing 🥲

Of course this isn't to say Loki's not clever, he is, tremendously even, but his insecurities and need for validation often cloud his better judgment of things and cause him to make, well... dumb decisions sometimes 😬

All Loki ever needed was for someone to make him feel seen and appreciated, to make him feel like he had worth too, even if he wasn't a perfect prince like Thor, it's so sad that the OG Loki never got to heal those wounds 😭

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thinking about how the first time loki died, he told odin "i could have done it for you".

thinking about how the second time loki died, he told thor "i didn't do it for [odin]".

thinking about how after one thousand years of mistreatment, of gaslighting, of teaching him to hate his own species, of purposefully allowing him to believe there was a chance for him to be appreciated only to reduce him to second-best every single time, loki was still willing to do anything for odin.

only after a four-thousand year sentence to solitary confinement, a blatant refusal to judge him fairly (at least on par with thor) for his crimes, complete disregard as to where he had been in the void for a year. only after allowing loki to miss his mother's death and funeral without any intention of even telling him she had died. only after all of this was loki able to decide he didn't have to do anything for him.

and even then, he was still doing things for the kingdom and family who had never valued him as much as he should have been.

yeah i'm just thinking a lot about these things

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I think we all know this feeling unfortunately

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yes..yes I do

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Just realized something else that messes me up about Thor 1. So everyone in Asgard was just…ok with the drastic changes in Thor and Loki? I mean, someone had to question how Thor went from all bloodlust to peace and shit. I feel like Lokis identity crisis leading into a psychotic break kinda makes sense because all of these negative emotions have been building up for like a thousand years and any time he would have mentioned his feelings about being second best or being treated like shit by Thor’s friends would’ve been brushed off as imagined slights. All that culmination is definitely not healthy. On the other hand… Thor becoming worthy in 3 days considering he was enthusiastically bloodthirsty for a thousand doesn’t really make sense. Like, he’s still aggressive on sight in avengers, so did he really learn anything? Also, he spends 3 days with some mortals and all of Earth is suddenly under his protection? I mean, he didn’t even do anything until Loki attacked, but considering Loki was kinda a big threat I can kind of give him a pass(unless someone wants to offer something different). Back to the original point, Thor just decides the Jotun are people now? I don’t think he actually cares, it feels more like a matter of principle. Like, he’s didn’t think it was wrong until knowing Jane for 72 hours. Also, he doesn’t seem to think he himself was wrong when he started. But anyway. How did Frigga not think something was off in 2012? Ma’am, your child went missing for a year, presumed dead, and he suddenly has a whole ARMY? And want to take a world over when he couldn’t give a crap about needless conquering before??

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Asgardian AU Part 2: First Meeting

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We used to make posts about loki on here

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I’ve been trying to keep this blog about appreciating OG Loki instead of any negativity, but goodness is the series the bane of my existence. Imagine looking up your favorite character, and having to scroll past every result that comes up.

Imagine the only part of the fandom/community you can enjoy being a small side of Tumblr away from the main tags.

You cannot relate to anyone on Twitter, TikTok, Instagram, etc..

A subdivision on Tumblr of a fandom is all you have!

Finding decent Loki merch is hard enough as it is, but now you need to look out for hourglasses, and the colors orange and brown.

This is all because of the series. This is why us anti series blogs/OG Loki fans are so “cruel” and “evil.” This is why it’s so serious to us. It’s weird to feel alienated where you should feel like you belong.

Many of us lost the fandom that we once knew and loved. It’s not just about the series or how Loki is miswritten, its about us losing the connection we once easily had with others. You shouldn’t have to constantly explain yourself to others who are supposed to be in the same fandom as you.

I share a fandom with people who don’t understand the source that spawned the fandom in the first place. I share a fandom with people who’s only knowledge (of the character we’re all supposed to know and love) is ship fanart, fanfiction, fan theories, and headcanons. I share a fandom with people who take lighthearted Tumblr posts from years ago that jokingly state that Loki is around 16/17 years old seriously and as canon. I share a fandom with people who refuse to think critically.

It’s not just a fictional character or movies. It’s something we are passionate about, and it’s hard to share those passions with others who do not understand a fraction of any of it.

I’m very grateful for this side of Tumblr and I hope that one day we could have our fandom back. You shouldn’t have to make an entire subdivision of a fandom in order to see things about the characters ORIGINAL and DEFINITIVE appearances.

Fuck the series as well as anyone who groups OG Loki with the variant. Makes things a thousand times harder. I can’t even watch edits because you’ll think it’s an edit of TDW Loki… but then here comes clips of that variant. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Girl if I have to see that clip of the variant bent over a table one more time… I think i’m gonna lose it.

Certain sides of Pinterest, old Tumblr posts/blogs that have been inactive since 2014, and Google’s/YouTube’s “Before:Year” feature my beloveds. Blogs on dedicated to OG Loki my beloveds. Thor 2011, The Avengers, and Thor The Dark World my beloveds. My oomfs/mutuals my beloveds.

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Hanahaki AU where Viktor dies from unrequited love for Jayce.

Hanahaki is a rare disease where the afflicted coughs up flowers due to unreturned feelings. The plants consume the body and entangle the lungs, leaving the victim gasping for air.

Viktor accidentally swallows a petal in Zaun, long before the Academy. Since then, his health has been fragile, but he managed to live relatively normally.

Meeting Jayce changes everything. He can’t control his feelings, and resisting them only makes it worse. Viktor’s condition spirals.

He coughs up red flowers, as the color reminds him of Talis. The plants fill his chest and break through his skin, so he wears a sturdy corset to hide his illness.

When Jayce starts a relationship with Mel, Viktor truly begins to die. A night spent in the councilor’s bedroom triggers a near-fatal episode, and every kiss feels like unbearable agony. If Jayce were to truly love someone else... well...

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from chapter 8 of ‘and reclamation’ of the isolation series by @nanashi-07!

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but you were never broken, viktor. 💔 🩹

SHOP.

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Zaun vik and Jayce

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Fanart of my own fanfic! In which S2 Jayce and S1 Viktor meet :D

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jayce and viktor.

on absolute devotion.

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