myquietsafehaven

[myquietsafehaven]

the other day i was telling my partner about my new coworkers and the spirit moved me to start inserting characters from Piano Man

[myquietsafehaven]

So do you ever think of Jon and his feelings about Jonah that nobody else knows about. Do you ever think about Jonah seeing every single feeling and thought flashing through his head. Hatred, grief, betrayal, "you were supposed to help me", "you were supposed to make it make sense, you were supposed to give me answers, you were supposed to fix it", rage, guilt at betraying everyone, resolve, complete and utter despair. Do you think Jonah is the only person who ever truly knew about why Jon killed him. Knew every little thing that drove him to that point. Do you think Jon would even be able to explain why? Do you think Jon would be able to tell Martin why he went against him? Do you think he'd be able to explain why he couldn't just let them send the fears away? Do you think Jon even fully understands it all himself? Do you think Jon knows what Jonah did, that the moment there was that choice, this was the only one Jon ever would've made? That the only difference was whether or not someone stopped him?

Do you think Jon ever tells anyone about the way Jonah looked at him before he died, or do you think he stares at the ceiling and pretends to be asleep. Do you think Jon ever thinks about it. Do you think Jon ever tells anyone that he doesn't know if he'd ever have been able to stay away from the magnus institute, even knowing it was dangerous? That he thinks he would've chased Jonah down for answers, even knowing what he was? Do you think Jon tells anyone that he knows why Jonah chose him to be the archivist? Or does he just sit there, not missing Jonah but what else can he call it? What else can he call any of this? He's not grieving him but there's no other word for it. Jonah is just gone. Jonah is gone and he's supposed to be here. He's glad he's gone. But he thinks he left a part of himself at the panopticon.

He thinks about Jonah and he thinks about Martin, sitting there unaware that sometimes Jon forgets his hands aren't still covered in blood and he thinks about death and he thinks about being used and he thinks that after all that, the least Jonah could've done was die in a way that was simple. The least Jonah could've done in his last moments was hate him.

Jon wasn't guilty. He didn't regret it. He's glad Jonahs dead. But he feels sick whenever he remembers the moment he switched from pleading to wishing him good luck.

The least Jonah could've done was hate him. But he didn't. So he pretends to sleep so Martin doesn't ask him why he can't use knives anymore.

He's not grieving, but it's too close to it for comfort.

[myquietsafehaven]

Been drawing lots of reindeer at work these days

[myquietsafehaven]

One of my favorite jonelias Things™️ is when all the yk, big avatars refer to them as "your archivist" or sometimes even "your elias." That shit makes me eat nails. I need everyone to know they have something going on and it to be something that they know they should absolutely not get involved in because there is no way it ends well. I think they should be intertwined in a way that isn't quite human. I think they need to be so weird about each other nobody who knows Elias has any doubts about what's going on. I just think it's neat!

[myquietsafehaven]

new reaction image

[myquietsafehaven]

Very dangerous guy: stop asking me questions or I'll kill you

Jonarchivist: right, right, of course, sorry

....

Jonarchivist: but just real quick, wha-

[myquietsafehaven]

I drew this in a fugue state last night

[myquietsafehaven]

using "what were YOU doing at the devils sacrament" to mean "yeah i made an embarrassing reference but you understood it which is also embarrassing" is very funny to me

[myquietsafehaven]

are you frequently overstimulated?

[myquietsafehaven]

😘 Visiting wounded Kim

[myquietsafehaven]

i love my cat but he is very fond of trickery

[myquietsafehaven]

The Odyssey but Penelope has been slowly killing off suitors one by one via poisoning and staged accidents >>>

[myquietsafehaven]

I usually view February as having no holidays and it’s always a surprise to remember that to many many people, February is one of the most holiday-filled months, containing both Valentines Day and Football Day

[myquietsafehaven]

In honor of tma ending next week I present to you a stupid project thats been sitting on my computer for almost a year (youtube link)

[myquietsafehaven]

[myquietsafehaven]

[myquietsafehaven]