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2023 recap!!!

jan: forgot

feb: forgot

march: forgot

april: forgot

may: forgot

june: forgot

july: forgot

aug: forgot

sep: forgot

oct: forgot

nov: forgot

dec: forgot

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you actually don't have to go on dating apps to find girlfriends. many beautiful women are waiting for you on rocks out at sea

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15 July

Arguing hurts a lot. I'm tired of begging to be cared about.

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12 July

I know I was gaslit. I've been keeping a record of everything at the moment.

And he tried making me feel bad for something he decided to do.

When I had broken down and begged for help the entire week prior.

And yet...that is nothing bc he needs to go do what he needs to go do.

Nothing matters to him unless it's him getting "some"

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i love when flowers close in the evening like good night girl i love you sleep tight

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yeah sex is cool but have you ever been treated like a priority instead of just an option

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11 July

I had a screaming breakdown bc I'm not heard and certainly not seen.

I'm begging for 1on1 games and interactions and only being told to parallel play. While he plays on his phone.

I just...don't know what to do.

So I'm just at a loss about whether or not I should even contine to bother loving them

Bc it's obvious they don't care enough about me that even if I spell it out. Or pause a show to say "you're being disrespectful and if you're not interested. Leave the room" it is still ignored

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8 July '23

I'm so tired of

I will say to my room mates"tomorrow we will watch a show I'm excited to show you. Please let me show you"

And it will be met with enthusiastic yes

Then the following day it is disregarded and I am made to feel small and pathetic.

So I go to lay down bc I hate feeling like I'm stupid and childish for thinking they'll be excited too.

And then it'll be a knock on the door of "hey...."

And I'll get my hopes up

And it's "can you get started on dinner".

I've never had a meal made for me, or the groceries bought for said meal, or plans made for me, or like...surprise chocolate.

It feels like I give 110% and I receive.....very little to nothing

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reblog to bonk the person you reblogged it from with a hollow cardboard tube

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I feel cheated. no one on Reddit told me that tumblr is a serotonin factory. Keep liking and reblogging my posts please thanks

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I am back on the fence.

I always have dealt with so much, but I'm so tired of being everything.

I cook, I clean, I monitor, I provide therapy, a warm embrace, I listen, I talk, I respect.

And meanwhile I am left to be, left to exist by myself and expected to do everything.

I'm exhausted and I'm on the fence if anything is even worth it.

My friends are in their 30s I'm in my early 20s. I should be expected to mother, therapy, maid, nanny them.

All I want is for them to offer me help, or to help a tiny amount when I'm in agony, but instead I'm left to fend for myself. And for them?

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CLAIRES IS REAL????

Wait. Hold on. Do you mean to tell me that you thought Claire's, the real store, was some mass gaslighting effort by residents of the USA

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Tuesday 13th June

I found another picture uploaded to his fb by the person that begged for me to die

And he didn't tell me. & we argued about this exact thing not even a week ago.

Why is it so hard to not talk to someone that wants me to die? Is it JUST bc she's attractive

Or is it a warning that I am replaceable.