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Made a extra Apollo wallpaper!!! WITH CRUNCHY LEAVES

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Imagine scolding your child on something you never properly taught them

For me it's cleaning and keeping things neat, time management, yuno. Basic human skills 😭😭

How about you?

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Hello, I'm the forgotten friend because I'm so quiet and awkward

I know that I have friends but..I just seem to be easily forgotten about..well, it's okay. It's not like I'd rather be the center of attention, anyways, that's worse.

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You ever feel disliked? Like not as far as being hated, like not the extreme but like...people just kinda swerve around you when you head their way, or avoid you, or at the first chance of conversation they seem to just escape...like not hated but...disliked. like...is there something wrong with me?

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I love being with my family...but every time we do "family days" or family things....they always mess it up.

Like I understand that things happen and don't always go the way we want to...but they're so negative and can't bounce back at all, like there are 2 or 3 people within the 8 people household who lose control of their emotions and ruins it for everyone else. 😐😐😔😔

It's not fair, I can't even refuse or say anything or else I'll be seen as "antisocial" and "distant". Especially when i live with them, being with them all the time is just suffocating and that sounds so horrible because its my literal family. I mean, they make it hard to get close to and I have to adapt to their emotions and their problems. Its like dealing with a bunch of toddlers, I can't wait to move out.

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At this point, I jus want to be left alone

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♡♡♡♡♡♡

Starting from today is Neurodiversity celebration week!

Happy neurodiversity celebration week! Let’s celebrate all neurodiversity!

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Dang I feel this. 😤😭

My neurodivergencies and mental illnesses overlap so much that you could diagnose me with about anything at this point

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Lol, we're supposed to crave life/to want to exist? LMMAAOOO

Ok, for real for those whole feel just like I do, you gotta ask for the presence for the Holy Spirit. I'm not asking you to be religious or all that mumbo jumbo. Just try to simply, when you're by yourself, in your mind, ask for the presence for the Holy Spirit to consume you, and by faith; you will feel peace.

it is getting harder for me to want to continue existing

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You Say...

You say you love me

But you're so mean to me

You say you love me

But you always confuse me

You say you love me

But you make fun of me

You say you love me

But you always compare me

You say you love me

But you never apologize

You say you love me

But you never speak kindly

You say you love me

But you never ask about me

You say you love me

But you don't trust me

You say you love me

But you never call me

You say you love me

But you never surprise me

You say you love me

But you only want lewdness

You say you love me

But you never hold me wholesomely

You say you love me

But you never ask about my family

You say you love me

But you don't care about my dreams

You say you love me

But you never ask for my opinion

You say you love me

But you only talk to me when you need something

I don't think you love me

You just tolerate me

I'm just a convenience to you.

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Sometimes I have to do 50 tasks by the end of the day and I only have enough energy to do 10.

Most of those tasks are basic things that most people don't even consider tasks, like brushing my teeth, taking a shower, basic chores, etc. Everything is a task amd I just don't have enough to make it by the end of the day.

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You mean there is somebody out there like that?.....for me?

Pff- I doubt that. Nobody in my circlr rlly cares what I have to say besides my mom

People:

My rathole brain:

“I never realized what a big deal that was. How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.”

— Nina LaCour

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When you're in charge of cooking dinner for your siblings(2 teens, 1 kid) and father since your mom is on an important trip but your dad is the only one eating the food.

I s

I t

B a d

O r

S o m e t h I n g

D a m n

W h a t

T h e

F u c k

A m

I

S u p p o s e d

T o

D o

W I t h

A l l

T h I s

F o o d

N o b o d y

A t e

And I'm 21 female what am I supposed to do when I get married

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🎶I said "do you love me?"

He told me, "only partly, I only

Love my bed, and my momma

I'm sorry." 🎶

kiss me!!!! kiss me kiss me kiss me kiss me kiss me kiss m

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Yup, let's not burden anybody with our feelings and just let it fester inside and slowly destroy us from the inside out- as if that's any better 😭😭

“I’m a simple person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile.”

— Unknown

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Yup..

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me