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list of favourite MCU characters : Steve Rogers/Captain America    “The serum amplifies everything that is inside, so good becomes great; bad becomes worse. This is why you were chosen. Because the strong man who has known power all his life, may lose respect for that power, but a weak man knows the value of strength, and knows… compassion.”

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I : Does the music or the lyrics come first when you write a song ?

E : It’s the music - the idea. Than I always find a keyword - which becomes the key of all lyrics. If I can’t find that keyword than I won’t write the lyric.

I :Which was the keyword for “Vietato Morire”?

E : “ Ricordo ”

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Can we take a moment to realize that Zhan Zheng Xi is such a great friend? I didn’t realize how many times he worries about Jian Yi, takes care of him or shows affection until I made this compilation. Now I’m fucked up, lmao.

He really really loves Jian Yi.

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Can we take a moment to realize that Zhan Zheng Xi is such a great friend? I didn’t realize how many times he worries about Jian Yi, takes care of him or shows affection until I made this compilation. Now I’m fucked up, lmao.

He really really loves Jian Yi.

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è stato bravo il tuo compare?

eh sì, è stato un campione!

come te

no, di più

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He’s my brother. He’ll protect me. I trust him.

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— oh darling, even rome fell // p.s.

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– najwa zebian (via cinemalesbian)

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— J.R.R. Tolkien

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^^^^ SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

@ the people moaning about Portugal winning

Aight so lemme get this straight: you have trash electronic pop for years, complain about it and make fun of Eurovision and when a real song comes along you get all pissy? The hell you on about, “snoozefest”? How much do you bet half of y'all didn’t even know what the fuck a portugal was before this? Honestly if you’re telling me we didn’t deserve to win because bringing an ape on stage was a lot more original or grabbing a random 16 yr old kpop wannabe was cuter, do me a favour and go, as we say, para o caralho.

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Game of Thrones fashion | Detailed preview of Sansa’s outfits (requested by manbunjon)

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                i’m allen, an exorcist! and i’d die before becoming anything else.

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kill me now

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They didn’t know him like you do.

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Grey rocks, and greyer sea, And surf along the shore — And in my heart a name My lips shall speak no more.

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[this is not a “john actually killed him!! post, i panicked for a good three hours yesterday but i’m over it]

The more I think about it, the more “I didn’t kill him, I unmade him” sounds like the biggest load of bullshit to me, bigger than “my past is not important im fine”

To be honest I can’t believe John never knew McGraw, that he only had a vision of him at the very end. Especially in season 4. Even if he tells himself he can tell the two apart there can never be a James who is only Flint or only McGraw. Maybe in Silver’s mind, where he can construct any lie and any version of the story he wants to sleep at night, where memories become distorted and what begins as weak comfort will eventually show itself for what it’s always been. Something simply too frightening to face in that moment.

Maybe in the story he tells Madi, because at this point the doubt in my mind isn’t “John killed him Johh didn’t kill him”. It’s even worse, in a sense, because it makes it John’s tragedy entirely, not Flint’s. 

The doubt is: when did John decide it would be easier to just imagine two different people? When did he place himself in the space left by the two of them and tried to look in two different directions at the same time? Is it easier to attempt that? Is it better than looking inward and finding James in himself? All of him? Knowing he let him go and forced him to let go? Betray him so deeply to the point where selfishness and selflessness became one blurry monstrous creature?

Is it easier to just draw comfort from the fact that he helped “Flint” recover his past state, one in which he can survive without him, without Madi? Is it easier to believe Flint isn’t going to feel any of this because Flint is, supposedly, no more? 

How could he live knowing he’s actually the one who can’t, will never be able to, live without James? How could he live knowing Flint and McGraw are still one person, the same person, and that bringing back the past won’t erase a more recent past? 

McGraw isn’t someone he barely saw when it was too late, he’s not a regret he can live with because he surprised him just during that last moment. McGraw is the hole left in his own heart that he’s now trying to fill with whatever lie he has to tell to make it sound true, to stop the hollowness from eating him alive. 

Because even if Flint “died” on that island and McGraw left it, that’s only the story Silver is telling and shaping. We never saw what happened, we never saw James react to all of this. We only know Silver’s version. And that’s the version Silver will always tell himself to survive. Until one day it will hit him. 

It’s not that he lost something - what he had - and denied himself the possibility to ever know the other James - what he could have had. It’s that by the time he’d started to put the pieces together and come to terms with what he was feeling… It was too late.

I didn’t kill him, I unmade him. Or. I didn’t kill him, I decided that loving him in that moment would have killed me. And it will. 

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Omg this is the best gifset I've ever seen no kidding. This is perfect. Thank you.

It’s like in the great stories. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were.