msixram

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i want to quit my job vibes. i don’t think x will understand vibes. k definitely will not understand vibes. l is a major bitch vibes. i hate my job!!!

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being sad as a natural state for 12 years!! (longer than that) vibes

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my mother has no money to let me live a good life anyway!! vibes

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my boss hates me and i can’t do work!! vibes

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coming home from the office at 11am because i felt sad!! vibes

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my brain is so broken. my life is so broken.

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you give time a chance

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Oh, your favorite musical is bare: A Pop Opera? Have you grown up in a restrictive environment not allowing you to express yourself properly, leading to you not really being able to identify your emotions well/at all, or did you grow up in a deceptively “liberal” environment that really wasn’t all that liberal and now you lie to your parents everyday?

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doubts that will never go away

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see la this is why i don’t fucking trust people just don’t expect me to trust you again when you protect people over your own intern

- are you finding fights for a reason

- maybe but also how could i possibly be expected to convert and work under you full time when i don’t even trust you and i don’t even know who the fuck it is in the office that i cannot trust

- can i trust j

— tell him things?

- see la trust u a little bit and this is what u show me. it’s not ok

- he will come back and tell me he knows i am having a rough week. actually isn’t he the one making it rough for me.

- am i even ok

- should i should i should i just give up

— realistically cannot la

- - why the fuck he call me little girl

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its like i keep telling myself its ok its ok its ok its ok its ok but its not ok!!!

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what happens when nothing numbs the pain

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what the FUCK everyone fucking out here thinking they can fucking play me. like ok so i told r about s/a then clearly they went for lunch or something and he fucking told l. what the fuck. also what the fuck is it with him and not guessing peoples intentions. why dont i like him because hes condescending

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i hate him i hate him i hate him!!!

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most people’s relationship with their parents sour because their parents love is not unconditional - therapist

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he doesnt understand my pain

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my life is such a mess i’m going to drink milo and Die