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It turned out ok 👍

Welp i threw a tantrum and now i'm fucked... it happens i guess

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Haven't read more than two chapters but when i'm able to afford the rest i'm sure this is going to be a great one and will feed into my delusion of being worthy of love despite being ugly

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We did it gang... We did it.

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And if you were bullied for it you grow up to be the most charismatic people in existence.. survival stincts really are something

Crazy thing about growing up ugly is that whenever people say i'm pretty now i just feel gaslighted it feels icky haha

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Doing my part to promote this masterpiece of looniness!

Go see The Day the Earth Blew Up in theaters if you are able to.

(also pre-order the blu-ray while you're at it)

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sometimes mental illness does make you act like a piece of shit. when my ocd was undiagnosed a couple years back I was absolutely insufferable because I could not control my confession/reassurance and rumination compulsions at all and I fucking hated myself so everything had to be morally pure or I would spiral and I made myself believe and said some things that made my personality not the best. sometimes healing means knowing that you are not perfect. sometimes mental health issues make people act awful and that does not give you the right to demonize and dehumanize them or the disorder. yes even that disorder. and sometimes you have to forgive yourself for the bad things you believed. you are not perfect and that is a good thing.

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Hey God, it's cool already i think you can maybe stop testing me

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Well i COULD be having sex with a loving boyfriend but i'm stuck doing a uni project with a control freak... i hate my life

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Crazy thing about growing up ugly is that whenever people say i'm pretty now i just feel gaslighted it feels icky haha

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Found out there's a ghosts uk and germany... when are we having ghosts brazil? alô rede globo

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Welp i threw a tantrum and now i'm fucked... it happens i guess

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It's honestly messed up that as a y2k kid, at such a tender age, even tho it's not the truth at all, i've put it in my head that men will only love you if you look as pale and frail as possible, like you're with tuberculosis, otherwise just good luck living as an "ugly" girl.. i have war flashbacks...

And the worst thing is i can't let that mentality go sometimes

Tbh i kinda blame kpop on the beauty standard being looking like slenderman again

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Tbh i kinda blame kpop on the beauty standard being looking like slenderman again

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𓉸ྀི new promo picture ( + clean edit without text)

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WHY ARE THE HOTTEST ONES ALWAYS TAKEN, COMMITMENTPHOBIC OR LITERALLY FACIST I SWEAR I'LL KMS

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Sue and friends on picrew ^^

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I am now a Petunia Pig stan.