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Discovering his Bisexuality, First Boyfriend & Coming Out

Growing up all his friends had moms and dads even the two or three of them that weren’t actively married or living together, his grandpa was married to his grandma, and despite being single Bowie never saw his mom in a relationship with anyone. On tv and in movies, it was pretty much always the guy getting the girl, or the girl breaking up with the big shot business guy to get with her former high school crush that never left their hometown and taught her the true meaning of Christmas isn’t about presents or money, but the presence of the people you love and care for. So there really wasn’t a whole hell of a lot that even let him know liking boys was something possible for a another boy to do. 

He first started realizing that he liked girls when he was around 12 or so. Not only did he realize that he liked girls, but he quickly learned that girls liked him back. Bowie was more than happy for years to flirt with girls, kiss girls, hook up with girls and even date girls… though that last one never quite ended well for him. He had a few girlfriends, and a few almost-girlfriends. The actual ones all dumped him, but the roughest breakup of all was Eleanora after 9 months of dating.

It was only a few months after that that he was invited to a party by his friends who wanted him to stop moping around and in a funk. It was at this party that he met Zachariah, a beautiful young man, an aspiring artist with fluffy black hair. Bowie hung out with him pretty much the entire party, and when Bowie went to leave Zach made sure to give his phone number. After that Bowie and Zach pretty much became inseparable, always texting or hanging out, or making plans to go to shows & following through on those plans. 

When they’d go out in public though, it wasn’t out of the ordinary for girls to sometimes approach the two. When they approached himself, Bowie always felt a little bothered, slightly upset that his time with Zach was being interrupted. When girls approached Zach though… he realized that he felt… jealous. He talked it over with his therapist on a few occasions, and eventually came to the realization that the reason he felt upset and jealous was because he liked Zach. He has a crush on him. On New Year’s Day, a few months after Bowie had turned 19, him and Zach were heading to Zach’s apartment arm in arm after getting a little drunk at a party with other friends. Thankfully the alcohol not only gave him an excuse to stay longer and alone with Zach but it also gave him the courage to admit his feelings. Even more thankfully Zach shared his feelings, the two kissed in his living room and they began dating. 

The first person other than mutual friends to find out about the two of them dating happened six months later, and was actually Ivan, when Zach stopped by Solis before close one night, he had walked out from the office in the back just the two young men greeted one another with a kiss. Caught and flustered Bowie and Zach quickly said their goodbyes and Bowie closed up the store before heading to the back office. He nervously rambled a long speech to Ivan, from the break up with Eleanora to meeting Zach, to realizing his feelings to now dating him. Bowie felt like an elephant was sitting on his chest as he paced across the room while over explaining things and apologizing for what had just transpired in the front of the shop. He felt like a trillion years passed, he thought he was going to throw up and then Ivan spoke and all he had to say about it was one single word. 

“Okay.”

Bowie was confused, but relieved enough to actually sit down across from Ivan. When pressed for what he meant beyond okay. All Ivan did in response was shrug and say that he was grateful that Bowie felt comfortable enough to tell him, and that Zach, same as Eleanora had been, was allowed to visit and spend time at the shop as much as they wanted- so long as it didn’t interfere with helping customers or other responsibilities. Ivan nodded finally and said. 

“I’m proud of you. He seems nice and you… you seem happy.” 

It was one more month before Bowie introduced Zach to his mom over a nice dinner that him and Zach made together. She was admittedly a little more surprised at the new than Ivan had been, but just as supportive and accepting. 

By the time they celebrated their first year everyone important in their lives were aware of their relationship an Bowie moved in to Zach’s apartment.

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Bowie Core Aesthetic

go to pinterest and type in "your muses name core aesthetic" and create a moodboard using nine images.

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Dating History

When Bowie was sixteen he got into his first relationships. Plural. Talia Strand, and Cassiopeia Andrews. Talia was a red headed girl, she liked true crime, and was a fantastic storyteller who was very interested in writing- which is how they met, at school in creative writing class. Cassiopeia (or Cassie, as she tended to be called) was a black girl, who wore her hair in braids, she loved art, live music and science, he met her while taking Nova to the science center for her birthday for a few hours, Cassie was working there as a gift shop attendant. Bowie had really hit it off with both girls, managed to get both their numbers and eventually started to date them both. Without the other knowing. 

Bowie didn’t really think too much of it. They were just dumb irrelevant high school relationships that wouldn’t last in the long run. So what harm could it really do? He dated the two of them for only three months, before one day they had both shown up at Solis to surprise him. It had been a slow night, so Bowie was thankful that there weren’t any customers around to witness the explosive confrontation they had not just with him, but also one another. Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, Ivan was around in the back. When he heard the screaming he came out, and managed to deescalate the situation, before sending the two young women out of the store. Closing up that night, Bowie apologized to Ivan both for his behaviour and for it causing a scene in the shop. Ivan simply told him that he was not either of the people Bowie owed apologies to. That night Bowie tried to talk to them both and offer his apologies but neither girl would answer his attempts. 

Bowie started therapy not long after that, at Ivan’s encouragement. He did a lot of inner work, realizing why he had cheated; deep down he didn’t think he deserved to be loved, so he self sabotaged before he could even be proved wrong. 

He didn’t didn’t date anyone again until he was 18, when he met Eleanora while playing at an open mic night. She was blonde and petite, and she loved music just as much as he did. They had dated for nine months before she dumped Bowie leaving Portland in attempt to explore music opportunities. That break up took a toll on Bowie, it had really broke his heart. 

Bowie’s most serious relationship was with Zachariah. They met not too long after Eleanora had dumped him, but he didn’t start dating Zachariah until a little while later, Bowie was at little older than 19. He was an artist, with long fluffy black hair. He was kind and compassionate, and he made Bowie laugh more than anyone else had ever met. They had dated for two years, and they’d had many serious conversations about their futures and their future together. They were considering moving somewhere new, New York, San Francisco, Chicago, and just starting a new chapter of their lives together. It might have seemed a little fast to anyone outside of the relationship but it had been Bowie’s longest one, and he really deeply loved Zach. Their plans were practically decided for them when Zach got accept to attend an art school out of state. 

Just as they were about to take this leap of faith together… Ivan Laurens suddenly died. Leaving Bowie at a cross roads. As much as he loved Zachariah, the thought of Solis Music- a place that was basically a second home not just to himself but to Nova- closing it doors forever, and leaving Ivan and Nova without his legacy or a memory to hold on to was heartbreaking. So when Jaclyn approached him while cleaning up after the funeral if he would be willing to be partial owner and run Solis Music, he accepted, despite the fact he had only recently turned 21 at the time. 

Him and Zach had talked about it, and argued about it. Bowie explained his reasonings, Zach reminded him of their plans. Words were yelled, tears were shed.. and in the end Zach understood why Bowie couldn’t leave Portland, and they both understood that they were going to be far too busy to handle a long distance relationship. So together they realized their only option was to break up. Ever since, Bowie has never officially dated anyone. He’s gone on dates, and had casual hooks ups with both men and women but none ever materialized into a more serious relationship. 

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From Anonymous: { KISSES 💋 } ----- Is your muse a good kisser? Have they ever had a bad kiss before? What's a memorable kiss they've had?

Bowie is a very good kisser. He has plenty of experience in kissing with a wide rang of people and has really perfected his skills in that area.

His first kiss ever wasn't anything too special. He was nine, she was nine, it was seven minutes of truth or spin the bottle (he can't even remember what dumb party game it was). It was just a quick peck. Though not necessarily bad. He's definitely had worse kisses, sometimes people just have too much saliva for his liking and it's just messy.

One of the most memorable kisses Bowie has ever had was with Zachariah, a boy he met through a friends a few months after a rough breakup with a recent girlfriend. Something about Zach was just immediately charming and they hit it off immediately quickly becoming best friends. But Bowie was slowly realizing he wanted something different than friendship with Zach, and having only been with girls prior it was something Bowie took some time to really come to terms with.

One night, after some party at a mutual friends house, the two of them headed back to Zach's apartment- if only so that Bowie's mom wouldn't learn of the underage drinking they'd been doing. Bowie awkwardly and bashfully confessed his feelings, thanks to the liquid courage he'd imbibed earlier in the night. Zachariah kissed him. Everything about it was perfect. It was like everything melted away and they were the only two people in the world.

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Family History

On October 1st in Reno, Nevada, Bowie Frederick Anderson was born to a seventeen year old Claire Anderson. No father was pregnant in the delivery room. Bowie went on to be raised in Reno by this mother Claire, and his grandparents; Freddie and Ruth Anderson. The three of them did their best to raise Bowie to know that he was very much deeply loved, and very much wanted. They did everything they did to teach him that family is family and all families are different and that’s okay. It worked… when he was five. 

As he grew older Bowie couldn’t help but notice that his dad was never around. Not in pictures, not in their house, and he quickly understood that his mom and dad weren’t married but he never even showed up to family events, like birthdays, or Christmas. By the time he was 10 years old, Bowie had done the math in his head regarding the age difference between himself and his mom and in doing so he had a pretty good idea about why his dad was never around.

The man never wanted anything to do with Bowie. As a result Bowie doesn’t even know his name, even despite asking his mom for it a few times.

Around the time Bowie was 13 and nearing the time to start high school, Claire had managed to get a job as a nurse out in Portland, Oregon. This resulted in the small family of two moving out of Fred and Ruth’s house. It was rough for Bowie, new school, new state, new city, new people. His mom was working a lot, and he hated being alone. He missed his grandparents, he missed his friends from Reno. This loneliness reignited a lot of anger towards whoever his father was, thinking if the Man had actually stepped up they wouldn’t have needed to move to Portland in the first place, at the very least it would mean that Bowie wasn’t alone so frequently while his mom worked. 

The anger would bubble up inside of him and result in him snapping at people who didn’t deserve it, he was also no stranger to get into fights at school. Until he found music that is. Bowie found Solis Music when he was about 15, he bought a guitar and quickly became a store regular. Eventually, he decided it was time for himself to get a job and one of the very first places he applied to was Solis Music. He really hadn’t thought he was going to get the job, when just before his interview he got in a scuffle with some bullies from school who were only scared off when they saw Ivan walk out of the store. Bowie was nervous during the interview, knowing that the way he had just acted didn’t exactly paint a responsible picture of himself. It was all the more shocking to him once the conversation was over that Ivan told him he was hired. 

Ivan wasn’t just a boss, he very quickly became a mentor and something of a father figure to Bowie. He supported Bowie and gave him advice whenever Bowie came to him struggling with something. He encouraged Bowie to try therapy, recognizing the anger, and loneliness and destructive behaviour in the boy, not only did Bowie listen and start therapy, but it really did help him let go of a lot of of the complicated feelings he had regarding his mysterious biological father. Bowie owes so much to Ivan, and will always try to live his life in a way that would make Ivan proud. 

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💞💘🌸 VALENTINE'S DAY HEADCANONS ; an assortment of headcanons related to the holiday or just love in general. Send in one or more to learn more about my muse! Specify muse if you're a multi!

{ HEARTS 💘 } ---- What's the most important thing that your muse holds close to their heart? Is it a person, place or thing? { CANDY 🍭 } ----- Does your muse like to eat candy or buy candy for themselves on this holiday? Has anyone ever gifted them candy? Do they like it? { LOVE 🥰 } ----- What does love mean to your muse? Do they feel loved/lovable? Are they the type to love easily? { AMOR 😍 } ---- What was their first love confession like? Did they get rejected? Did it happen over a special occasion (like a date)? { CRUSH 🌸} ----- Do they get crushes easily? How do they act around their crush? { GLITTER ✨ } ----- What's an ideal outfit for a Valentine's Day date? Do they like dressing up? Describe what they'd wear! { GIFTS 🎁 } ----- Do they expect gifts for the day? What's something they'd give their partner? { DATE 🌆 } ----- Describe your muse's ideal date. Do they have a dream date they'd like to go on? { DANCING 🪩 } ----- What kind of activities does your muse like to do with their partner? Are they good at these things? { KISSES 💋 } ----- Is your muse a good kisser? Have they ever had a bad kiss before? What's a memorable kiss they've had? { XOXO 😘 } ----- What's something steamy or spicy they've done on a date? Do they usually have sex on the first date? What's a wild sexual encounter they've had? { ROMCOMS 🍿 } ----- Do they enjoy romantic comedy movies? Have they ever read a romance novel? What are their favorites? { CHOCOLATE 🍫 } ------ Are there any special desserts or sweets they order while on a date? Do they have a sweet tooth?

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Independent & Private roleplay/ask blog for original character Bowie Anderson (& by request canon character Alphonso Hargreeves), with verses in stranger things, the umbrella academy, misfits and more. Please read rules & fill out interest tracker before interacting.

—A STUDY IN; found family, bettering one's self, mental health, loneliness, identity, absentee fathers, queerness, being the product of a teenage pregnancy, letting go of anger, superheroism, and accepting responsibility.

Carrd | Rules | Verses | Relationships | Interest Tracker

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──  romantic gestures.   bold what applies to your muse , italicize if there's potential / it depends

holding hands · buying flowers · cooking · cuddles · writing a poem / song · holding door open · tying shoe laces · dressing their partner · sharing a milkshake with two straws · offering their jacket when it's cold · kissing in the rain · publicly confessing love · long walks at the beach · doing the titanic pose on a boat · taking cute pictures in a photo booth · sharing a taxi / uber · kissing the back of their hand · slow dancing · getting tickets of their favorite artist / sports team / other · introducing them to their parents · lighting candles · flower petals on bed · love letters · star gazing · brushing / doing their hair · picnics · teaching them to play an instrument / sport while gently guiding their hands · compliments · late-night drives · taking selfies together · drawing them · self-made gifts · massages · proposing with a family heirloom ring · lending them their favorite book to read · paying for dinner / coffee · mixtapes / playlists · surprise birthday parties · feeding them · handing them keys to their apartment · making space in drawer for their clothes when they stay over · sharing a blanket · couple costumes · tucking a hair strand behind their ear · running after them at the airport / keeping them from leaving · moving cities to be together · blowing a kiss · breakfast in bed · defending them in a fight (verbally / physically) · joint bubble baths · dropping the L-bomb ("i love you") · dedicating a song at the karaoke bar to them · wearing their clothes · yawning before putting an arm around them while watching a movie · granting them the last (or first) bite (from meal)

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🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑨𝑹𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺. (  add " + " to reverse the action.  )

❛  do you want to tell me about your day?  ❜ ❛  here, you look like you're freezing.  ❜ ❛  i love you just the way you are, and i'm here to remind you of that whenever you need to hear it.  ❜ ❛  i promise i'll always be here if you need me.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could take away all your pain.  ❜ ❛  i'll stand by you, no matter what challenges may come our way.  ❜ ❛  i'm gonna make sure nothing bad will ever happen to you.  ❜ ❛  if you need a shoulder to lean on or someone to listen, i'm here.  ❜ ❛  if you need someone to talk to i'm always just one phone call away.  ❜ ❛  it's okay. i've got you. you're safe now.  ❜ ❛  it's okay to feel this way, we've all been there.  ❜ ❛  it's okay to lean on others for support occasionally.  ❜ ❛  just let me take care of you for a bit.  ❜ ❛  no matter what happens, you'll always have a place in my heart.  ❜ ❛  what do you need me to do to make you feel better?  ❜ ❛  you can always ask me for help if you need it.  ❜ ❛  you just relax and let me do the rest. you deserve a break.  ❜ ❛  you look like you could use a hug.  ❜ ❛  you're always taking care of me so no it's my turn to return the favor.  ❜ ❛  you're not alone in this. i'm here for you, no matter what.  ❜

[ blanket ] sender draping a blanket over receiver's shoulders [ breaths ] sender helping receiver to calm down by using breathing techniques [ compliment ] sender complimenting receiver to make them smile [ cry ] sender offering receiver a shoulder to cry on [ gift ] sender giving receiver a small gift [ hand ] sender holding receiver's hand while they're walking [ hug ] sender pulling receiver into a tight embrace [ injured ] sender helping an injured receiver with everyday tasks [ jokes ] sender trying to make receiver laugh [ kindness ] sender surprising receiver with random acts of kindness [ massage ] sender giving receiver a shoulder massage to tend to their sore muscles [ patterns ] sender drawing random patterns on receiver's skin [ pillow ] sender offering receiver to use them as a pillow [ scars ] sender gently tracing receiver's scars [ sick ] sender bringing a sick receiver whatever they need ( food / medicine / etc. ) [ steady ] sender wrapping an arm around receiver's waist to steady them [ support ] sender quietly sitting down next to receiver to let them know they're there [ touch ] sender letting receiver know they're there through simple touch [ warmth ] sender pulling receiver into their arms to share body heat [ wound ] sender cleaning / bandaging receiver's wound(s)

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spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐑𝐊𝐒 & 𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐒

BOLD what applies. ITALICIZE what sometimes applies. STRIKE what doesn’t. REPOST & DON’T REBLOG.

likes  artificial  watermelon, sleeps  in  what  they  are  already  wearing, eats  their  cereal  with  milk,   listens  to  music  with  earbuds, hates  the  summer, can  recite  passed  the  first  four  digits  of  pi, eats  frosting  out  of  the  jar,   doodles  on  their  notebooks, can  bake  cookies, has  a  garden farm, has  had  a  snowball  fight, eats  pancakes  without  syrup, prefers  shorts  over  pants, can  name  more  than  ten  superheroes, has  a  plan  for  the  zombie  apocalypse, uses  the  same  password  for  everything,   can’t  hold  their  breath  for  more  than  fifteen  seconds, watches  anime,  hasn’t  read  harry  potter, can  say  ‘  i  love  you  ‘  in  more  than  one  language, prefers  mechanical  pencils,  thinks space is cool, takes  personality  tests  more  than  once  to  make  sure, can’t  tie  their  shoelaces,   has  a  purse, likes salads, likes  cool  colors  better  than  warm  colors, knows  how  to  braid  hair,  reads  biographies, can  ice  skate, knows  their  mbti, reads  astrology  charts,    prefers  the  star  wars  prequels  to  the  original  trilogy,   plays  video  games, reads  the  newspaper, likes  chocolate  ice  cream  best, doesn’t  cuss, memorizes  song  lyrics, collects  coupons, has  a  preferred  order  at  starbucks, likes  movie  theater  popcorn, has  seen  a  play, listens  to  music  with  headphones, owns  a  hoodie, would  rather  own  cds  than  online  copies, has  written  a  poem, can shuffle  cards, subscribes  to  a  magazine,  double  dips  when  eating, drinks  directly  out  of  the  milk  container, keeps  a  journal

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i'm sorry i told u about my dad do u still think i'm hot

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Something I want to reiterate due to a recent issue:

This blog, n0tdavid l, is an independent blog. It's not a side blog.

I have multiple blogs in tumblr RPC for various OCs/Canons. Each of these blogs I write are their own separate blogs. I have no side blogs and I don't treat them like side blogs. Each of these blogs is MUTUALS ONLY.

That means, if you follow n0tdavid, and I follow you from n0tdavid we can write with one another through n0tdavid.

It does not give you a free pass to write with say idcnticxl, or psykr0nium, or m1xtcpes, or wxshingtcns, unless we are mutuals on those blogs as well. If you try to send a meme to those blogs without us having a mutual especially if you don't follow the blog you're sending a meme to, you will be hard blocked from that account.

I am more than happy to keep writing with anyone from any blogs where we are mutuals, but I will not stand by and let anyone disregard the rules laid out on my blogs without consequence.

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Send “Maybe?” if your muse has thought of kissing mine

Even if it was only once for a split second!

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Send me hc + a word of your choosing and I’ll write a headcanon relating to that word!

Or send hc + two words and I’ll try and come up with one that links those two things together!