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My darkest times

This is going to be the most important blog that I’ve ever done in my life but I’m finally happy to share my story of emotional,financial and physical abuse to help others going through similar scenarios.

I never knew that a terrible thing such as emotional ,financial and physical abuse can happen to me Or anyone for that matter, such a horrible thing to go through and I don’t wish it on anybody,but what I would say is,if you see it happening or it���s happening to you,speak up because I didn’t and this was my biggest regret,because this person was such a manipulative person and would twist everything to make out it was my fault every time,when really it was some of the person’s fault and some of mine at times,but this person wanted to blame me for everything pretty much,even when it wasn’t my fault. Confidentiality was broken so many times.To come home to my own house after finishing college used to terrify me because this person was working nearly all the time ,So I never really got a break,and always dreaded coming home and that shouldn’t be the case,but certainly was in my case tho,but this particular person wanted all the hours going because this person knew what they were doing was wrong So basically this person didn’t want to get caught out too early hummmmm.I reached out for help but I was not heard,which made me feel very alone, and I thought this person would never be found out and I would be stuck in this situation for a very long time.Eventually it all came to an end when the said person was found out and was sacked from her position, which then put me through a lot of mixed emotions which I struggled with as you can imagine. I had to rebuild my confidence and learn again how to trust people, this was a challenge, but I have now moved on and opened up and feel good in myself that I have expressed my dark times. My life is now so complete with a wonderful team who care for me like care should be.

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Gokwan_mbe_ daily

Hello everyone I’ve been away for a while and now I’m back doing my blog this time I want to talk about the work I do for the incredible Gok Wan I absolutely love doing my work that I do for this guy I don’t get paid for doing it I don’t wanna be paid for doing it I do it in my own time and I absolutely love it it’s taking off really big because when I first started the work I did for this guy I didn’t think it would go anywhere but it’s huge Which I did not expect well just love doing what I do and how much incredible work goes into it and the incredible up to but it’s because of Gok’s followers that this it’s taking off so big I am beyond grateful for what I’ve achieved but without any of you guys helping me along the way there wouldn’t be any accounts that I run for this incredible guy thank you so much for that I really really do appreciate all the love and support you all give me from my accounts that I run I’ve read through all your comments about my group and how much you love the work that goes into it thank you so so much for your wonderful comments it really does go a lot way When I first these accounts like I said earlier I didn’t think it would go this big but wow just love how big it’s got and how big it’s gone and that’s all down to the people who follow it and support me through this I also would like to talk about my beautiful friend Frances who helped me update my accounts when needed I absolutely loved having her help she was such a darling I saw one in 1 million and I wouldn’t have got through some of the stuff without her incredible help and thank you so much beautiful much appreciated hope that you will continue to help me when you feel ready to help me again I would love that if you decide to help me again one day I miss your incredible help every day love you girl. Now I want to talk about how it came about I don’t really know the answer to this question but I was just sat by my laptop one day and I’m thinking I’m really missing this incredible guy what can I do to cheer myself up so I do support a page supporting him I did start off with the page but unfortunately all my incredible work got deleted due to someone Reporting my page that I used to run still to this day I don’t know what happened there but now I’ve got the Facebook group that I run and I absolutely love it but I do miss the page as well of course I was absolutely devastated when my page got deleted when I still didn’t know the reason why because I lost all my incredible work but thank God for Instagram highlights because I managed to save most of my incredible work that I did for my page Now I would like to talk about the man himself Gok Wan well what can I say about this guy I can tell you many of stories many are funny stories and the support he gives me the support I receive from this guy means an awful lot to me and for him to trust me with the accounts a run means an awful lot to me as well without him there would be no accounts to run at all on every occasion I go to his offence he always mentions the hard work I do for hhim and that amazes me because he’s recognitions the hard work I do for him which is totally amazing because my hard work doesn’t go unnoticed by the man himself which is really good and that should be something I should be really really proud of thank you so much for trusting me with these pages it really does go along way for you to recognise that I work hard means a novel awful lot to me I will continue these accounts as long as you want me to as long as I have your support I will continue doing whatever you wish me to do I love you so much thanks for being the best and trusting me with everything I wouldn’t be without you i’m really hoping you get to read this blog and realise how proud I am to call you my idol we are like the best of friends in a way or you’re like my family I haven’t seen you for two years but these accounts have been keeping me busy and keeping my mind occupied well missing you in the meantime thank God for these accounts Keeping me busy

Isolation nation well what can I say about that nearly year ago we all streamed on social media to watch Gok DJ to thousands of people online wow it’s hard to believe that was a year ago but along the way I met some incredible friends I haven’t met them in person but I wish to 1 day I have a circle of isolation nation friends I would like to mention on here hope that’s okay with everyone we have the gorgeous Frances who Has been helping me with my accounts to give me a helping hand she’s a beautiful young lady And I’m ever so thankful for her for helping me and I will always and forever appreciate your hard work but she’s help me along the way with It didn’t go unnoticed without any help I would’ve crashed I think just love her ❤️

Right okay I can’t mention you all but I love you all so much as it will take me forever because I love so many of you

Next up then we have the beautiful Lu wow this girl is so funny and when I’m feeling down or upset I’ll go straight to her and she knows how to put a smile on my face we talk on a regular basis through social media she is such a funny character and I cannot wait to meet her I think me and Lu would get on like a house on fire and be best friends for life which we are now even though we haven’t met each other hearing her funny stories are amazing especially about her hairdryer she loves the hairdryer of this girl which I find hilarious in my own way The thing is about this girl that I love so much she speaks her mind and doesn’t care what other people think which is the way it should be sometimes she is a strong confident woman I blooming can’t wait to meet her I am beyond excited that this day will finally come true one day thank you for all your support you give me on my group that I run it really does go along way and having your support their Day in Day out helps me along the way Another thing I love about this girl is that she gives me pictures when Gok It’s on the live stream and I’m not on for some reason she always sends me pictures from my account and that I  Really do love because other people are taking the time out to help me which really does go a long way because I’m a busy busy bee and sometimes I just can’t do it all so having the help of others helped me a lot thanks girl love you

Naughty noodles I thought I’d write a Little bit about this incredible guy he is a DJ he is fun he makes me smile I tune in to reset on a regular basis but I don’t know and sometimes that I’m there which I know I should Like I said I can’t mention you are but I wanted to mention this guy he’s always up for a laugh always dancing always playing the music that I love His support for my pages has been amazing I really appreciate this guys support as I support him and his DJ career And let me tell you he is smashing it he deserves it Even though we’ve never met hopefully one day we will meet He always puts a smile on my face that’s all that matters to me  Keep up the good work D you are amazing and if you don’t follow him I suggest you do because you are missing out on a hell of a lot & lots of fun too

Ellie bear 🐻

Like everyone and I’ve been talking about it this gorgeous lady is from the isolation nation family and she is such a beautiful young lady she always goes the extra mile to help me out with picture Wise To Put my accounts and that is super cute I can’t wait to meet her have pictures with her she always takes the time to talk to me even when she’s a little bit busy which I appreciate She even sent me a Roscoe brothers T-shirt for my 30th birthday bless her I absolutely love it

Bendy Wendy

This girl is super gorgeous she she talks to me online like everyone else we’ve met we met through the isolation nation family group I haven’t actually met this girl but I can’t wait to I think we are gonna be good friends she even talk to me when she’s a little bit busy or just finish work her gorgeous smile makes me smile when I am having a down day I am super excited to meet her one day as I’m dying to meet most of the isolation nation family I just simply love her

Tracy Emery

This girl she made me a Gok wan Doll which I absolutely love and I still have to this day every time I look at it I think of her it makes me smile when I look at it because it makes me think of her hard work that I went into it to make it And every time I talk to her I always mention that I still have the doll that she made me and send her pictures of it She even let me have pictures of car fest where Gok Was DJing for my account’s Which I really did appreciate and she even said I could pass of the pictures as my own bless her that’s so sweet of her can’t wait to meet her One day just like everyone else I can’t wait to meet

Laura Brooks

Me and Laura are Both massive fans of Gok And she is so sweet she will send me pictures for my accounts if I’m not online & Gok Is live on Facebook or something and I’m not on she will take pictures for me and send them to me for my accounts how sweet is that like lots of people they send me stuff for my Gok’s Accounts Which I really do appreciate Laura even got me a present for my 30th birthday which was really sweet and really lovely she didn’t have to do that but I appreciate it hopefully one day we’ll meet each other and share our Gok stories 

Right okay I could talk about all of the isolation nation family but that will take days for me to do as I know so many of you so like I said earlier if you haven’t been mentioned in your own section it doesn’t mean I don’t love you Oh we’re not friends I just haven’t got the time to write it right About everyone are you I love you equally I promise

The Wrinch

What are babe this person is and she’s just learnt to DJ and she is amazing I always talk to her on social media and she is wonderful she even lets me have pictures from a Instagram story if they involve Gok I absolutely love her hair it’s so follicles I wish I could get my hair that curly I can’t wait to meet her and have a selfie with her And lots of big cuddles that’s what I told her I would like when I meet her lots of big cuddles she is a diamond we are going to be friends for life no matter what love her so much

 phozzie B

Whooo whoo When I think about this girl I always think hands in the air let’s have a party let’s jump up and down let’s sing the words and have one hell of a party I can imagine this girl being extremely fun and leading people astray like me when we finally meet saying oh go on do this or go onto that that sort of thing that I’ll be right up my street she is also a learning DJ and she is awesome keep up the good work you’ll be on the stage soon just like Gok With your very own DJ set and it will Be a sellout just know it it will happen One day I remember one day I was Having trouble with the group that I run that people didn’t think that my page was real and she came back and said please follow this girl as she is genuine I always remember that Thanks babe I really did appreciate that

 Gemma

 what an absolutely beaut this girl is she always finds the time to talk to me even though she doesn’t use messenger chat very often but she sees a message from me and it makes a smile I can imagine it makes me happy when she replies back because we have a right conversation mainly we talk about Gok Or say yes to the dress And she always asked me what I’ve been up to if anything have you been up to anything good have a good day whatever day of the week it is Seriously this girl is Beautiful as ever I always say that to her and she’s always thankful I can’t wait to meet her one day neither I can Imagine Us going Girlie Shopping actually I would really enjoy that one day Love you Gem 💎

tracy campbell

Well what can I say about this lady when I first friend requested her to be my friend on Facebook her hair was pink which is really cool because I like bright colours and I’m thinking I’m going get on with this lady but me and Tracy don’t really talk as much as we should Because isolation nation is one big family we don’t all get to speak to each other we have the own circle of isolation nation family friends So we all talk to different people But Tracy Always has a massive smile on her face every time I go on her Facebook there is the profile picture where she has a message to More on her face which makes me smile when I’m about to message her Like I said in this family we all have our own circle of isolation nation friends he is such a wonderful lady she’s even let me have some of isolation nation tour pictures from the 25th of September this year because unfortunately I couldn’t attend this event so I have pictures from various different people that I’ve asked to use for my accounts and Tracy is one of them Which I’m extremely grateful for thanks hun

I am beyond proud of myself what overachieved run in these accounts I get a joy out of it seeing what the man himself is up to on a day-to-day life that is why it’s called Gokwan_mbe_ daily And I love the fact that I get to keep all of you updated on what’s going on this is what it’s all about I’m always grateful for your feedback you give me because it goes a long way and it makes me want to continue with my accounts reading your comments in the morning evening afternoon whenever puts a big smile on my face knowing that I have you guys supporting me like I said earlier if you don’t have your own little bit in my blog it doesn’t mean that I don’t like you or anything like that it means I haven’t got the time to write about every single one of you as there’s millions out there but I want you to know even if you don’t have a little bit in my blogI still love and care about you all Very much 

Right I guess my blog and here

I’ve taken all day to write this blog and now I finally finished It hope you all enjoy reading it I enjoyed writing it to be honest and as long as you have me I will keep running Mr Gok Wan Pages when you have finally read all of it let me know what you think you’re your opinion matters to me

All my love ❤️😊

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Hello everyone so sorry I haven't been on here in such a long time but I'm back now so I want to tell you all about my anxiety I don't really speak about this very much which deep down I know I should i shouldn't be ashamed of taking about it I've have suffered with anxiety since i little because any sudden loud bang makes me feel anxious then I get all upset and I get all stressed out which isn't a nice feeling to have at all but remember it's important to talk about these things so this is why I'm telling you my story about my anxiety I want to say though I have got better over the years recently but for 2 days now I've been feeling really anxious and I have no idea why because it's not even Bonfire Night weekend yet so are you ordered a anxiety bracelet to help me with this as well as my anxiety tablets which I start in a couple of weeks to help calm me down which they helped as well just sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel this way at this time of year but that's the way I am unfortunately and they shouldn't be sorry about it I should be talking about it more often because people out there don't even talk about their problems but I am and I'm proud to 2 being scared of loud bangs and fireworks Etc is so not nice because I can't do what I want to do because I have to get back before it gets dark to take my tablets to help calm my nerves yes I wish to God I didn't feel this way sometimes as I said earlier when I was little and loud bangs would go off scream the place down till the early hours of the morning knowing that there was no fireworks or any other loud noises so that I could try and get some sleep before school in the morning Now 29 nearly 30 I still suffer with really bad anxiety the end of October beginning of November but it's not as bad as it used to be I was a bit scared to put this story out there but I thought I'm going to I have so many people that love & kind about me out there which I'm extremely grateful to have x x x

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🌈Pride 🌈

Hello Everyone it's been a while hasn't it I just wanted to put a important message out there so it's pride season already it comes around very quickly doesn't it I would just like add you are who you are & you should be proud of that no matter what 🌈 love is love 🌈 & something people should be proud of not people saying names or judging people for it

Simple

You should still love these people regardless of their sexuality because they are still people we love support & care about so much

As long as they are happy that's all that should matter

That's my important message put across

🌈Happy pride season Everyone 🌈

Lots of love xxx

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Cinderella

On 14 December 2018

I was travelling up to Bristol with mum & my carer Sharon to watch Cinderella but 1st things 1st we stop at cribbs causeway to get something to eat & then we had a look around the shops I mean the shopping centre is bigger up then our rubbish one down in Plymouth ha ha ha move on when we were having some food we met these wonderful ladies Chelsea & Sam & we had such a lovely chat with them then we went Off shopping they had a Disney store there Yay!!! So me being me I wanted to go in & have a look because we don't have one in Plymouth anymore which sucks 😢😢😢 I wanted a big Winnie the pooh cuddly teddy bear but they didn't have any

So we headed off to the hotel we got there and the hotel was on a main road so basically it was drop off only so I had to get out 1st while mum and Sharon unpacked the car & brought my stuff into hotel & up to the room we were staying in then we all had a nice cup of tea & chilled for a bit but before we knew it I had to get sorted for Panto we all thought that the show staying at 7.30 but no it was due to start 7.00pm poor Sharon & mum didn't have time to get changed we just about made it pantomime time here we go then it was absolutely hilarious Gok bless him couldn't do anything for laughing Gok & Brian really do work very very well together there was a dry in the theatre that night I can unsure you

Twice in a year Gok Wan

I saw Gok in October in the same year so to see him again in December meant the absolute world to me xxx x he was told by someone that works at the BH that I was there & one of the best feeling Ever was when your idol finds you at the end of the show & waved to you I mean that made me feel so very special that night thank you Gok

Meeting Brian Conley

I met Brian Conley for the very 1st time & he was so very funny because he saw my poster that i made Gok & he was like what about me it was just the way he said & look me lol

He was absolutely hilarious in the pantomime though

The very beautiful Cinderella

Lauren is incredibly beautiful lady & the perfect lady to have played Cinderella

Had such a wonderful time x x x

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Hello Everyone

Happy 2019 Everyone

I'm so sorry I haven't blogging for a while to be honest with you I always forget I have Tumblr but I have been so busy with things such as the Realx Performance dick whittington that was so funny & the incredible voices of some of cast members wow wow wow is all I have to say on that one 😘💖 the very wonderful Sam Womack I finally got to meet her on the last day of Plymouth pantomime after trying none stop since pantomime began on 14th December 2018 my wish finally happened at long last she was absolutely wonderful x x

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In celebration of London Pride today, of Pride Month and the LGBTQ+ community as a whole; I thought I’d share this video.

It’s called Gok Wan’s #GlobalPrideMakeover. This video highlights how far we’ve come as a community in the fight for equality yet also highlights how still globally the fight for equality of our proud LGBTQ+ community still has a long way to go.

Regardless of sexuality, identity etc. we as a community will continue to stand against the dehumanisation and discrimination of all (LGBTQ+ or not) until we have reached a period of equality for all.

Please, PLEASE watch this short video and share it. Thank you.

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It's been a while 😄

Hello Everyone

It's been a while but .... I'm back Now Yay

Last time I blogged on here was just before my birthday back in April WOW

Hope you are all well though. And that you haven't missed me too match ha ha ha

I now have a voluntary job working for st. Luke's Hospice charity shop on Mondays & every other Thursday And I'm loving it

I always forget to blog really as I'm always busy doing something or other I will try to blog a bit more now I have this up and running again

Much love Chelsea xxxxx

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It’s my birthday this week whoooo whooooo

It’s that time of year again it’s my birthday week this week whoooo whoooo I can’t wait but I’m absolutely gutted my Chris can’t be here to celebritie with me I miss him with all my heart 💓 but I’m sure I will have a wonderful birthday still I really hope I’m going to get a birthday tweet from my absolute fave Gok Wan again this year as he’s tweeted me two birthday tweets last year & the year before so I’m keeping everything crossed for a 3rd year in a row

My 1st birthday as an Auntie I also can’t wait for my birthday as I’m an auntie to a beautiful niece Robyn I can’t wait to see what Robyn will give me Bless her whatever it is I’m going to love it for sure as I love her millions 😘😘😘

Friday 13th I’m not at suspicious ���� but I know some people are & I have nothing against that or them but to me it’s just a number & my birthday 🎁 🎁🎁🎁🎁🎁

I won £80 on the bonus ball

Me & my carers do the bonus ball every week & put £1 every week to take part & this week number 13 came out as the bonus ball number yes !!!!!!!!! Get in there Happy Early birthday to me thank you so very much for that xxx

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cyber bullying IS NOT Acceptably

I have been targeted to cyber bullying online this week  & it’s been so horrible this person was using someone else Facebook Account to contact me just to call me horrible names like fatty Gay & big  Just because this person didn’t like my Answers to this person questions i Mean ,,,,,,,,, seriously Grow up i might not be hurting on the outside but on the inside i’m crushed because of this person calling me these horrible names is so Painful  & disgraceful i mean i can definitely move on from this situation but the names you get called always stay with you no matter What i would like to say a massive thank you for all the lovely comments iv  received on Facebook & Twitter it mean’t so much to me i love you all       but everyone please be awake if you think you are being bulling online please please make sure you report it as no one should ever be bulling in anyway shape or form online  much love to Everyone Chelsea x 

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Snowing 🌨❄️❄️❄️❄️

Hello Everyone as you can probably guess it’s snowing pretty much Everywhere up & down the country which is lovely & wonderful to have pictures in & it’s also so lovely for children to play in & have fun too but there is a down side to the snow too ⛄️ because it’s stuck to the ground people have to be so careful while driving Etc & school are closed up & down the line because the weather is meant to be worse overnight tonight so please make sure you guys stay safe x

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New blog x

Hello Everyone 😃😃😃

So sorry I haven’t been blogging that much I’ve been so busy & I always forget to blog ha well where do I start then I think I should start with when I spoke to the wonderful Alexandra Burke on the phone now that was so amazing lots of people are asking me how I did well the answer is I just called up the radio station she was on & all I did was asked to speak to Alexandra but before that they asked me what my favourite soul & mowtown song was ?? Umm umm 😐 I didn’t know but I was recommended my girl by The Temptations which i dedicated to my mum for her birthday 🎁 it was so lovely to speak to Alexandra I told her I saw her in the bodyguard & sister Act in Plymouth & said oh gosh did which one was your favourite then ? & also said to her that I loved her & she said awwww I love you too 😘 I was buzzing for the rest of the day

Missed me talking to Alexandra Burke on radio London on 18/2/2018 then fear no more you can listen to it here ‪ http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p05vtmtp i’m never going forget this x

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I can’t believe the pain iv Caused   x

this has to be one of the most upsetting blog i have Ever Written

i Know ive  messed things up big time  with this one & i just wished i kept my big mouth shut I just haven’t been able to stop thinking  about the people iv upset & hurt along the way  I’m just sat in my bedroom with such horrible thoughts going thorough my head thinking why why why :( :( :( if only i said something Earlier then none of this would of happen  stupid cow now i have people in my family  so hurt & so upset because of my actions i know it’s going to take time to fix & i really hope in time to come they will forgive me but for now Totally understand their upset & hurt i don’t thing i’m ever going to forgive myself for what’s happen 

i’m so sorry Everyone i love you all millions x  

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Me singing with Liz x

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💕💕💕💕 I Got to sing with Liz McClarnon💕💕💕💕

  this was an absolute honour & a dream to sing with the wonderful Liz McClarnon from a Atomic kitten 💕💕💕💕 i mean Wow we sang her solo song strangers 💕💕💕💕 one of my fave song xxx i’m never going to forget this 💕💕💕💕  17/11/2017 

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💕💕💕💕 I Got to sing with Liz McClarnon💕💕💕💕

  this was an absolute honour & a dream to sing with the wonderful Liz McClarnon from a Atomic kitten 💕💕💕💕 i mean Wow we sang her solo song strangers 💕💕💕💕 one of my fave song xxx i'm never going to forget this 💕💕💕💕  17/11/2017 

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Frist blog of 2018

Hey Everyone Happy 2018 it’s so crazy saying that now Anyway hope you all well I have a cold 🤧 but it’s that time of year isn’t it Moving on missing my Chris so much I can’t wait to see him again very soon to give him all his wonderful presents for me & the family I can’t wait to see his face when he opens them bless him he’s my world 🌍 I wouldn’t be without him

Steve mcfadden who plays phill Mitchell in Eastenders is certainly in our Plymouth pantomime of Peter Pan till 13 of jan & I am really hoping I get to meet him before he leaves Plymouth which my absolutely amazing theatre royal friends are trying to sorted out for me god I love them all so much they are well & truly friends for life

So keep your eyes open for a picture of me & Steve

1st famous picture of 2018 x

My Chris’s big birthday 🍰

Well my darling Chris turns 30 on Monday bless him & even though he can’t be with me due to other mportant commitments he’s got going on he can’t be with me in Plymouth but that does not matter to me because I’ve spoited him loads but obviously I’m super gutted that I can’t make a fuss of him on his big birthday but I have lots of time to do that

No me & Chris are definitely not splitting up

Just before Christmas 2017 Chris told me he could not longer come down to see me because he had something important to do at the beginning of 2018 yeah I was super sad we both were but I totally understood why he didn’t come down but some people thought that me & Chris were over that’s not the case at all Chris had to do what was right for me at the time & I was the one saying to him I’m not going anywhere you have to do this you can see whenever you would like to so I was behind his decision all the way & because I love him with all my heart ❣ I definitely understood so no no no no we are not splitting up me Chris have been together for 7 years this year & we are stronger then ever

Xxxxcxxxxxxxxx much love x