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Hindi maalis ‘yung kaba ko. Nararamdaman ko ‘yung mabilis na tibok ng puso ko. WHYYYYYYY.

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The question is not about if he still loves me, it’s about if he can still take my attitude.

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Whatever it is, I think Harold is serious right now. I don’t know if he’s mad, I know I’ve hurt him, but he really is dead serious. He’s not responding to me. Before, he would message me first or reply to my messages while we’re on a fight, but now...

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Harold and I are going to meet today after not talking for more than a week. Will he break up with me? I prayed to God last night to give him wisdom and whatever his decision is, igagalang ko. I’m scared of the outcome.

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Kinakabahan ako for no apparent reason

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Still unstable

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I don’t want to talk abt anything that concerns my health kasi everytime narerealize ko how vulnerable and weak I am in reality. ‘Yung binubuo ko na sarili ko, nag-cucrumble down, tas bubuoin ko na naman, tas mawawarak na naman. I’m tired of this cycle. 😔

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Harold proposed to me in my dreams. It wasn’t grand but it was sincere. He didn’t asked me to marry him, but abruptly put the ring on my finger while I cried.

08/10/22

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Why do I feel like he’s just being pressured? Like he’s not sincere at all anymore… I feel like shit!

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He missed me.

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I’m starting to doubt us.

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I love you so much!

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Sleep! You still have a long work day tomorrow—

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We’re still not on speaking terms. I’m not even sure what went wrong anymore!

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I stopped writing for myself when I became a writer by profession.

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Missing you

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I’m okay, but not okay okay