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I wrote him a poem, I opened myself, my body, my mind, my vulnerability, like because HE was receptive HE started the whole I like you more than I thought shit and I FELL FOR IT.

I let him break through my walls… did things with him I never did in my LIFE. As soon as he got it. He got cold… I feel used :(

I shouldve kept it on lock.

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Coming to terms that I do want to be desperately loved.

Not even desperately…. Genuinely. Like I swesr I genuinely LOVE my friends and family. Or people I talk to.

But it seems that no one values/sees me how I see them 🧐

Like goddamn. When will someone care about me and I just feel it naturally and strongly. And without paranoia or feel like im begging to be acknowledged/appreciated.

Like niggas cant even play imessage pool but wanna be in you. Bitches cant even check on you but want you to drive to alabama with you. Stepmom talking bout she don’t know why I don’t like her but can’t even ASK ME directly. Like im WAITING to tell you.

God I feel so abandoned at all times.

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Tmi. Having the worst time/luck finding a steady date/fwb like. No one wants to just be decent and have sex.

Like you either have to be wife or “whore”. Or some men make me feel like fucking Gayle King, like Im an interview stale ass convo. No banter or interesting convo. They don’t care to ask what YOU like.

And these fake ass daddy doms everywhere like you all arent all dominants like this🤣. Is it me or is the dating pool just shit from a butt!

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Clouded Sulphur Butterfly. Wichita, Kansas, USA (September 23, 2023).

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me asf

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1001 Nights (1998) Art: Yoshitaka Amano

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Blue Buddha Farm: Assortment of Mixed Caladiums

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Marius Seidlitz (German, b. 1985)

Through the Flower, 2023

Oil on canvas

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Aerial view of a volcanic crater. Danakil Depression, Ethiopia Photo credit: Chris John

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