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You're gonna figure it out like you always have

In life, one of the most frightening feelings is uncertainty. It is when you know you have to do something for the situation to change, but you just cannot seem to find a way. It is like running in circles or getting stuck in a labyrinth. The more you try to find a way to solve it, the more you find the situation uncontrollable. So frustrating.

But then, it will not always be like that. Looking back, I bet you have been in this kind of situation for who knows how many times.

You were once lost, unable to keep track of everything that was happening in your life, but as you can see, you survived.

Just in case you are now in this kind of situation. The best thing you can do is to relax, slow down, breathe and trust yourself that just like usual, you're gonna figure it out like you always have.

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Sometimes I feel so alone even when I'm surrounded with people. I feel so empty even when some people try to make me happy. I'm so sick of this feeling. I feel so incomplete and a part of me feels so broken. My mind couldn't stop thinking too much. There is a monster inside my head that tells me I'm worthless, I'm miserable, and I'm completely lost in the dark.

I feel like I am slowly losing myself. And I'm silently tearing apart for the fact that I couldn't even help myself. This life feels like a nightmare to me. I wish I would wake-up feeling something again. One day, I wish all the negative feelings I have will just be gone so that I could live a normal life.

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I'm not one to wish for a lot of things in life, but sometimes, I hope my heart can learn not to feel everything so deeply. I just feel like I tend to value moments others dismiss as forgettable and shallow. I plant them carefully in my heart like flower seeds, but instead, they grow as grenades and explode when it's time to go or when loneliness catches up on me, cutting me into a million pieces that always take time to mend.

I hope I can do what they do, just living the moments as they happen. I write them on the pages of my mind, thinking I can go back and feel the same things twice even the ones I know would hurt forever.

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I do believe in having our own timelines, but sometimes, I just wish I wasn't surrounded by a bunch of overachievers in life. Because no matter how hard I try to think of it differently, I always end up feeling sorry for myself. I always end up apologizing for even comparing, but it's just so hard not to when you know you're also giving it your all. That you didn't just sit there and waited for luck to rain, yet here you are and there they are.

At night, I take refuge in knowing that the stars heard all of my frustrations. All my silent cries, and that little wish that if all the things that I ever dreamed of just aren't written for me, I hope to find the courage to accept it with an open heart, and dream again.

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Some days, you wake up and just feel tired. Not your body, but your soul is. Tired of people's drama, your own, tired of backlogs from work and issues at home. It's something not even a good sleep can save you from.

On those days, I hope you always remember that everything's going to be fine. That it's just another day but it's not always going to be like that. Breathe. Go take your break, and then carry on. Focus on your dreams but be content with what you have.

Someday, when you finally get there, you'll remember the days when you woke up feeling like the weight of the world's crushing you and you'll thank yourself you never stopped walking.

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If you are fighting a battle, read this:

I know how hard it is to remain strong or even to fake that you are strong. I admire your being resilient amidst all the problems that you have. Always remember that dark days always come to an end. I know that you're losing sleep and appetite but always remember that every problems in our life happen for a reason. You might not understand the purpose of it for now, but at the right time definitely you will. In every door that closes, new opportunities will surely come your way. People come and go. People change. Cherish the people who stick with you. Let go the people who don't deserve you. Life is too short to be together with someone causing so much distress in your life. You are not alone in life. You are loved. You are worth it. Better days are coming. Don't give up easily in life. You deserve better. You deserve all the happiness in the world. I swear, you will be FINE. Your happiness and joy will be back and that's for sure.

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With love, 2021. ✨

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Maybe love will find you when you're ready. Maybe it will find you when you no longer have doubts on yourself and you already know what you want to do in life. Maybe the right love for you is just wandering around some old bookstore or a random street, so just focus on being the best version of yourself and leave tracks of happiness along the way.

One day, I know that love will find you and it will stay.

One day, I know that love will find you and it will stay.

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