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"this is the longest january ever." i say every year in january

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fascinating how grief makes you miss people who suck

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Azmaish?

It means test. (Azmaish is the urdu word for test)

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unpopular opinion: but sometimes parents can be the biggest azmaish (test) of your life

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how is it still january? every day I wake up and it's still january ... make it stop

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Surah Yusuf teaches us that people with patience, will have beautiful endings.

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well at least at the end of the day its the end of the day

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One day I'll have a normal sleeping schedule

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they were right btw. you have to dig yourself out of your grave over and over again

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genuinely insane how difficult it is to participate in your own life

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i wake up thirsty and i think of palestine. i go to the doctor’s office and i think of palestine. a sign in the corner of the waiting room says ‘this is a place of healing, disruptive behavior will not be tolerated’ and i think of palestine. they probably weren’t thinking of bombs and snipers and mass graves in parking lots. i call my parents and i think of palestine. i drive to the grocery store and i think of palestine. i look at the clear blue sky and i think of palestine. i put the dishes away and i think of palestine. i feed my cat and i think of palestine. i listen to music and i think of palestine. i read poetry and i think of palestine. i text my friends and i think of palestine. i think of palestine and i think of palestine and i think of palestine

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the problem with me is that I want to have fun and enjoy life

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I just want to go to sleep so I don’t hurt anymore.