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Phu really looked at Cir's fiancée and said "Ho is you cool?"

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The fact that I knew the moment Jin looked at Phu funny, he heard something on Phu's mind that got him worried. And I'm pretty sure the fact that it was Phu who initiated their first time (by getting closer to Cir and kissing him first) wasn't a decision made on the spot, Phu had already made his mind (akin to Sky's decision on to have sex with Prapai again, I talk about this in great detail here) and seeing Cir play the flute his dad gifted him only solidify the decision.

However, no matter how much Phu wanted to have more time with Cir (the episodes theme revolves around grief, regrets and lost time), having Cir confess his love to him in front of his dad, and again while in their intimate moment felt wrong for the simple fact that Phu "knows" that the Phukan Cir loves it's not him but the boyfriend he had for the last four years, the boyfriend he got in high school, the boyfriend who had Cir to stay by his side on his dad's death anniversary, a Phukan that was suffering for having to deal with a version of Cir that didn't even had any idea they were together.

So, Phu did what he thought (rightfully) was the correct thing to do and cut all romantic ties he and Cir had, to avoid starting to have more regrets that he was already having: the regret of having fallen for a man that had another boyfriend waiting for him, the regret for letting Cir into his life, the regret of open his heart and learning to lean on someone else in his dark moments, the regret for being selfish and asking for just a little bit of happiness, in expense of someone else's despair. And no matter how Phu rationalize his decision, a decision we know is the right one to take giving the circumstances, he ended up gaining another regret, in the form of Cir's car accident.

Grief takes many forms, and Phu has been grieving the entire episode, even while being happy because he was grieving the lost of a man he had by his side but didn't belong to him.

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Was I supposed to feel any warm fuzzies when Yotha and his mum had their reconciliation moment?? Cause I sure as shit didn't... I hate the mum more than ever after this scene because it's even more evident to me now that she doesn't care about her relationship with her sons, she just cares about her own comfort.

She's only been so focused on fixing things with Yotha because he's loud and abrasive in his dislike of her, and that makes her life harder because she can't ignore it. But look at the others.

Newton is completely emotionally disconnected and apathetic. He takes the news that his mother is moving roughly 6000 miles away with the same level of emotion you'd give a casual acquaintance, with "well if I'm ever in your neck of the woods we should catch up" energy. And I think this is because he genuinely doesn't care, he hasn't relied on his mum since the divorce and is of the 'no expectations means no disappointments' mentality. The mum is fine with this distance because it's subtle and non-confrontational, which is comfortable for her. Who cares that his coping mechanism is unhealthy, at least it's quiet.

Then we have Faifa... I could, and do, cry when I think too hard about this poor boy. His mum ripped him out of one family unit and then shoved him out of another. And why?? For her own convenience. In her own words, she took him to live with her because he, the child, would experience enough separation anxiety to force her, the adult, to keep in touch with her other kids. Thats a level of emotional abuse that I dont even have the language to try and explain... and then she fully admits that if she'd taken Yotha in the divorce, they'd have never seen her again.

Then, we can only assume, especially after the "your stepfather and siblings ask about you all the time" comment, that he wasn't shoved out of his second family due to unresolvable issues or something like that. It sounds more like, at some point, it became more comfortable for her to keep these two chapters of her life completely separate. This trauma has made Fai such a people pleaser that he's completely unable to process, let alone call out, his mums shitty actions and is instead left feeling like a burden who constantly has to prove his worth. (Don't even get me started on the fact that his mother practically rips his self worth away, admits she didn't want to live with him because she loved him but purely for convenience, drops the bomb that she's abandoning him again, and then he offers her a lift to the airport!! Like he feels the need to prove his worth one last time.) But at least, from the mums perspective, this isn't uncomfortable or overt, so she doesn't see, or chooses not to acknowledge, the obvious hurt he's going through cause its easier for her not to. She gets to keep her comfort through willful ignorance.

So yeah, it's nice Yotha has had a chance to get some closure, but at what cost??

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I hate Yotha and understand him so much at the same time. He never had a role model for what love should be by his parents or by Wa ( cause that was considered brotherly love by Wa). He doesn’t know what love is or how it feels like and he is just so confused and scared of hurting Gun and himself again. He definitely has avoidant attachment.

But it pisses me off he says he’s unsure of his feelings and then goes and kisses gun and acts like they’re been boyfriends for 10 years like wtf man. PSA, only I can hate Yotha and if I see any hate watch out

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i still can’t get over this like how is the huge ass gay rainbow between their heads just a coincidence?? also they’re in their own little world here and it’s just really funny.

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Yotha please use your mouth to communicate instead of constantly kissing Gun

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I just finished the show and it was way too short 💔

what if a gay show was about a giant deaf guy who worked as caretaker and happened to get a job of looking after the brattiest little nepo baby in the world. and the brat felt like he was being seen for the first time in his life. and it slapped

what if the gay show had a side romance about a cringefail mafia wannabe youngster who thought the best way to take out his target and move up the gang career ladder was to get drunk and fuck the target. and the sex was bad but the older guy was into that and held younger dude at a knifepoint to ask for another go at it. and that romance also slapped

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And they were roommates…

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I desperately need Black's back story 🤕!!

Both of the twins are in fields their parents are in( this is so cool). The difference being White doesn't like being a diplomat and is forced to be it. While Black, whose mom is a powerful judge, studies law. But Black left home because of his fights with his mother and choose law to dismantle the corrupt system. And White also follows his brother's arc, but does missions his own way. Also, Black could've easily become a lawyer with his mom's help, does he hate her that much? Is his mom also super corrupt and what made him realize his privileges?What was his breaking point to leave? How complex is his relationship with his mother and everyone else? How did he find Gumpa?? What was his process like running away from home? And what new privileges did he realize he had? Like he never had to worry about food, money, security. But he lives alone now and has to fend for himself.

And I think he's the most caring person ever. You realize your privileged and part of the problem, of course you start a gay vigilante group to dismantle the system!! And his sticks to his morals through and through, left his mom and situationship ( who he later trys to kill). In conclusion, I love my short king that self sabotages ♥️♥️

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I'm so intrigued by Jeff and Charlie's relationship. Charlie was EVERYTHING to Jeff. A parent figure, brother, friend, and so much more. They share so much trauma together and are each other's ride or die. Everyone ( at least that I know of) phrases it as Charlie who keeps himself alive for Jeff. But it's also true vice versa. Jeff couldn't care less about people and his whole life and world is Charlie. Like a 3 yr old's whole world is their parent. He doesn't need anything except his brother ( Char) who accepts him for the REAL HIM. I feel like the reason Jeff has a attitude with ppl is obviously because of his trust issues also because he knows Charlie already loves him for who he is , so why does he need to socialize with others or need them? Working in the same garage ( 10 feet apart without any interaction) is already enough!!!!

They protect each other, lie for each other, and most importantly keep each other alive!! Which is an unspoken pact they live by. And it would totally break Jeff if he learned Charlie killed himself, it's ignoring their pact and Jeff would def blame himself and his self esteem would be ⬇️ He couldn't be Charlie's safe space like Charlie was to him

I know plenty of fanfics show Jeff grieving for Char, but would've loved to see that in the show

I LOVE TTHHEIR RELATIONSHIP AND HOW MUCH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER THE SHOW COULD'VE DONE SO MUCH WITG THE BROTHERS RELATIONSHIPPP

Anyway this is me rambling way to much, even though the show was mid I love adding complexities to their relationships and the fanfics EATT

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I literally have millions of ideas on my notes about fanfics but I never have the time to write them and I'm always busy when I get a new idea

* takes a big breath* WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME

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When I'm doing math and I have to use tan to find something my brain automatically goes to TanFang... They're the only reason I tolerate math now

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I'm gonna be real. When I first started watching We Are I thought it was mid. I didn't like the acting, the PhumPeem plot was so overdone, and it didn't really venture out to angst or drama... But I kept watching it every Wednesday guys and it was my little escape and I love these creatures so much and I was about to cry the last episode. Welp time to watch we are again and to drown myself in fanfics of them

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Are there straight ppl on Tumblr ?? *queer frowns with confusion*

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smoochie dookie pumpkin bear I can't talk to you rn. It's's 1 AM and my time to hyper analyze everything in my life and have a interview with a imaginary host about my autobiography ♥️

The tags is making me feel so emo......but Tumblr insists I have tags so here you go