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there is something so beautiful about after sex selfies that i can’t quite put my hand on..

anyways i like very cute & my boyfriend also thinks so too :)

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Sex full of adrenaline,

This pussy put you right to sleep just like a sedative,

Not to sound conceited, I’m not one to brag

But I’m the girl that you needed that you never had

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hey big head

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It’s ridiculous how much of a hold the people I love have on me. It hurts me so much seeing this shit happen. I wanna cry so bad and just stay in my room, but imma thug it out, go on a run, do booty workouts and continue my fucking day. I got things to do. I have a bag to make. I don’t fucking need anyone.

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Them: Don’t come in here with that goofy shit

Me:

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i don’t care what you think of me, i don’t think of you at all ~

Anyways, enjoy :) these are my first official selfies this year i think? lmfaoooo, i dont know why i dont, im so cute 😭 someone come fall in love with me and play with my hair

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listening and on repeat, feeling it fill up the empty space inside my mind rn

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You see, i MISS you. but i understand that shit like this? shit that happened between us, it’s something that scarred me and nothing can’t ever be the same. The way you switched up SO EASILY, for someone else? For someone I KNOW that can’t ever be at the level of commitment, the level of REAL, that I was at. I prayed for every beautiful blessing to be sent your way. I still pray for that. I pray that one day, you’ll sit there and think about me, about how I was the realest thing you had in your unorganized life. God.. why did you have to go and fuck that shit up? We were fucking AMAZING together. You can’t ever deny that shit. I know that you feel it in your heart, your soul, your BLOOD how fucking amazing we were together. How much more amazing we both could’ve gotten together. I hate myself for missing you, i hate myself for still having love for you, i hate myself for ever having you running through my mind and controlling my damn dream sometimes. I’m ok at the moment. I know that I’m going to be ok. This is just a page that’s meant to be turned in everyone’s life, really. What I want to understand is why I still believe you were supposed to be the one to grow with me a couple of more months/years. But I know that’s something that I have to learn the next few months alone. I’ll always have you in my heart. I’ll always wish that you come right back into my arm, into my bed. It’s ok though. There’s something waiting for me down the line in my future. Maybe it’ll be another version of you, maybe it’ll be you. Whatever it is… I’m not in a rush to get there quite yet. I have things to experience, things to see, places to visit, people to speak to.

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Always got that thang on me lol

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using tumblr on a computer/laptop was just a different vibe, it’s own era if you will lmao

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If you’re trying to fall in love, stay away from me : )

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ahem-

just wanna feel love all on me. fingers crossed, but i’m not holding my breath, enjoy these~

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Halsey - Dominic's Interlude

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it took a while, but i am mentally ok atm. blessings have been coming my way, and i finally feel like i deserve them. yay for the right people and things meant for me 🖤

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Come watch my stream!!

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playlists based off taylor lyrics

“i’m never gonna love again” - cowboy like me

“it’s hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound” - this is me trying

“but on a wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again” - begin again

“all of my enemies started out friends” - the archer

“oh my god she’s insane she wrote a song about me” - i bet you think about me

“so yeah, it’s a fire. it’s a goddamn blaze in the dark and you started it” - ivy

“it’s supposed to be fun turning 21” - all too well (ten minute version)

“forever is the sweetest con” - cowboy like me

“haunted by the look in my eyes that would’ve loved you for a lifetime” - happiness

“i just sit here and wait, grieving for the living” - ivy

“help, im still at the restaurant. still sitting in a corner i haunt” - right where you left me

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Hot Milk - Awful Ever After