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Musings of a forlorn soul

Part 1: The Beach

The the first thing that I remember about the beach was the sudden gush of cool sea breeze hitting me in the face. The cold sand at my feet and the hundreds of shades of orange which painted the sky into a masterpiece were next in line to draw my attention. For a briefest of an instance, I was no longer a part of the world overburdened with responsibilities and rules but ushered into a heavenly part where those things meant nothing to anyone and the mesmerizing beauty embraced me into itself with open arms.

The froth made by the water was continuously covering my tracks as if to erase any blemish I was creating on its perfect beauty. My gaze fell onto a couple of kids laboring to build a sand castle by the water. With the innocence and the untainted smile on their faces, I was made to believe that building a strong castle was the purpose of their lives for now. Children have always made me wonder as to how these young souls find the happiness in the smallest things of life, a bar of chocolate or a simple prank on their parents are more than enough to make their day. On the other hand we as matured adults with everything we wish for in our hands, never seem to emulate the same happiness. The young builders had almost finished their work of art and looked up to the bystander as if to seek appreciation for their effort. I slowly bent down a picked up a small twig from the sand and placed it atop their castle to be the flag. The child’s face lit up and I witnessed unadulterated joy. Perhaps this is the reason people came up with the word “adulteration” as if to tell everyone that growing into an adult make everything worse than what it used to be. The children’s parents too had a smile on their faces sitting a few paces away observing their kids go about their task. Looking at the children, I felt a sense of exuberance and energy and another look at parents brought me back to the real world I reside in. The look of having to work hard every day for the rest of their lives to provide for their kids and a plethora of other problems which I cannot yet imagine surrounding them always. Yet, they had smiles on their face watching their children giggling around them playing in the sand. I figured, this is what being a parent must feel like, a hundred sacrifices meant nothing compared to the joy of witnessing the smiles on the face of the young ones.

I had proceeded to take only a few steps when I sighted a group of college boys, sitting in a circle with glasses in their hand, raising them for a toast. They seemed pretty excited when one of them took a sip from his glass after a lot of coaxing from everyone else in the group. That was his first sip of alcohol, I guessed. Quite surprisingly, the joy on the faces of these boys was not a whole lot different from the one I saw just a while back. Making sure that their friend had his first drink in good company was all they cared about at the moment, no worries about the future crossed their mind even for a fleeting second. They had a new found lease of freedom and were making use of it the best way possible. It brought a smile to my face as well. Life perhaps was meant to be lived with the same devil may care philosophy of these boys. But let us not kid ourselves, we all know few years down, these same boys would be the ones wearing boring formal clothes to a job they loathe and the carefree laughter I saw today on this beach may never return again. However, at this moment they have everything they need and definitely feel like the kings of the world.

By now I had moved into the secluded areas of the beach, away from all the hustle. The only sound my ears picked up were the sound of the waves lashing into each other and those of the seagulls flying high above my head. The sun had begun to set and the sky had transformed into a hue of magnificent orange, purple and shades of a hundred other colors, together they looked like heavenly creation painted on the sky by God himself. The breeze had picked up which made it difficult for me to light my cigarette. After what seemed like an eternity of failed attempts, I finally managed to light one and headed to towards the hedges and swinging coconut trees which lined the entire beach. My sighted rested on a young couple cozily nestled among the trees with their heads on each other’s shoulders. This is where they had come to love each other, away from the prying eyes of the society and everyone else who view their love as a sin and would do anything to keep them apart. But here they were, away from all the world just to be in each other arms and for a few stolen kisses. The trees arching over them, as if to form a cocoon for the soulmates, to protect them from everything that has ruined true love in this world. Love, just like anger or happiness is basic human emotion, which cares about nothing, not caste, not religion, not the paycheck you take home every month and not even gender. Love is pure, just like the conscience of a newborn child, love is harmless and above all love is satisfaction. A satisfaction so great that lovers are willing to risk everything just to steal a few precious moments with their partners. The young girl and boy on the beach had probably told numerous lies to many people in their lives just to be here at this moment with each other. To me, that is completely alright, because our society has never understood love and probably never will. Simply acts of love like holding each other's hands are frowned upon while kissing in public is illegal by law at almost all places. Nobody questions these obscure and frankly stupid norms of society which are taking away a fundamental characteristic of human beings-the ability to show affection towards another human being. Love cannot be confined or restricted, no matter the number of shackles one may put on it will manage to seep out and blossom into something beautiful. Just like it did for the couple in front of me. I did not proceed any further towards the bushes, as it would ruin the privacy, they so sorely deserve.

I turned back to the water an started walking along the edge of the waves coming in. A few meters further, I realized that my legs could not carry me any further, the three pegs of whiskey I had before I embarked upon this walk was starting to have its effect now and my legs complained of the excessive effort being put on them. I sat down on the sand just out of reach from the waves as if to mock them and started blowing puffs of smoke into the air. That is when I saw her coming towards me, walking in the water with drops of it covering her milky white thighs glistening in the rays of the setting sun as if they were pearls covering her legs. She had an ear to ear grin on her face upon seeing me. While I went into a deep trance by her beauty. It was her smile, the smile which had hooked me on, the luscious lips with a hint of red lipstick, perfect white teeth and overall the effect it had on her beautiful face. Her smile was a perfect addition to everything beautiful around me, the setting sun, the colors in the sky, the breeze blowing into my face, the cold sand, everything just seemed to fall into place just by her presence. She came towards me intentionally splashing a lot of water and sat down beside me.“What took you so long?” She enquired with her eyes fixed on the sky as she took the remaining cigarette from my hand and took a long hard puff. “Nothing, I was just wondering how beautiful this beach is.” Which was an outright lie. The beach, the sun, the sky, the trees were not even half as beautiful as the girl sitting beside me right now. She leaned on my shoulder with eyes still fixed on the sea and the sky. I turned my face to have a look at her once again. She sensed my gaze on her, looked up and smiled at me. We kissed in the dying sunlight, the sea breeze, the trees, the sand and the entire universe looking at us. I do not know whether it is a dream or not, but I no longer care. I have heard people preaching about heaven and about how beautiful it is there, I did not care about that anymore. I am already in heaven at this moment, with a very beautiful woman in my arms at a very beautiful beach.