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hard to find good cheating ideas in this economy i'm so glad you're a genius. i want buddietommy to all be cheating on/with each other but in a sexy way not a hater way.

same.

buck gets with eddie and thinks he's got everything he's ever wanted. but then there's tommy, right. tommy, who still lingers at the back of his mind. tommy, who let him go so easily, like he was expecting it. tommy, who didn't fight his corner because he doesn't believe he gets happy endings. yeah, buck can't stop thinking about that guy. so he goes over to his house to talk to him. supposedly to clear the air, at least that's what he tells himself. but the moment he sees him, he knows he wants more. so they kiss and they fuck and buck tells himself it's the last time but it's not. it's really, really not.

so they keep this up for a little while, long enough that buck has to keep his lies straight, has to remind himself to wash tommy's smell off of him before he gets home. and tommy? tommy feels like absolute shit. because he did let evan go, yeah, but it wasn't for some goddamn noble reason like evan thinks it was. okay, well, maybe it was a little bit. there's more to it than that. more to it like the way eddie smells when his pits are drenched with sweat after they spar. more to it like the fact that they are the same person in a different font; that, in another life, tommy could have been flying the helicopter that eddie went down in. that maybe he could have protected him somehow. there's a connection there, and it makes him as bitter as it makes him hungry. so when evan comes around again, tommy doesn't have the heart to tell him that he's got pictures of eddie's cock on his phone, or that if he searches his boyfriend's texts, he'll find an audio of tommy himself moaning and begging eddie to fuck him like a cheap, used whore. so he says nothing and let's himself be kissed and fucked and hopes the good lord doesn't strike him down before he's managed to wash the sin from his skin.

and then you have eddie. eddie knows, okay? he knows that buck is cheating on him. he knows his man's body better than he knows his own. he knows what it looks like when he leaves marks on buck's skin and those aren't his bruises on buck's thighs, those aren't his fingerprints on buck's hips. so he knows and he knows who buck is cheating on him with because not that much scrubbing in the world can wipe the stain of tommy kinard off of both their hands completely. and he'd love to be mad about it, is the thing. god would he love it. but he knows damn well he doesn't have a leg to stand on, not when he's running a washcloth in the sink, trying to scrub tommy's come from between his cheeks. it's annoying as hell. annoying and frustrating and heartbreaking because this was supposed to be it, wasn't it? this was supposed to be what he and buck wanted, what everyone said they wanted. they were supposed to be each other's happily ever after. so why can't they stop doing this to each other? why is it that when eddie bleeds, he always finds a way to bleed on others?

and, more importantly, how can they end this without the others getting hurt? (spoiler alert: they can't. so maybe they just shouldn't end it.)

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Lord, grant me the strength to throw away this box that i'll never use, the courage to throw away this box that i'll never use, and the wisdom to throw away this box that i'll never use

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sorry to people who don’t think it’s hot when your partner gets a little stern with you about taking care of yourself. could not be me i am not immune to care and concern and a firm voice

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Here's the thing I think people forget, not all media needs to be critically acclaimed or objectively good, sometimes it can just be enjoyable for the target audience

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eddie "be glad i got this ring pop oh so help me god" diaz

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this is currently a hot topic at my work so

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“Uh, babe?” Buck called out. “What is this?” He yelled as he pulled out a wooden box from inside Tommy’s closet in his search for a shirt to borrow.

He eyed the mysterious box curiously as Tommy popped his head in. “Ah, that’s just a place I store certain items—“ His reply fades as Buck is seemingly too distracted by it.

With a soft grin, Tommy took the box from Buck’s hands and sat it down upon the bed, gazing at his boyfriend before opening it.

“This—“ Tommy started as he took out a napkin. “— is from our first, well, our first successful date at the coffee place.” His smile grew as he showed off a book pressed Myosotis. “This is a flower I picked on our first walk together.”

The room was quiet, save from Tommy’s movements and voice as he presented the items in his box. A shiny rock Buck had found on the beach on a sunny day. A ticket from the first movie they saw with each other. A scented candle like the ones they’d lit up on the first night they spent together.

“You, uh—“ Buck’s voice was low and shaky, filled with emotion as it dawned on him what this thing actually was. “You have an Evan box.”

Tommy softly hummed, taking Buck’s hand in his own with a tender smile.

“Of course.”

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Evan "Buck" Buckley as a Cowboy 9-1-1, S08E05 - Masks

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BUCK and TOMMY 8x05 - MASKS

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there really is something wildly healing about hearing buck say he has a boyfriend tho

like us bi buck truthers were in the trenches for YEARS and even now that it’s been real for six months it still feels so fresh

i’m so proud of how far he’s come. he did it. he figured himself out and now he he has a boyfriend

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anyway. more importantly. “you never know when the next door’s going to close,” literally came out of eddie diaz’s mouth. hello.

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IS JOSH DRESSED AS EDDIE CATTY GAY BEEF IS FOREVER <333333333

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118 + Halloween Costumes

9-1-1 – 8.05: Masks

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one thing I haven't heard anyone talk about is Tommy's whispered "how's that" after he adjusts buck's pillow like. oh my god.

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Tommy at the hospital, Tommy part of the fam, Tommy helping Buck arrange that funeral and going and listening to him, “boyfriend” (!!!!!), Tommy mayyyybe believing in the curse after all, Tommy having the last line of the episode!

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NEW TOMMY LORE GIRLS WAKE UP IT'S HAPPENING