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[nekoqueenalice]

I am only posting to let you know I am not dead or ignoring my discord mutuals! 😕✋🏻

Hey y'all! So I'm back in family hell (aka my dad's house) and lemme just clear the air real quick before anyone thinks I died or my account got hacked or some shit 💀

When I first got to my dad's place, it was just me, him, and my stepmom (grandma wasn't here yet), and the ONLY piece of "technology" I was allowed to touch was this TV that has internet access. Yeah, you heard that right - I'm out here living like it's 2008, navigating social media with a damn TV remote 🙃

The TV internet is... complicated as hell. Like you can technically go on websites and social media but it's janky and slow and typing anything takes forever. BUT I could use it all day as long as I did my whole morning routine first (including eating breakfast) and stopped at a certain time.

At first I tried to be good and just stick to YouTube videos, but y'all KNOW I couldn't resist the urge forever. So I started sneaking onto Tumblr from time to time to scroll and check on my mutuals because I was literally dying to know what everyone was up to 😭

Of course, I forgot to mention I'd be popping up randomly like this, so for all my Tumblr mutuals and ESPECIALLY my Discord mutuals - I'M NOT DEAD! My account didn't get hacked! And I'm definitely not ignoring anyone on purpose! I'm just stuck in this weird tech limbo situation.

The only reason I can even make THIS post is because my grandma lets me borrow her phone sometimes (shoutout to grandma being the real MVP 🙏), but then I gotta give it back eventually. I even remove my accounts temporarily when I give her phone back so she doesn't accidentally see my stuff, then log back in when she lets me use it again later that day or the next day.

She's lowkey worried my dad's gonna find out she's letting me do this and then she'll have to deal with angry dad energy, but I'm like "What he doesn't know can't hurt him, technically!" 💅

I was originally gonna hold off on posting until I got my own device, but then I checked my Gmail and saw one of my Discord mutuals tagged me in a server like 5+ TIMES and I was like oh shit, she's probably thinking I vanished into the void or something. So I HAD to make this post so nobody's panicking!

But yeah, I still can't post 24/7 until I get my own phone (which I'm working on!). I actually have enough money for it now, but apparently I'm "required" to get a job first before I can have my own device 🙄 Because that makes total sense, right?

So please don't unfollow me! This whole getting-a-device thing is turning into way more of a struggle than it should be, but I'm fighting for my digital freedom one borrowed phone session at a time 💪✨

OH! And bonus update for my mutuals - I'm officially starting college on September 9th! I'll be going to Kingsborough Community College here in New York for anyone who's wondering. The schedule is way more flexible than regular school (thank GOD) - like instead of being stuck there all day, you just go for your specific classes and then bounce back home. So that's nice at least!

I'll probably have homework and stuff to deal with (hopefully not too much because ugh), but considering I don't really see myself having a social life irl (never really had one before and doubt that's changing anytime soon lol), I'll probably be online a decent amount once I finally get my own device! And for once it won't just be limited to scrolling and checking on mutuals - I might actually be able to PARTICIPATE in conversations again 🙌

So anyway, if my mutuals see me randomly pop online, don't worry - it's just me checking up on what's happening on Tumblr because if I don't, I'll probably go a bit crazy and get all worried about missing out on everything 😅

And don't worry - I'll DEFINITELY let all my mutuals know when I officially get my own phone! That hasn't changed at all, y'all will be the first to hear about it when I'm finally free from this borrowed device hell 📱✨

Tagging all my mutuals @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @strayfelinez and and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo and @meatmedallion and @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and @drownedsilverforever

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Update: I’m actually in new york now 🥲📵

Sooo yeah, I’m officially in New York now… but that doesn’t mean I can just go back to posting regularly 😔 The only reason I can even make this post rn is because my mom let me borrow her phone temporarily. I’m still working on getting my own phone, and when I finally do, y’all will be the first to know! 🖤

Tagging all my mutuals @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @mono-squamblo and @strayfelinez and @strangelilangel and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo and @meatmedallion and @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and @drownedsilverforever

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I hope you'll be okay while you're away from Tumblr. Best wishes!

Thanks, hopefully I won't be gone so long! 🥲

[nekoqueenalice]

Reblogging to say I actually leave after tomorrow 😭 I thought tomorrow was Thursday but nope, tomorrow’s Wednesday… so yeah, I’m leaving on Thursday for real.

Tagging all my mutuals @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @strayfelinez and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo and @meatmedallion and @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and @drownedsilverforever

Unfortunate announcement time… back to family hell for a YEAR 😭📵

Sooo… I gotta make a lil unfortunate announcement for everyone who sees this. I’m being shipped back to my dad’s house (aka family hell ft. my dad, his wife a.k.a my “stepmom,” and my grandma).

And this time it’s not just two weeks or whatever… I’ll be stuck there for like a whole ass YEAR until I finish my first year of college 💀 The only time I can come back to my mom’s side is for Thanksgiving and Christmas, which feels like forever away. And y’all already know how strict my dad's side of the family (which includes my dad, his wife (my "stepmom", and my grandma) are with me using tech… so there’s a slight possibility I might not be able to post for a while.

But!! I refuse to say goodbye because I don’t wanna believe I’ll be gone that long. Hopefully if my mom + stepdad help me out with some money (and if my mom can talk things out with my dad), I might be able to get back here sooner. If I get enough money, I can get myself a new phone and maybe they won’t be so damn nosy about what I’m doing on it 👀

So yeah. Wish me luck y’all 🙏💔 manifesting that I’ll be back faster than a month. I don’t wanna vanish.

Tagging all my mutuals @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @mono-squamblo and @strayfelinez and @strangelilangel and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo and @meatmedallion and @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and @drownedsilverforever

Additional Note: I also wanna apologize to my two mutuals ( @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberonemet) on Discord 🫶💜 Before y’all go “but if you couldn’t be online on Discord, how come you sometimes posted on Tumblr??” — lemme explain. At my mom’s house, she had a strict time limit on how long I could use tech (phones, iPads, etc… not TV tho lol). And the time I was given wasn’t enough to properly hang out on Discord, it only let me do small things like make a quick Tumblr post or scroll a bit. So I wasn’t lying about not really being online — I just literally didn’t have enough time to spend in Discord convos the way I wanted to.

I’m really sorry I couldn’t be on there with y’all as much as I wanted 😔 but maybe you guys aren’t even mad at me and I’m just overthinking (as usual lmao). That’s what happens when I don’t spend enough time online, my brain goes haywire. Either way — I still wanted to say sorry, cuz I do care. 🖤

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Unfortunate announcement time… back to family hell for a YEAR 😭📵

Sooo… I gotta make a lil unfortunate announcement for everyone who sees this. I’m being shipped back to my dad’s house (aka family hell ft. my dad, his wife a.k.a my “stepmom,” and my grandma).

And this time it’s not just two weeks or whatever… I’ll be stuck there for like a whole ass YEAR until I finish my first year of college 💀 The only time I can come back to my mom’s side is for Thanksgiving and Christmas, which feels like forever away. And y’all already know how strict my dad's side of the family (which includes my dad, his wife (my "stepmom", and my grandma) are with me using tech… so there’s a slight possibility I might not be able to post for a while.

But!! I refuse to say goodbye because I don’t wanna believe I’ll be gone that long. Hopefully if my mom + stepdad help me out with some money (and if my mom can talk things out with my dad), I might be able to get back here sooner. If I get enough money, I can get myself a new phone and maybe they won’t be so damn nosy about what I’m doing on it 👀

So yeah. Wish me luck y’all 🙏💔 manifesting that I’ll be back faster than a month. I don’t wanna vanish.

Tagging all my mutuals @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @mono-squamblo and @strayfelinez and @strangelilangel and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo and @meatmedallion and @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and @drownedsilverforever

Additional Note: I also wanna apologize to my two mutuals ( @ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone) on Discord 🫶💜 Before y’all go “but if you couldn’t be online on Discord, how come you sometimes posted on Tumblr??” — lemme explain. At my mom’s house, she had a strict time limit on how long I could use tech (phones, iPads, etc… not TV tho lol). And the time I was given wasn’t enough to properly hang out on Discord, it only let me do small things like make a quick Tumblr post or scroll a bit. So I wasn’t lying about not really being online — I just literally didn’t have enough time to spend in Discord convos the way I wanted to.

I’m really sorry I couldn’t be on there with y’all as much as I wanted 😔 but maybe you guys aren’t even mad at me and I’m just overthinking (as usual lmao). That’s what happens when I don’t spend enough time online, my brain goes haywire. Either way — I still wanted to say sorry, cuz I do care. 🖤

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LOVELY FANART OF ME IRL AND SKITZO 👩🏼❤️😈🐻

So I was participating in a art trade with a user named @eeeeeeeeep-lolz and I'm kinda scared to show what art I made for her because my art skills aren't honestly the best in the world! 😅

However, she made a very cute fanart of me irl and Skitzo the 1920s killer bear, and it's so adorable you have to see it for yourself, just have a look!

In case you couldn't tell, the girl with the glasses in the photo is me irl, LOL! And the anthropomorphic bear in the photo is Skitzo obviously!

So yeah, shoutout to @eeeeeeeeep-lolz for this amazing fanart

For those who wanna make fanart of my irl self, here you go (This is what I look like in gacha club 2 anyway)

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I swear I was only googling "headache cures" and this random image popped up, it's not what you think! 😅

@ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cartoon-cat7241 and @cru5h-cascades and @seleyaaaa and @strayfelinez and @yukihirop and @rivertheemoo, wanna play? :3

Let’s play a game

Everyone post the most recent picture in your camera roll. You only get one sentence to justify yourself if you wish. This one is mine.

My boyfriend is rly good at Latin, so I was looking up how to say ‘I love you’ but found this instead :)

Your turn!

@bookmovietvworm

@myfairkatiecat

@i-am-a-fish

@valtsv

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We Need To Talk About "Pointers" 💀

Okay besties, I just had the most unhinged realization and I need y'all to hear me out.

So you know how guys get boners right? Like their whole situation is just... announcing itself to the world whether they want it to or not 😭

Well guess what - WE HAVE THE SAME THING. When we get aroused, our nipples literally do the exact same thing! Same blood flow, same engorgement, same "oh god my body is betraying me right now" energy ✋

It's literally just the chest version of a boner and we DON'T EVEN HAVE A PROPER WORD FOR IT???

That's why I'm officially coining the term "POINTERS" 📍

Think about it:

✅- Casual and cheeky like "boner"

✅- Actually describes what's happening

✅ - Easy to slip into conversation

✅- Sounds innocent enough until you know 💀

Imagine just walking up to your friends like "Yo I got pointers, anyone else vibing?" The CHAOS that would ensue 😂😂😂

Anyway spread the word because this terminology gap needed to be filled and I'm not sorry about it 🙃

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For those who are confused, "f/os are "fictional others" that you consider yourself to be in a relationship with (but not always literally), whether it be romantic, sexual, platonic, or familial." so for me, that would be characters I simp for! :3

Reblog this post if you want people to send you silly images of your f/os in your askbox

Proship/adjacent DNI. This post isn't for you.

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Sorry for the Vermont travel diary flop 💔🐻🚗

Alright, so… I owe y’all a little apology. 😅 I know I kinda vanished when it came to posting my Vermont travel diaries. I was all hyped at first, but then my depression came swinging in like a wrecking ball and basically burned me out. The motivation just… poof. Gone.

Because of that, I ended up deleting the Vermont diary entries I had posted. It just felt wrong to leave them hanging there like half-finished cliffhangers with no ending. Like, imagine starting a book and then finding out the last few chapters just… don’t exist. Yeah, I didn’t wanna do that to people, especially the few of you who actually saw them and liked them. I’m really sorry about that. 🥺💔

But yeah—tomorrow morning, I’m heading back to New Jersey. I’ll have all my plushies with me (of course, Skitzo’s coming too, because you know I don’t leave him behind). Hopefully, next time I travel somewhere, I won’t be so burned out and unmotivated, and I can actually finish what I start.

Thanks to the ones who actually cared enough to check out my little travel updates. It means a lot. 🖤

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"Because I said so" straight up isn't as good an answer as you think it is.

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I’m not even gonna try to deny it—Skitzo is a total fucking heartthrob

Okay, so... I might have a huge crush on Skitzo, and let me tell you, it’s not just a casual thing. It’s a full-on, “I’m pretending to be calm but my heart is in shambles every time he smiles” type of thing.

That smile tho. Alright, we all know it’s creepy, but come on, there’s something about it that just gets me every time. Like, he KNOWS he’s too attractive, and it’s like he’s got this twisted confidence that makes me weak. If he ever smiled in my direction (and not like “I’m about to kill you” smile), I swear I’d be a goner. Like, I’d try to stay cool, but on the inside? I’d be screaming like a lovesick idiot. Can’t even explain why—it just has that effect on me.

The way he dresses. The fact that he’s shirtless is just... chef’s kiss. I can’t be the only one that finds that strangely hot? Like, he doesn’t need to be a bodybuilder or have abs to make me swoon. He’s perfect just the way he is—there’s this whole ‘I don’t care about appearances’ vibe that he gives off, and that’s way more attractive than anything else.

His personality. Okay, hear me out. Yes, he’s a sadistic, murderous demonic vengeful demonic entity, and logically, I should be repelled by that, but nope. Something about his ruthless, vengeful nature just pulls me in like a moth to a flame. I know it’s messed up, but bad boys are my thing. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not above simping for a good guy (if I can find one, haha), but there’s just something about Skitzo that flips a switch in me. It’s like, “Oh, you’re dangerous? That’s hot.”

The 1920s aesthetic. I can’t even begin to explain why this gets me, but there's something so charming about that vintage vibe. I think it’s the whole jazzy, dark, slightly eerie atmosphere of the era—maybe it's the fact that it feels like everything back then had an edge to it. Skitzo in that setting just works so damn well.

His demonic side. Okay, this one’s probably the weirdest, but hear me out: demons just do it for me. I can’t even compare this to angels—there’s something about his otherworldly nature, the dark energy he radiates, that makes him even more attractive. Maybe I just like the dangerous, unpredictable aura that comes with being demonic. Angelic characters are cool too, but demons? They just have that raw, unfiltered allure.

So yeah, I might be a bit obsessed with him, but can you blame me? He's just so fucking... perfect. Handsome, dangerous, and with that twisted charm that makes him impossible to resist. I really can't explain it any better than that—he's just too awesome.

Alright, so we really need to talk about that damn smile in more detail because, honestly, it deserves its own paragraph—hell, its own fucking post.

When Skitzo smiles, it’s like... my brain just short circuits. Like, think of Ayano Aishi from Yandere Simulator when she’s near Senpai (Taro Yamada, for all you Yandere Simulator fans out there). You know how she just freezes up and can't help but act like a total mess? That’s basically me, except I’m not shy about it at all, but it’s still like my heart’s beating way too fast and I’m tripping over myself trying to keep it together. I’d be standing there, gawking, looking like a complete idiot, just trying to process everything going on in my head.

It’s like I’d be in that zone where I’m totally entranced by him, but unlike Ayano who gets all shy and awkward around Taro, I think I’d just lose the ability to form words or do anything normal. I'd probably end up just standing there, heart racing, completely overwhelmed by how effortlessly charming and dangerous he looks. Like, I’d want to walk up to him and act all smooth, but instead, I’d be stuck staring at him, hoping he doesn’t notice how hard I’m freaking out on the inside.

And let’s be real, Skitzo definitely wouldn’t ask, “Are you okay?” or “Can I help you?” because he's not some bookish dude sitting on a fountain reading poetry. No, no, no. He’s the kind of guy who’d probably just smile wider, like he’s fully aware of what’s going on, and enjoys the effect he has on me. He’s the type who thrives on that kind of power, and that’s just... so hot. Honestly, the thought of him not being concerned but instead just playing with my reaction? I can’t even. That would be peak Skitzo energy.

I swear, if I ever found myself in that situation, I wouldn’t be able to process it at all. I’d go from looking all lovesick and dumb to being this awkward mess, completely unable to hide how much I'm... obsessed with him. He wouldn’t even need to say anything—just that smile? Yeah, it would wreck me.

So, now that we’ve broken down the smile, we need to address the "Skitzo effect." Yeah, you heard me. That smile? It's like its own fucking force of nature that just hits different. It has this weird, magnetic pull that takes me from “calm” to “total meltdown” in under 3 seconds. It’s like the second he flashes that smile, everything in my brain just goes into overdrive.

Imagine this: I’m standing there, trying to act normal (which, let’s face it, isn’t going to happen), and he smiles. My whole body just goes into freeze mode. My hands would probably just drop everything I’m holding like I forgot how to function. It’s like my body is shocked, and I’m too caught up in the intensity of his smile to do anything besides stand there, looking like a complete fool.

And then there’s the weird, kinda embarrassing part where I wouldn’t be able to look away. I mean, I would try to act cool, but the longer I stare at him, the more obvious it becomes. He’s probably just standing there, enjoying the chaos of it all, and meanwhile, I’m the one slowly sinking into this dazed state, unable to speak, unable to move, just totally hypnotized. It’s like... the second his smile hits me, I’m in this weird trance where I’m trying to fight the instinct to just... collapse. Like, I’m not physically collapsing, but mentally? Yeah, it's pretty much a mess. The whole world would feel like it’s slowing down, and all I can focus on is that smile. My heart’s racing, my palms are sweaty, and I’m trying so hard not to look like an absolute idiot in front of him, but honestly, it's impossible. It’s like a mix between falling in love and suddenly realizing you’re in danger—and it’s such a rush.

And let’s not forget the effect it has on my behavior. I’d probably start acting like I’m in a damn daze, feeling like I’m floating but also kind of like... “Am I going insane?!” It’s this weird combo of wanting to get closer but being so paralyzed by his presence that I can’t even think straight. Like, the longer I stay near him, the more I start getting drawn into his world—and it's like every second I spend in that “Skitzo aura,” the more I just want to be closer to him.

But, here’s the kicker: He wouldn’t give a damn about how wrecked I am. He’d just smile again, and I'd be back in that loop, stuck in the “Skitzo effect.” No comforting words, no “are you okay?” Just that twisted, sexy smile, and the complete lack of fucks given. And honestly? That makes it all the more intense—because I’d be the one getting lost in it, getting wrecked by it, all while he’s perfectly in control.

Honestly, I don’t know how I’d survive it. But at the same time, I don’t want to (or do I wanna?). That effect is just... too good.

Okay, so this next part is a little tricky for me to put into words, because this feeling is so weirdly specific, but I’m gonna try my best.

This isn’t a “crush.” Nope. A crush is where you’re blinded by all the cutesy “good” stuff about a person and ignore every flaw. Plus, crushes fade over time. That’s not me with Skitzo. I see his flaws. I see the murderous, sadistic, vengeful side that should, by all logic (and according to society), make me want to run for the hills—and instead, it just makes me simp for him even harder. It’s like some completely messed-up mix of love, lust, and a huge dose of obsession.

If Skitzo ever touched me (like actual, physical, non-plushie Skitzo) and it wasn’t in the context of, you know, killing me—oh my god, I’d probably short-circuit from how ecstatic I’d feel. I’m talking cloud nine, heart racing, borderline euphoric.

And honestly, I’m in deep. I binge-watch/binge-read anything Skitzo-related. If there’s a video, fanart, official art—doesn’t matter, I’m saving it straight to my phone so I can look at it whenever and just get all giddy. And it doesn’t stop there—I’ve got my Skitzo plushie, and I show affection to it constantly. We’re talking kisses (just kisses, nothing spicy), cuddles, petting his head, holding him, lying next to him, taking him with me everywhere. I know it’s not the real him, but it’s my way of expressing how much I adore him.

Part of me has this silly little hope that maybe if I poured all this affection toward him, he might see me as something other than a “potential victim.” Like maybe—just maybe—he’d spare me. And before anyone tries to pull the whole “that’s not how it works, you dumbass bitc—” yeah, shut it. I don’t wanna hear it. This is my unhinged little fantasy and I’m holding onto it.

So yeah, maybe this is “too much” for some people, but honestly? This is the clearest way I can describe how deeply I simp for him. I’m way past casual interest—this is full-on, deep, chaotic devotion. And I’m not even sorry about it.

Bonus meme because I could, LMFAO!

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That is the single most personality I've ever since in an intro post, you are a human tomato

LMAOOO I’M CRYING 💀😭 A HUMAN TOMATO— I mean TORNADO?? I’m taking both as compliments tbh 😂 And omg this is the first time someone’s used the “ask me a question” thing on my blog, so you’ve officially made Tumblr history (in my world anyway). You just made my whole day, thank you 😭💖

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‼️Flash warning

Reblog to show your blog is a safe space, or don't, no bad vibes your way if you don't wanna reblog <3

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OH MY GOD, this meme is EVERYTHING! Like, the way Skitzo is smiling—honestly, I’d totally collapse if he flashed that grin at me. I’m weak for that smile. And then Oswald, just casually like "No, Skitzo, I’m not calling you ‘Baby Girl.’" Like, excuse me, but what? 😂

And the way Skitzo gets all shocked and stabs the table like grrrr, totally offended? HILARIOUS. Honestly, no words can really do this justice, you’ve got to see it for yourself.

(And for the record, I googled it, men can totally be called "Baby Girl," so—yeah, there’s that, LOL)

I don’t ship them, but this meme is top-tier, LMFAO!

Redraw (sort of) comic panel of this funny sketch I made when I was first figuring out how to draw skitzo…ignore how he looks I DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING-

I’m still getting used to tumblr so sorry for not posting much- I’ll figure it out eventually….for now I’m just posting silly stuff-

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You never have to act a certain way to deserve gentle care or love. You’re already perfect just as you are and sometimes those big emotions can feel like too much. Whether you're fussy, quiet, nonverbal, shy, or clingy, you deserve someone who will hold you close and spoil you with endless stuffies. Gentle care isn’t something you have to earn it’s something the right person will give you without being asked. Especially when you’re feeling overwhelmed. Your emotions ARE valid and so is your response to them.

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🎉 Masha’s 6th Birthday Party Extravaganza! 🎈🐰🎂

So today was my little sister Masha's birthday and she turned the big 6! 🥳 We threw her a Sanrio themed party—think Hello Kitty, My Melody, Kuromi, and all that good stuff. It was like a pastel-colored dream, with so much cuteness I almost exploded. 💖

There were so many people, especially a bunch of kids running around, having a blast in the pool, jumping in the bouncy castle, and—wait for it—we even had a petting zoo! 🐐🐇🐑 Like legit goats, rabbits, and baby chickens, plus there was this mule that just kind of appeared in one of the vans? Not sure why but it was there. 😂

I was kinda thinking about showing my Skitzo plushie the petting zoo and maybe letting him pet the animals (how wild would that be, right?) but the lady in charge left before I could do anything. RIP to that dream. 😩

Also, the pizza? There was SO MUCH pizza. I swear, I’m still trying to figure out how we're gonna finish it all. 🍕 It was decent though, so no complaints there!

Anyway, Masha had the BEST time, and I just want to wish her a very happy birthday! 🥰 Can everyone wish my little sis a super happy birthday in the comments? She deserves all the love today!! 🥳💕

Tagging my mutuals because why not?

@ruinationz and @turbotasticnumberone and @cru5h-cascades and @cartoon-cat7241 (Two of them I know from Discord and the other two I met on Tumblr)