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Day 35: Guess what time did I got woken up for a shitty day? Yes 8am because my family decided this day will be three best day to pray for my late great grandpa but because its a shitty day to me so I decided not to go and woken myself up officially one hour later but still staying in bed doing nothing like a useless shit so after that , late afternoon my parents came home with some of my aunts and slowly I went back to sleep again and woke up for dinner like I did yesterday and went back to sleep few hours later

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Day 34: Finally its Friday 😋today me and my friend went to eat fried chicken for lunch 🎉 so after that went home do absolutely nothing and went for a afternoon nap 😂 so I woke up ate dinner and went to my computer played some games, watched some shows and back to sleep 💤

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Day 33: Today is just a day nearer to the weekends ❤️and today was a longer and more tiring day because I got more things to do while in school and having much lesser money will start saving real soon 😂 anyways have to lose weight soon too because I feel super fat 😤 I targeted before my next birthday I will be 50kg 🙏🏻

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Day 32: Its February! Finally the second month of 2017 is here and back to school 😭 same shit different day is back again so I am also getting used to my boyfriend being in the army 😋 and well to say everything has been going quite well so far nothing much happened so its just a short day for me 😁

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Day 31: Funniest day ever . My boyfriend is enlisting 😝 means he will be bald ~ so I woke up early to go to his "ceremony" (basically you just sit there and they talk shit to you) so it ended at 1+ reaching 2 .. I was considering if I want to go school but ended up .. NAH I shall just take an MC stay home 😛 so I went to take an MC went home talk on the phone for awhile to know what happened in school and fell asleep . After that woke up , ate dinner talked to my angry boyfriend a little , pressed my phone a little and went back to sleep 😂 best day ever ~ it's the end of January 🎉 Hopefully February will be a much better month ❤️

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Day 30: Today is a mix good and bad day . His eldest aunt helped me celebrate my belated birthday by bringing me to the movies . Then having to hear Starbucks 1-1 so we went down and grab ours while i grab my complimentary upgrade (it ends tomorrow) then we went to temple to pray Gods for peace and safety because it's bad year that I will harm some Gods (or to say they will avoid me) so I have to pray but didn't have enough money (it was $24 OMG) so it's fine I will do it after the Lunar New Year and received news that my father's father youngest sister fell down so (she is a little bit of intellectually disabled and has hit her head) so I cried because she is still my grandaunt after all . Then we went home ate dinner and it's time for my boyfriend to go because he is enlisting tomorrow . So it's a happy but not so happy day .

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Day 29: Today is go out and more red packet again 😂 this time is going to my boyfriend's family ~ first is his mother ❤️ second is his father's side grandparents 😛 lastly is his mother's side grandmother 😛 came home with a big surprise of belated birthday celebration with fam 😘 A very happy to receive birthday wishes and belated birthday wishes from all friends and fam 😝love you all ❤️

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Day 28: Today is the first day of CNY and my 20th birthday 😛 it's go out and take red packet day 🎉 I went to my mother's side grandmother house and my father's side aunty house for today but lots of people and lots of red packets 👍🏻today is a rainy day but it's okay 😛 happy birthday to me crazy woman who lived for 20 years 😂

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Day 27: This is the eve of lunar new year 🎉 cleared shit that are suppose to be cleared 😭 ate dinner and guess what ? Quarrel time 😔 as shitty as I can feel for today and how much he doesn't need me in his life or even me having a place in my heart doesn't seems weird anymore . I don't think he loves me anymore just saying marriage like it just a promise . He will leave me sooner or later anyway 😊

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Day 26: It's the last continuous assessment for this whole semester or should I say the last days of my ITE life .. done with presentation .. fucked it all up 😭 there we go . I let everyone down 😔 so now all I have to do is to be prepared for the final exam that is coming up soon 😴

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Day 25: Mother and sister not working it's 3 days left to lunar new year 😴 I'm so tired of all this 😴😴 so today is just the same old shit . Go school , deal with shit , go home , deal with more shit 😭 I just want this to end as soon as it can end already 😭😭

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Day 24: Why is it raining again ? 🙄today is a same shit different day day .. 😰 what do we have today ? I left my portable with a sister of mine and my jacket 😂 so today I play league and tried to bigo live while league-ing it was hard I swear never easy 😂 so that's all I ever done 😅 you wake up , eat , play game , go school , come home , play more games 😂

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Day 23: Monday and heavy rain always makes everything worse but today school ended 4 hours early thanks to people who have tests and cost accounting trip 😝 boyfriend took off on this day and came back to school ☺️ we ate lunch together but he can't stay whole day with me because he has to meet his friend 😔it's okay 😝 we spent time together that's enough ❤️ so today we had a little fun and it got a little overboard which will lead to more responsibilities in future but let's hope that overboard did not bring us major consequences ☺️

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Day 22: Its the last day of the week ! Again .. 🙄So today I decided it will be a good day to on my computer play some games and watch some videos (while my family is not around for that day 🎉) but i was soon met with my boyfriend coming over angry because I have not got anything done 🙄 my grandpa was at home what do you expect to get done 🙄 my dad suddenly went home (more rolled eyes here) so I ended up doing my chores at 3+ 4 . Facing a angry boyfriend I was more irritated . 🙄 So i do my chores while he fall asleep on my bed 😒 then I was done vacuuming and boiling some water I went in to the room expecting some cuddles (he cuddled me at the wrong timing when I was playing game 🙄) so he got angry and I felt super distant and awkward . Like those we are just friends but I like you feeling came out 😔 then when he went out of my room to smoke i sat and face the wall and cried because the 2 years relationship feeling was not to get more distant .. but it got a little distant . He came back I faster wiped my tears away and well do what I always do .. Pretend I'm fine and I guess he found out something was wrong .. he hugged me . It felt like the first time we cuddled on bed . Listen to his heartbeat and still I cried silently 😊 then he went out to help me mop the floor while I continue crying on the bed . Guess he can't stand knowing something is wrong 😊 he came for kisses asking me what's wrong and still I said nothing . So he mopped finish the floor and call me to get up to wash my tear-filled face I refused . He angrily covered me with the blanket . I never hated myself so much . All my thoughts was how am I not good enough , hateful comments , all the past negative comments came to me . I locked the door cried on my own . Then I found a poloroid of myself . All I wanted to do was to cut it (that's how much I hated myself) then I went out he saw me tears-filled cut poloroid of myself dumped to the bin . Went to the toilet and cried a few more mins came out and all he did was ask again is everything okay ? And I did not reply he just hugged me told me to change , went in the room with me to make sure I did not self-harm before he went out to make sure my parents don't misunderstand when they came back . We went to eat and walk around before going home . He told me his brother and mother accepted me into this family and I was the first that was actually accepted . ☺️ nagged how stupid I was and sent me home . He went home on his own later on ☺️

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Day 21: It sad day 😔 as usual cinderella stays at home clean the windows and stuff while step mother and step sister goes out (it's actually not so bad) after cleaning up . I washed my hair (I was not suppose to) it was so itchy and oily that I can't stand it anymore 😭 I was fired back with why didn't you clean this and that 🙄 HELLO NOT EVERY THING IS MY JOB FOR THE LOVE OF ALL HUMAN KIND 🙄🙄🙄🙄 so suddenly it was night I was fed up . My dad say all you do is stay in the room , next week is new year etc (typical asian parents) so what can I do after he leaves ? Roll eye complain to others 😂 I packed my snacks cupboard and greeted with the "oh you cleaned something , finally" 🙄 quarrelled with boyfriend again 😔 don't ask why . Just not a good day today 😔

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Day 20: It is a holiday ? People are having test while I finished the test for that module so .. I rest for that day 😝 so I went up to his house thinking that he only had like half day of work ? (He claimed so) I was on my way when he said oh sorry it's full day . I.F.K.R 🙄 Nevermind I went up with all the heavy things in my hand and I actually brought my laptop up 💀 Yeap it was heavy as hell 😭 ended up he came home at 4 instead because I was angry and maybe nagging .. I had a great time with his mom 😂 we were talking , laughing , gossiping like any girl will do 😂 I actually reached home at 10+ don't ask how 😂

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Day 19: Terrible day 😔 totally no mood for anything 😔 although it's the last day of test days for the week but still quarrelled with boyfriend , straightened my hair and also planning to fail my test for today . No mood at all today 😔 boyfriend last minute cancelled tomorrows' meeting because someone don't know how to plan their work shift properly 🙄 boyfriend finds me annoying anyway . So I shall not annoy him anymore 😊 I don't feel like I fit in anywhere , no friends that truly fit , no family that is truly close 😊 I feel I am always alone 😊 no one close , no one to link to either 😊