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Dr. Dour & Peach: The Webseries | Ep1 “The Shoe of the Dead”

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I love these guys! They’re great live too!

If you’re looking to bring a little spook to your Holiday season check out “Barbara”! A tale every retail worker will come to know well during the holidays… 

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I literally explained this about myself to someone yesterday!

This! I'm such an over sharer

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Another incredible stand out, featuring advanced puppet technology and wonderful voice work by Rose Byrne and Bobby Cannavale. Martha the Monster, directed by Christopher Weekes, is an Australian production, but it takes much of its inspiration from the American treatment of minorities, who are often segregated and marginalized by society as a whole. Never heavy-handed, the tale sticks to its theme of self-identity without relying too much on hateful caricatures to get its point across. You simply cannot go wrong by giving this sweet little tale of self-acceptance, as viewed through the startlingly emotive eyes of one very special monster, a spin.

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Take a look at our live performance of “The Stomp-KickWaltz”!

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Dr. Dour and Peach are a gothic clown duo and they’re making a webseries! Checkout their kickstarter video!

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Steven Universe Character Analysis

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I’m not sure if you’ve answered this or not but how do you feel about Rose/Pink? Do you hate her for what she’s done or???

This is nothing against you, anon, but I’m SHOCKED that there is still a person on this blog that doesn’t know how I feel about Rose/Pink. It feels like I’m yelling about it every other day. 

SHE’S LITERALLY MY FAVORITE CHARACTER. 

And now before I get the metaphorical gun to my head from 450245 of you screaming “BUT SHE’S A BITCH I wanna punch her face!” in my askbox, I will explain further: 

I know she’s not a blameless character. I know she’s done many very bad things. She’s not even a good person, per se, and she can be stupid and selfish. 

But I don’t give a shit! She’s a morally grey dumbass but she’s trying her goddamn best and given the kind of upbringing she had, given where she came from and how much she legitimately tried to grow and given how far she’d come, I think she’s one of the most fascinating characters on the entire show. 

The problem is - we’re seeing Rose’s growth backwards, chronologically. And a lot of people don’t have the sense of realizing that it’s fooling them into believing her character itself is regressing. 

We fell in love with her as she was when she had Steven - loving and more aware of herself, and more respectful of humans and human life in general. She seemed like a good person because… she was! That was who she was, in the end! And she was having Steven because she legitimately thought that he would have a good life!! It was a choice made 5000 years after the war, and she presumed that the earth would remain a safe haven for her son and family, as it had until then. 

But from there, we see her past and we see the road she took to GET there, we see what she was BEFORE all that development. 

We see her as she was before she met Greg - warm and loving, but ultimately still lacking true respect for humans. 

And then, we go even FURTHER back. We see what she was like during the Rebellion and what she did - shattering Pink Diamond and building up a new legacy. We see her locking up Bismuth without actually explaining anything. And it gets even more morally questionable. 

The further we go into her past, the more mistakes we see. And that’s not a sign that she’s a terrible person - 

that’s a sign of how far she’s come!!

And honestly, she’s still not blameless. She left Bismuth where she was. She left Spinel. She bubbled the Rose Quartz gems away. And although I legitimately think she did this because she saw it as the lesser evil and was, in a way, trying to protect them, she still made poor decisions. 

And ya know what? That’s fascinating to me. She’s a character with great potential who never got her loose ends tied up and never got her ‘full redemption’ which makes people hate her.

But she’s the most realistic out of all the characters. She has flaws that are impossible to like. She has bad coping habits that helped her survive during her time with the Diamonds that ruined things for all her family. And she tried to deal with it all and ended up causing… well…. the entire damned show, for a start. 

And I just feel like it’s such a shallow take on her character: “She did bad things and I hate her.” It’s such a childish, surface-level comprehension of what her history is, and what drives her. And I hate it, and I will always love Rose. Not because she’s a good person, but because she’s real and flawed and multidimensional and relatable.

You can disagree, obviously, and you can dislike her character! But I’m gonna be in my own corner, loving every moment of it. 

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Guardian News: “‘You have stolen my dreams and my childhood with your empty words,’ climate activist Greta Thunberg has told world leaders at the 2019 UN climate action summit in New York.”

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Carrie Fisher explains to a little boy what ‘bipolar’ means, at Indiana Comic Con 2015.

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시발비용 = Fuck-it Expense

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My first two attempts at going on meds made me far more unstable and it was so scary that for a long time I refused because “It made things worse”. One of my symptoms is splitting/black and white thinking. Seeing things all one way or all another and even switching between the extremes and I 100% was seeing meds as all negative before I knew my perception was wired in extremes. So I was a mentally ill person refusing to be medicated for quite some time before I finally got a diagnosis for borderline at 32 years old and went on a mild mood stabilizer that didn’t suck. Once I had the information that my disorder is NOT a chemical imbalance and my doc wanted to try something mild I was more willing to give it a go and found a 5% improvement on this one and have since stayed on it with no lapses for 3 years now.

What’s with the trope of mentally ill characters in movies hating / refusing their medication... it’s just no realistic, every mentally ill person I know irl is grateful and relieved when they’re on medication that works

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Isolation on autopilot?

Oh damn, this is super interesting. Relatable, too. From the Coping book:

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My parents were verbal abusers. Never touched me. But that didn’t stop my body from saturating itself with adrenaline from all the fear I was living with. That adrenaline stunted the part of my brain that regulates emotions and coping giving me a permanent condition called Borderline Personality Disorder.  Everything I feel emotionally is magnified to a degree that words cannot fully describe. Sure I can tell you all my feelings are magnified by 1000x, but that does not come close to describing what that means, what that feels like. I can’t hold a job because I am not and may never be stable enough to be on a schedule because everyday I wake up asking “What can I handle today?” and I HAVE to listen when the answer to that is “Nothing” because if I don’t I could spiral into a dissociative or crisis state. I have to be very careful about overextending my ability to cope with difficult tasks Fear should never be used as a form of discipline. Children need to learn how to feel SAFE from their parents, not how to be afraid. Fear damages the developing brain.

When people tell stories about how their parents beat them, it’s always interesting to see their face change because they expected me to say “me too lol” but I instead say “I’m really sorry. You didn’t deserve that” Last time a co worker who also has West Indian parents was telling me in a joking way how he remembers being beaten with a belt because lied about his report card. As he was laughing it off and saying he deserved it, I just said “wow that’s awful hun. You didn’t deserve that.” And his whole face changed. Like it hadn’t occurred to him that it’s messed up that a part of remembering his childhood is remembering how badly it hurt to be beaten so badly at such a young age. Another time I had a friend, non West Indian parents, who talked about how she made a mess on a dress that her parents got her. It was really expensive apparently and she spilled red juice on it. She talked about how she was ordered to take the dress of and was beaten with a belt too without any clothes on. And she was laughing and said “I was a bad ass kid lol” and I said “no hun you were just a kid”. And she looked at me and immediately stopped laughing and just sat there like “yea…I was just a kid. I don’t know why they did that to me” My mom was raised in a household where she was beaten so badly….I just don’t understand how she is so loving now growing up in a home where she got so little love. They called it discipline, but once she became a social worker she began to see that it was abuse. That she grew up terrified of her parents, although they thought it was respect that my mom felt. It was fear. We have to get comfortable challenging what is often seen as cultural norms. We have to be a generation of people who are not ashamed to say “I would never beat my child”.