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I can't believe how much chemistry strees me out. I really want to die out of intermolecular forces.

My stupid ass that doesn't even know what is saying

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ι ĸnow ι'м nothing

вυт, ιғ yoυ ѕay yoυ love мe, тнaт yoυ alwayѕ wanтed тo вe wιтн мe. тнen jυѕt don'т мagιcly go тo anoтнer gιrl wнιle ιgnorιng мe and geттιng away ғroм мe. yoυ тнιnĸ ι dιdn'т noтιce тнaт yoυ ѕιт ғarтнer тoday? ι ĸnow ι'м ѕнorт ѕιgнт, вυт ι'м noт вlιnd.

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Why I'm such a failure? That when it's supposed to be happy, it's sad?

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Como paro

Miento cuando digo que estoy bien, es un mal habito que debo evitar, pero... Como lo hago si a la gente le molesta oír mis problemas? Como paro si el "como estas" aquí no significa nada.

Un turista dijo "cuando vine aquí me sorprendió que tanta gente me preguntara como estoy, pero luego me di cuenta que lo que decían nunca importo" así es la vida aquí...

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I don't need

I love her, but I don't need a partner.

I appreciate the company, but I don't need a friend

Even if I want them, or need them, I know I'll never have them.

I just need to die, to disappeard, to don't exist

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That feeling that you're worthless, and then everything in your life proof you're right

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I need to fucking die. I don't care that I'll do it in the future. I want to die now

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@trying-to-find-a-great-perhaps tagged me (thank you^^) to do this and then tag a bunch of people

Name: Eevi

Nickname: well technically my nickname is Eevi because my real name is Eveliina my no one calls me that so.. And also Princess Evelna bc I was a cute child

Sign: Sagittarius

Gender: female Sexual orientation: bi

Favorite color: all autumn colors tbh

Time rn: 11:44 am

Average hour of sleep: 7?

Last thing I googled: troye sivan europe tour (he isn’t coming to finland so i cried)

# of blankets I sleep with: 1

Fav fictional characters: ARAGORN and pretty much everyone from LOTR, also Mr. Darcy bc i’’m trash

Favorite famous people: dan and phil, troye sivan, josh dunn and tyler joseph there are so many and i’m too lazy to list then all oh god

Favorite books: the Lord of the Rings (!!) the hobbit (and pretty much everything from tolkien)  the precious stone trilogy, the kane chronicles, pride and prejudice

What I’m wearing rn: black jeans, blue shirt and a winter jacket (even tho i’m inside but it’s cold af)

I tag @gingerjustforfun, @hulluhullumaailma @vittuakoinisetsaatana @tumblerisor @wow-very-phan @verticalbardashandslash @snokoplosm  yay

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I TOLD HER I LIKE HER. HER REACTION???!

So we’ve talked a few times in school now and write almost every day. I think every single one of my friends does know now, that I have got a crush on her. 

And she does.

I told her yesterday because we won’t see each other until Tuesday. I don’t really know why I thought that would be a good reason.

Anyways, I was never hoping for her to say she liked me back. All I wanted was her to say she still wanted to be friends with me. I wasn’t really letting my head believe the opportunity that she’d say she didn’t want to have to do anything with me anymore. I still talked about it in my head and was afraid of it. I mean, it could happen. But I knew her good enough, right?

Yes. I do know her good enough and she did say we could continue being friend although she was really sorry to tell me she didn’t like me that way.

I am telling everyone that I am okay. And maybe I am. Kind of.

Because somewhere inside of me.. somewhere there was a little hope. She.. extinguished the flame. But that’s okay. I just.. deep inside of me -deep enough, it’s hard for me to notice- I am sad. Because I had all those possibilities in my head, and a few of them were her saying she liked me back. Best-case scenarios. The worst worst-case scenario would have been her laughing at me and telling the whole school and then additionally her hating me.

Gosh, I even like her for the way she doesn’t like me.

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You kiss her, even when you told me you don't like girls. You love her even when you told me you could never see girls that way, It was just me, wasn't It?

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I'll be funny

When someone come across this blog and think, "Is she alright?" if they even think about it, and then realize that I'm probably (will) he dead

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It's raining, because the world is crying for me, so anyone won't notice and ask

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If I could only tell you, everything would be different

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What I love about tumblr is that any of my "friends" are here, so don't have to see how well they're doing when they abandon me

Depressed me

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I feel like colapsing, I feel like I should kill myself, I'm just a bag of bad decisions. Please, someone get rid of me

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"I try hard to change, but forgeting about you, forgeting these feeling is imposible for me, even if it hurts. I can't forget"

Nani-chanx and bit depression... Yeah

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