morbidwanderer

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I deserved a kinder goodbye.

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Oh! A new kink! I wonder which trauma this stems from!

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You’re so kind to others; why are you so cruel to yourself?

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Need to take an updated pic of my tattoos, leg is nearly finished 💀

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goblins are real

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You're in her dms but shes letting me use her nudes to practice my portraiture because she likes the way i draw her sooo

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me @ certain mutual

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taking it out & making her beg for it again 🥰

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HEY SORRY WHAT I SAID WAS WEIRD I AM FULL OF CURSES

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Big L for tumblr not letting you report someones ask/messages if they block you.

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This monologue lives rent free in my head

Spesifically, this part

"But eternity, Merle, eternity? You can’t possibly conceive the length of eternity, Merle. I have. It’s maddening and hopeless, but it’s this burden we’re all saddled with from the moment of our creation. It’s a finish line that, by its definition, will never arrive. It stretches forever and ever, it’s too ambivalent to even taunt those trapped behind it. It is the cruel price of existence, Merle, and it is too horrible to bear once you’ve seen it. Existence, Merle, life is horrible. To exist, to live, is horrible."

As someone who believes in the Karmic cycle, part of my brain is forever screaming about the trap that is existence.

John: You’re a man of the cloth, Merle, certainly you’ve wondered too about what awaits our consciousness after death or- What am I saying? I’ve given you a first-hand experience a few times in this very room. Perhaps for some people who think about it, there’s nothing but infinite oblivion, the eternal erasure of your consciousness, or for some it’s eternal life and their God’s glorious kingdom, or eternal cycling through all the inhabitants of their world. Any of these options, Merle, any of them are just- erasure, or contentment, or revival, any of them are fine as abstract concepts.

But eternity, Merle, eternity? You can’t possibly conceive the length of eternity, Merle. I have. It’s maddening and hopeless, but it’s this burden we’re all saddled with from the moment of our creation. It’s a finish line that, by its definition, will never arrive. It stretches forever and ever, it’s too ambivalent to even taunt those trapped behind it. It is the cruel price of existence, Merle, and it is too horrible to bear once you’ve seen it. Existence, Merle, life is horrible. To exist, to live, is horrible.

Merle: I… don’t think I want to hang out with you anymore, John. I think I’m gonna take off. And you can continue wallowing in your sadness and your oblivion, seeing nothing but the negative, and I’m gonna go on my way. And I’ll tell you what, if we ever meet each other somewhere in infinity, you can apologize to me and tell me you were wrong.

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I hope in another life I’m easier to love

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I will never get used to how many predators there are on tumblr and I hope they all die a slow and painful death