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wow that last ask was rlly insensitive. im sorry that’s what u had to come back to after taking a break

that got me so heated 💀 it did give me some of my sparkle back tho sksjsj

thank you tho! i can’t say i really feel better but all the support i’ve got here is definitely helping. i’m gonna take some time to answer to everyone when i have the energy 🥰

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hi!! are you accepting requests atm?

My last post is literally about me feeling suicidal and struggling with depression

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Why I’ve been missing

How conceited of me to make a post like this. This feels like a youtuber apology or something lmfao

First of all, I just want to say how much I miss chatting with you guys, getting thirsty asks and writing filth. I miss the joy that all of this used to bring me. Also I want to get this out of the way: this is not a goodbye or hiatus post. I’m still here 🤠

Please don’t read any further than the “read more” if depression and suicidal thoughts trigger you.

Ngl, I’m not doing well. Not at all.

I don’t want to seem like an edgy kid who self-diagnoses random illnesses to seem cool, but as you will probably guess from my next words, I have a feeling that I may be struggling with some pretty severe depression and ADHD.

My mental health has been slowly but surely going downhill for quite a while now. It started with sudden bursts of anxiety and tachicardia, and escalated all the way to suicidal thoughts. At the beginning they were intrusive thoughts that I tried to not give too much weight too, until they’ve become full fledged fantasies where I’m better off dead.

Fortunately, getting a kitten has helped with those, so I’m not joining gods spam folder out of my own volition anytime soon 🤠🎉

Every day feels like a burden to me. I either fill my time with endless, tiring work to distract myself from the voids in my life, or spend it doing absolutely nothing, no thoughts at all, lost in my own mind.

I hate myself so much for my tendencies to procrastinate and ignore my problems, and it’s an endless cycle of disappointing myself and not achieving my goals (even the easy fucking ones like cleaning my damn bathroom) that I can never seem to break out of.

Some days I want to go to sleep and never wake up. On those days I force myself to be a functioning member of society, or at least functioning enough to feed my cat and change her litter. Some others I live in autopilot and if you asked me what I do on those days, I genuinely would tell you that I don’t fucking know.

I wish I could change myself and my life but I don’t do anything significant to achieve that because what’s the point in trying when you wish you were dead instead?

I never planned to make it past the age of 18, but here I am, at almost 22, with no fucking direction in life nor any will to live. Nothing sparks me anymore, but at the same time so many things do, and I still can’t bring myself to indulge in those passions because I procrastinate them.

Covid was a lot. I lost my job so many times, I spent a year doing quite literally nothing other than reading fanfiction and closing myself in my own fantasies. Now I’m so lost and lonely.

I recognize that I have a problem, but the idea of putting myself through therapy to solve it? Not it. I tried to, but I’m always too drained, and too tired, and broke af, and there’s always an excuse I’m not even gonna lie, but anything that requires more effort than mindless work tasks feels like an insurmountable mountain to me.

So yeah. I wish I could write but I can’t bring myself to. I did with “1-2-3 Way” because it was a commission and I hate that one shot so much because of the negative feelings I’ve associated it with. I wish I could answer all your asks and messages, but honestly it’s hard for me to do it.

Maybe one message at a time I will :)

The rant is over. It has no direction whatsoever (like me lmfao) and it was written in the spurt of the moment. It probably doesn’t even make sense but yeah.

Know that I love you all, and that I value you and this space so much.

Hopefully, you’ll see me soon with more stories for you. :)

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Damn, i forgot how hard and boring waitressing is 😩

2 hours down and 8 more to go 💀

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I still have chills and nausea from the vaccine and I’m gonna work all weekend. I literally have a double shift tmrw I can’t 💀💀

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Tell me why the vaccine symptoms were worse than the covid ones in my case 💀💀

Just got the first dose of the Moderna vaccine 😙

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This will be a little bit longer, but I finally have decided to send in an ask for the maneater challenge😭 Not joking I picked my prompts straight after you dmed me, and wrote a whole draft, but I didn't know if it was gonna work out the way I wanted to so I just let it sit there for like a month💀 and I altered one of the prompts slightly if that's okay?

-Mommy kink

- 26. "Please, mommy."

- 40. "Look at you, drooling all over yourself."

-yandere!character is obsessed with reader (I didn't notice it was actually supposed to be yandere!reader until it was too late🤦‍♀️)

- Seemingly innocent and sweet reader surprises character with a kinky side

Hope that's okay anyways!💗

It’s perfectly fine!!! I can’t wait to read what you come up with 👀

Btw, the prompts were merely suggestions, you can do whatever you want with them 😌

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Just got the first dose of the Moderna vaccine 😙

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Listen…. If bucky used a love spell on me i wouldnt even be mad about it

Heavy in Your Arms Part 1

Pairing: warlock!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: yandere-ish Bucky, slight dubcon and forced marriage, obsession.

Words: 1492.

Summary: A wife of a powerful warlock, you uncover his dark secret that forces you to doubt your own sanity.

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“I promise I’ll be done quickly.” his lips gently touched your cheek, and you giggled at the feeling of his three day beard brushing against your face. “We shall have a dinner under the oak tree tonight.”

The mighty oak tree as old as time stood proudly in the field in front of a castle: it was a place where James Buchanan Barnes had proposed to you a year ago, and since then it became your favorite spot where you constantly had picnics, held dinners, or simply sat beneath it, talking. You weren’t surprised he wanted to spend time together there again.

“Of course.” you leaned closer for a kiss, carefully fixing the clasp on his black travel cloak. “Do not spend too much time looking at other women, alright?”

“Are you jealous? Really?” he burst out laughing, shaking his head before he kissed you again and then stood back, finally getting on his horse. “I will be back soon. Do not miss me too much.”

“I certainly shall!”

Keep reading

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I legit go to my dad to tell him I wanna do law school in my hometown and not go to another city since it's too expensive and he deadass looks me in the eye and says

Yeah well you're not really going to get shit done here

So supportive of him👌👌👌

Mine told me he’d disown me if i dropped out of law school to pursue another career i’m more passionate about 💘💘💘

[navegandoaciegas]

Would it be possible to get a part 2 of Married Men Do It Better with Lee Bodecker?

Sorry bb but that’s just not gonna happen. I wrote it 7 months ago and I barely remember it 💀

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This is my favorite blog and I always feel so comfy here

Thank you 🥺 this is my favorite thing to hear 🥰🥰

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You should do hoe hours again soon 👀

It’s exam season here bb 💀💀 i’ll do it again when i’m done with at least two

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Bitch 😳😳 dark ish reader??

a little dark but imagine tfatws!bucky with a therapist that’s a domintriax on the side. they somehow began to talk about sex and he brought up kinks. she gives him a card after a session tells him to meet her. He heads to the address expecting to have some kind of meeting with her but instead she has him a submissive whimpering mess.

omg 🥴 @navegandoaciegas you up for something like this?? 🥴

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I hope you do write more because I literally can’t get enough of anything that you write 🥺

Thank you so much 🥰🥰

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Do you think you’ll ever write more with watersports?

For sure!

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ooohh double helix! what piercings do you have? i have a rook and the healing pereod was hell

i have 3 holes on both lobes, both nipples, belly button and nostril 😙

the upper helix was the most painful lmfao