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Various ice formations on wheels caused by driving through the snow.

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this person who completely ghosted me this summer has reached out to link again i suppose because we have a project to present soon and they wanted to make things less akward. i'd promised i wouldn't make it easier for them and i did. that's the only thing im disappointed about

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I have a problem with people who lean on me for approval or whose entire life is based on other people's reaction to their choices. if i hear one more "i don't know where i stand with you" istg i might act in redacted ways

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i just want to ghost 90% of the people in my life

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im overwhelmed by most human interactions. today i was at AH supermarket and it was just insane trying to move around people and things. i also don't do well with texting and this friend who's coming to visit is constantly sending me walls of text + 6mins voice messages and i just don't know how to handle it. I ended up disabling notifications on my whatsapp.

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some days i'm a tired lesbian. some months i'm a tired lesbian. it's all so complicated and exhausting. datin cismen is so comfortable, so easy and so f boring and predictable too but datin lesbians? lit hell on earth.

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one of the cats I was looking after in Amsterdam died hit by a car and it's been a shitshow ever since. been devastated by this whole situation + having to deal with this bullshit date who came over to visit and made this all thing about themselves

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raising money for Lilith's post op recovery

My friend Lilith is having her op next year and I'm going to be there in Portland to help but we need some money for rent and expenses. Please share and donate! Everything helps xxx https://gofund.me/a733aabb

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every year I start fearing summer from spring thinking that once the heat gets here I'll feel ready for it. alas it just keeps gettin worse can't think, can't read, can't function and my laptop is overheating all the f time

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i refuse to leave the house with this level of heat and humidity

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got hold of some hormones in Portland and have started hrt!!!! <3<3<3

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spent almost two weeks with this person i hosted was kind of incredible

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I'm starting to freak out about this road trip to the US though Lilith is great and I'm sure we'll have a good time together, the thought of having to share a van for almost a month with a person I barely know kinda terrifies me. i'm so used to bein alone nowadays that idk how it will be... at least I'm medicated lol

anyway if anyone who's in the US feels like meeting me in NY i'll be there end of May and then in San Francisco for a few before going off to National Parks and breaking my back sleeping in a van so hmu

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Nobody cares and in any case they will have already written the same thing a thousand times before you.

Who knows how many people must have said a similar thing to themselves while trying to validate their right to passivity as if anyone was ever unique and not a bad copy of someone else.

I think about it a little, I think about it a lot actually. It is one of those phrases that are so familiar to me, they sound like the truth.