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Yellen is really saying we can absolutely afford to BORROW money for another war.

Banks love borrowed money for wars.

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Every accusation is a confession. #Projection

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the ao3 lyric video strikes again

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Language matters.

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parents are so crazy because they can say the most fucked up shit to you when your brain is forming and it sets the tone for your whole adult mind set and then they forget about it the next day

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Misogynists are the weakest.

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Yes, all of this.  And also:

“Wherever you are...wherever you are right now...” And then coma!Chris asks for help finding his dad.  He means Buck.  He doesn't know where Buck is and needs help finding him.  

Another thing I have to say about the whole Buddie or “lack thereof” of last nights episode is that you need to understand the vast difference in what was trying to be said. The best example is comparing it to Eddie getting shot.

Before Eddie got shot, what was the main theme that we were all supposed to be honed into? Oh something about following his own heart, not Christopher’s. And that got Eddie confused but thinking about the potential meaning behind Carla’s words. That’s why the way he was shot was filmed so romantically. He gets shot in front of the one person who loves him unconditionally. They’re the only two people in that moment and you can see with the way Eddie’s eyes immediately look for Buck’s, that this is meant to be seen in a romantic aspect.

To further prove that theory, you see them holding eye contact before Eddie falls down. You see Eddie reaching out for Buck, literally following who his heart wants, but is just shy from touching him. Buck gets to him and saves him and even when Buck gets Eddie to safety, Eddie’s main concern is if Buck is hurt. It’s so heavily romantically coded that there’s no doubt in anyone’s mind what is happening there.

It further cements that fact when Eddie wakes up and asks for Buck. He’s asking for who his heart wants. That is why we are only the two of them in Eddie’s room and no one else. Because the theme of that episode was romantic relationships. He’s also the one reassuring Buck in the end, using his given name, that he’s not expendable. And he, in his own little Eddie Diaz way, confesses his feelings by giving Buck his heart in the form of his son.

When you take a look at “In Another Life”, it is completely different. It’s not romantically coded in any sense, rather heavily family coded. It’s meant to focus on Buck and his relationships with those he considers family. We saw glimpses of that foreshadowing in the episode before where we see the reappearance of his parents and that one on one with Bobby. So of course his family members, both biological and chosen, are going to be the ones who are predominately featured in this episode. Eddie isn’t family like everyone else is. He’s something completely different and because this wasn’t an episode with romantic themes, of course he wasn’t heavily featured in it.

We see that with the appearance of everyone but Eddie in his coma dream. We also see Buck waking up to his sister and parents in the hospital room. When Eddie eventually visits him, he does so with their team, not alone. Because if he was alone, then we’d be focusing on something that was clearly not meant for this episode. Eddie and Buck aren’t platonic and that’s the entire point of this episode. They’re more than that and if this was a romantically coded episode, then of course we would get more of Eddie’s presence. Yes he is his best friend, but are they really “best friends”? Because I would consider them something more than that and I believe this episode did a wonderful job in establishing just that with just how hard Eddie was grieving his partner. This was meant to focus on Buck’s relationships with his family, not with his Eddie. We’ll get to that soon.

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"i remember the days when you were rarely seen without a book in your hand" father you don't understand you STILL rarely see me without a book in my hand it's just that the book now comes on my phone and is usually Two Blorbos Experiencing The Same Situations Over And Over in an attempt for me to feel something inside

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January was a tough year but we made it

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When my grandma died, one of my Dad's cousins showed up with bags of toilet paper, tissues, napkins, paper plates, and disposable utensils. She knew the other cousins and Grandma's church ladies had the food covered, so she focused on the incidentals. That was almost twenty years ago, and we all still remember her showing up with those supplies.

hey since i’m occasionally giving out adult advice. anyone wanna know my very adult and very boring and very sensible suggestion for grief gifts for friends and family when someone close to them dies

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I think one of the most damaging ideologies towards children is the conviction that having children isn’t a calling but a moral obligation.

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I’ve been thinking about “you can’t pin joy like a moth” all day.