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Feeling alone

So, I haven't posted here in a while. I have friends and family, but no one to really talk to right now. So, I thought I would write this. If we used to talk or be friends and you were blocked. Know that i've cleared my blocked lists of accounts. Know that you can contact me if you wish. I'm not in the best of shape or mindset lately and I just need people to talk to about really anything.

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So, we made peace and ended on good terms? How??? I don’t feel at peace. 

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Rigel 

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Just because...

I can’t help but to wonder. Does she still think about me? Even though she didn’t care. It’s hard not to miss her, but I don’t miss the things she did. She was the one I loved, but she didn’t love me back. Now, I both see and hear that she’s learning some hard realities about life and while I want to be there for her. I know that I can’t. Now the sole reason that we met is fading away into the abyss. It makes it feel even more like a sign that things were not meant for us. 

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If you’re scrolling through tumblr trying to distract yourself from something you don’t want to think about or you’re looking for a sign that everything will be okay, this is it. So, breathe. Relax into this moment. You’re alive & that’s all that matters.

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Do I look Like I’m Gonna Fucking Believe You!! 

Awesome words

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So break me down if it makes you feel right And hate me now if it keeps you all right You cant break me down if it takes all your might Cause I am so much more than all your lies

Breakdown - Seether (via blutraene)

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If she mentions it more than once, it’s bothering her.

via KushandWizdom (via kushandwizdom)

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Quote of a friends...

“Sorry for taking so long to respond. I wasn't doing well, so I kind of just went into hiding. This whole thing that Kelley's doing is disgusting, and it's even more evident that yes, she was stalking you, since she's now doing the exact same things to Foxen. So it can be easily proven that she's just doing it to imitate you guys, and not just find common interests. The fact that she's talking to Barka, though.....that's just beyond wrong. I truly wish I knew how she rationalizes this in her head. It's all sick.

And no, I've not been stolen from you. I know you've lost friends to Kelley in the past,  but in your own words, you said I was the first person to come to you and say that what was happening to you was not okay. I tried to do a lot of behind-the-scenes mitigation, drafted the letter, and was your friend through that and after. I have my own mind, and my own free will, I can't be 'stolen', not that I'd turn traitor and ditch you to go fully support the things Kelley is doing.” 

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Well, the FA admins took it upon themselves to delete my journal titled “ There are consequences for a persons actions.” Despite me having opened a trouble ticket for that exact situation and not hearing back from them at all other than a note from their “system account” delivering a warning (1st offense) to me for this. When this same thing has happened and been done to me by the same person on and off again for the last five years. Why am I the one getting the warning? When they always show up too late to help? Why did KellsterKitten or LittleTinyPaws not have anything done to them? It’s a bad sign when someone has to take matters into their own hands rather than being able to receive timely help from the FurAffinity admins or mods. 

Please help! In which ever way that you can. KellsterKitten a.k.a. LittleTinyPaws has been stalking both FoxenBPerry and myself for at least two weeks now. Despite our numerous times of asking her to stop. She continues to disrespect our frequent requests to be left alone. - There are consequences for a persons actions.    By MysticMidnightRealm, a day ago People who don’t respect me or my past. Hold my past against me. Compare me unfairly to their uncle. Don’t respect my wishes. Don’t see that their actions harm others, including myself. Aren’t worth my time anymore. Why should I continue to give in and forgive? Why should I continue to give you chances to change your ways? Especially when you were warned ahead of time that said actions would hurt me and asked to please not do the same to me. That others have done to me before. It’s sad that I have to spell this out for my abuser. You’ve known that i’ve been repeatedly and constantly stalked before both in real life and on the internet by my father, uncle, and grandmother and that it’s even still going on today. You knew it had caused me to develop a form of schizophrenia. Paranoia is NOT fun. When you go and fave artwork that i’ve commissioned an artist for on a new, alternate account, try to relay messages to me through others, or even by your self in comments that you’ve left. That’s harassment and that’s stalking. You’re doing exactly what they would do to myself and my brother on Facebook. There was NOT a day that went by that I was not open to you about this. That I did not tell you about my past trouble with them. That I asked you to stop and told you that it bothered me. Yet, here you still are doing it all the same ways that you’ve always done. Do you even have an inkling of an idea of how you’ve traumatized me? Scarred me mentally and emotionally? Do you not realize that your actions harm others? If you do, then why in the hell are you still doing them if you didn’t and don’t mean to hurt me? You care? You didn’t mean to? People like you are just as much a monster as they were to me. Either leave me alone or face the consequences. I’ve said good bye to you. Give it up and stop making excuses. Stop trying to blame your victims for you having done wrong and stop throwing pity parties. It’s not very becoming of you and only shows your immaturity. KellsterKitten. We know LittleTinyPaws is your new, alternate account that you’re using to stalk FoxenBPerry and myself with. You’re not fooling anyone. Stop it. End it or face the consequences. We just want you to leave us alone! Go away! Stop following us around. We see you doing it. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16888327/ http://www.furaffinity.net/user/freehugscoalition/ http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6814881/ http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6831348/ http://www.furaffinity.net/user/littletinypaws/

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creepy

May I ask who this is? 

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