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现实总是残酷的

Push yourself to the limit.

这不是口号而是行动。也许应证了一句话说容易做起来难。

果然，要成功必须得一波三折。而且中途还不许放弃要坚持到底。

加油！要相信现阶段就是那个坎，过去了就会好的。

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Short Escape

2/10

Well same feeling are coming back.

The feeling of overwhelmed, the feeling when I was having fear of freedom.

I wasn't malfunction, I wasn't stop working.

Being silent, quiet and calm as a person. From yellow to blue.

I wish I could have a short escape to JB and spending time with you. While I hate the feeling when we come to the end and the moment travelling back to KL alone.

Perhaps this is the reason I enjoyed being as Vice President and perform better than when I am a President. The fearless in making mistakes, giving a try and confront others.

那是多么的叛逆 多么的自由 因为知道无论自己怎么大闹天宫 身后还会有一个人在默默收拾

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Universe : Back to Origin

25/9 1.04am

Music on and off at this hour.

Thanks to my good self awareness, I always manage to figure out what the pathway I should heading to.

推翻 再建 再推翻

It took me quite some courageous. Making bold decisions, it's a hard topic. By letting a person who love peace and avoid confrontation, to iniatite those difficult conversations. Changes is necessary. To change it's hard, because it requires tons of effort to make the changes happen. But that's how we challenge ourselves to live fulfillment kind of potential right? Isn't? Isn't?

Building Leaders in UKM.

And I realized Jia Ho are one of the person who deserved the opportunity to grow right? Unleash his potential and letting him unleash potential of others. Sounds good right?

Maybe it's just assumptions.

Maybe it's just hard to let go.

Maybe I just don't want to face the reality.

Couldn't express more my love towards AIESEC in UKM. Thank you for all the unexpected yet fruitful journey.

Still thinking..

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Johor bahru

有你在的地方 我都喜欢

不知不觉也偷偷来了好多次这个地方

呃 总觉得异地相遇 我们会更加珍惜

因为这个空间 只有彼此

就连倒数都那么的美好

You are the one

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Because you are the leader

Hey I catch a little bit essences of LCP as a real CEO! Which I found it was excited!!!

Maybe what Fati said was true, sometimes is not about routine, strategy, implementation but it's about 'mindset'.

Having the mindset that are able to step back and tackle what's the real problem. Asking questions to understand the context, by getting the context that LCP needs, "do research and make conversation".

That's so true!

Even for now, before I go into next o2o with my VPs, I have to do alot of study research, I watched YouTube I have to learn the people skills, soft skills. Because this is what they need. And this is what will be helping them to manage the team.

After understanding context , I need to work on it. It only serves as a real support by action. No matter is by having conversations with LC coach, MCP, MCVP, other LCP or some VP etc. That's what I need to do to get the solution.

I'm wrong. LCP is not operational, is not managerial but it is strategical role.

Challenging role that remind me on if in future I wanted to be a leader, this is the thing that I have to use to it.

Because you are the leader.

You have to be strong.

领导者都是坚强的。

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Yi Jia x Fati Chat #1

Honestly, I'm a little helpless now after the first chat with Fati, my official coach in AIESEC.

Well she called chat, I called it as o2o.

This is a human disease, human think they are not enough, human think they did it wrong and they feel bad, human think what if, and what if other people can actually do better than me and why am I exist here?

This is all human disease. I know it clearly. But sometimes, I am not able to control myself and think about it. I know it's a very bad habit that limiting myself as I live in the past. But things just hurt.

Remembered last week having o2o with Veron, I did have some realization as well. I always told people I'm not demotivated, I'm happy because we figured it out! At least we figured it out! This is so important right?

At least we don't die without knowing the reason.

Realization hit me strong.

MC beyond hit me strong.

If you are there earlier, you will save me.

But, it's our experience. I'm the LCP not them.

Figure it out, fix it, face it and YOU CAN DO IT. BECAUSE YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. YOU KNOW YOU OWN LC THE BEST.

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Penang

I'm glad when you shared to me.

Looking at you, the real you that sitting beside me at the bus, night brings people emotional right?

You telling we you foreseen what kind of life you want to have in future, how would you like to feel and the little things that we both can do it together.

Simple yet it's our ultimately goal.

我也说了那么一句话 ：“我想..我会做很多事情会很努力，不过这一切只是为了日后平凡而持久的生活。”

I guess I will challenge myself, stretch till the max, be fearless be dumb be young. But this is just a process, a process of making my life more stable in order to have a simple life at the end.

Thank you as who you are. Because this is the reason why we are connected with each other.

这样的你很有魅力。真的。

Love this kind of conversation.

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pre-槟城

天秤座

一个很懒的星座

至少我是这样子

这次旅行是一点压力也没有

相交于越南

那次是做了很多功课

交通 景点 餐厅 天气 样样来

果然和妈妈还有同年龄人旅行

是有所不同的

很开心也很期待是和你

可以放心的当个猪队友

安心的依靠你

毕竟今年我是大家的依靠

偶尔的misbehave 也是挺insecure的

想起去年我有fear of freedom哈哈 挺蠢的

害怕被排山倒海的工作和责任压得自己没有私人空间。我想现在的我进步了许多，至少愿意去面对，然后慢慢理清。效率好一点，就能去玩啦~ 不然老是忽略你，应该会被你喷。

期待这场旅程 :)

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Relief 7/8

Fear of conflict.

This fear trap me myself for few months, sometimes we just frighten by the imagination.

Things doesn't goes really bad when I choose to be vulnerable and open up to the team. Is a good sign, I mean, I don't wish to waste anyone time, and I don't want people are not being developed just because of us not being open up.

Relief. When I choose to face it and fix it.

I can feel the last year me who are FEARLESS are back now.

Thank you for accepting me.