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YAOI HELP!

Help me find more Yaoi, please drop websites that i can go to so i can read or watch! 

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THIS!

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Dude, you’re always so damn productive! Just make sure not to overwork yourself :)

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Rick and Morty+ DrWho=

Has anyone noticed that the them song for rick and Morty is the same one used for doctor who?

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So I hang out with the dying....

Yeah, I mean technically we are all dying right?

slowly, day by day, death slowly. or quickly depending on your situation. Catches up to us.

but that's not the point here. or maybe it is. who the fuck knows?!, I have no idea what I'm writing. I just need to get this out of my head.

So I work with the dying. I take care of them. I either do their personal care that they could no longer do, or I just help them with simple task. but I hang out with them. talk to them and get to know them. its a cool job. most of them have lived long lives. and have so many stories and pictures to prove it.  So you kind of “get use to it”  walking into their house, or getting a voice mail that they are no longer with us. its a part of life, you're born, you do shit, then you die. sometimes surrounded by loved ones. or just the people that have gotten to known you in the end stages of life. its a part of the job.

but then you get that one cranky old person who you just click with, and it hits a little closer to home. OR you meet someone whos your age. or younger, whos dying. and let me tell you. no matter what age, you're scared as shit. and you try everything not to be, but you are. and that's ok. you're fucking dying. but that's not what bothers me. what bothers me is this kid, has a loving family. had big dreams. and has been fighting this shit for most of their life. and then just gets handed this life sentence. and like that, its game over. No future dreams, no kids, no marriage, no retirement party. no anything. just death before your thirties. then you have to make funeral arraignments with your parents. start giving away your personal possessions to your friends and loved ones. you start thinking of all the new movies you'll miss. books that you wont live long enough to read. friends weddings you wont be able to attend and you’re supposed to be in the actual wedding party. your friends having their first kids. all these amazing ordinary things you take for granted. gone, ripped away from you. then you  have these nurses and aides coming in and out. and you just lay there, dying. trying to have a normal conversation with this asshole who gets to live, gets to have a significant other, gets to have kids, and gets to live and you, you try to keep doing everything by yourself, because you know when you cant do it anymore, its the real beginning of the end.

then there's me. sitting there, talking to them. getting to know them. their friends and family. and feeling like shit, that I'm alive, and they, their dying. and you look around, and see everything they have accomplished in such a short life span. and you, you feel like a waste. and you learn from all these fucked up emotions, you will not let you're life be just this. you're going to remember this family, this person. and you're going to go out and live life as much as you can. not just for them but for you too. Because you're not dying. they are, and you get to hang out with the dying. and its not to bad.

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How are you? Miss my friend.

I just don't really feel anything at the moment. I'm sorry I have been gone for months. And a shit person.

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Just another day

Me: is this just a bad day or is this something more sinnister?

Mental illness: Oh my dear friend, it's both. There are no fine lines. You're fucked up. No one will understand you. Stop fighting and just give in. You and I both know you belong in the looney bin!

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Inhale.....exhale

Inhale ....Exhale......Inhale....Exhale....and repeat

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I really have been struggling to find the right words. And I really want this to reach so many people. So please if you think it's worth sharing. Share this. I suffer from a few mental illness's. One of then is social anxiety. I wanted to try and be someone without these fears. So I went to pax. I tried to be sociable and fearless. I put myself out there and talked to many lovely people. I went to @therealjacksepticeye Q&A. It was terrifying. I made it through and sat down. When it came time to ask the questions I wasn't able to stand up and say what I wanted to say. Not because of fear,belive it or not. But because I wasn't fast enough lol. And that's fine. I will use this platform to say what I wanted to say. First and foremost. @therealjacksepticeye everyone is going to thank you. I know you say not to but please let us. It's the only way we know how to show you our admiration for you. (If we can't draw or have any artistic abilities) and for everyone in the jse community....let me take this chance to finally give you the thanks you deserve. You may not know it. Or belive it. You play such an important role in this community. You're kind words may have helped someone. You probably saved a life and not have known it. Or maybe someone has told you. But you being here on tumblr and in the comments on YouTube. I have seen you. Time and time again. Being silent Warriors. Stopping self hate. And giving nothing but love, respect, and encouragement. But most of all support. And for that you deserve more then just a tumblr thank you post. Give yourself a pat on the back. Or a self high five. People say they wouldn't be here without Jack, but a lot more people wouldn't have been here without you. You not only keep jack afloat. But you keep others hanging on. For that. THANK YOU!.

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My first time at PAX

This was my first ever convetion. It was pretty amazing. I didn’t get to meet Mark,Jack,Ethan,Tyler, wiishu or Robert. But I did met everyone else and got some pictures. I made a few friends. I played a few games and got a few things.I went to a convetion by myself and walked away with amazing memories with people I hope to talk to and see again!. I always felt while watching these amazing people on YouTube that I felt like we were all friends. So just seeing them was fantastic. Though I wish I could have told a few of them to their faces how much they inspire me. How much they have encouraged me and how fantastic they are. I’m so glad I did this. And so glad they do this for us. So @markiplier @therealjacksepticeye @wiishu @crankgameplays @robertideekay. Thank you. You’re amazing incredible inspiring people.

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Warning : creepy fan girl post

GUYS!!!! I am on the same coast, in the same state as the people who inspire me everyday! And in 24 hours I’ll be able to (hopefully) meet them and thank them. I’m so excited! Extremely EXCITED!!!

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Dude good for you!! Have fun and travel girl!

When 16 year old girls talk about boyfriends and sex

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Dude I didn't have a bf or had sex till I was 18....even then I should have waited lol

When 16 year old girls talk about boyfriends and sex

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I just need to reblog this @markiplier at this and show them the awesome

it’s exactly what you think it is 

I know I said it before but I’ll say it like a million more times- I’m so proud of Teamiplier and all that they’ve accomplished! They push themselves so hard each and every day to send out fun and creative content for us and it’s the most amazing thing to see. I love watching their process and watching them interact because they really do work so incredibly well together and I’m so happy for them all. <3 <3

@markiplier @crankgameplays (I don’t think any of the others have tumblrs? Let me know if I’m wrong on that!)

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Jacksepticeye and other things

I know your all worried. But don't forget jack has to prep for the weekend in Boston coming up in 24 days. He has 24 days to do videos edit them get Arrangements in order and he also has a lot on his plate. Not just all the drama we see. But also he's looking at houses. And that is hell all on its own. He'll be back and he'll be better. Keep showing support. But fear not my friends our green bean will return! @therealjacksepticeye

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I’m a simple white girl from the country. Literally nothing but white Christians where I lived. As I got older and was able to expand my horizon. I met many people of race and religon. When I was first introduced to someone of a different race I wasn’t scared or intimated. I didn’t think much of it. I was anxious because I have a social anxiety. My friends had dragged me out late night into the city. And This guy thought I was scared because he was this huge guy of a different race then me. So he thought he’d lighten the mood by telling a joke….a racist joke. I laughed, the joke was funny (i thought at least) Does that make me racisit? Does that make him racsist? Do telling jokes (including tasteless ones) make you into anything but a racist, hateful person?. No. I think acting hateful and doing hateful things to other people just BECAUSE they are different then you makes you who you are. It was a joke. A bad joke. He has even said his persona online is not who he really is in life….he’s an ACTOR. I’m not saying what he did was funny or right or anything like that. I’m just saying. He said some things, showed some images of Hitler. So now we all hate him he’s a horrible person and blah blah blah? I have heard worst things from people who are more well known then this guy and I haven’t seen such a big backlash for them as I have for him. What about George Lopez who kicked a women out of his show because she was giving him a hard time over a joke. Called her fat and a bitch? Is it not a big deal because she was asking for it? Or because she was a female? Or because George was the minority? This world is getting scary. And I know my points may not connect with you. But is this something we really need to be arguing over? He said it,he lost a bunch of shit over it, he apologized. Let’s move on and try to make the world a better place.

I needed to say this because I feel like respect has been forgotten.

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Ok so I'm going to pax east....who would be Interested In watching a YouTube live video of it? Like me walking around and seeing mark and jack and everybody? If you would be interested go to twitter and look me up lizzanator23 there will be a poll there. So I can get some decent numbers. If you don't have twitter just reblog this.