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BORING SELF CARE series.

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The next few days I’m going to share drawings about how self care is often really really dull and unenjoyable. And not the “tumblr” kind of self care which is often lovely but not always real. Sometimes you just need to have clean clothes in your draws. Even though these things often build up in your mind the actual doing is often not as bad (unless obviously you are low on spoons 🥄, which is another discussion really as picking up your clothes off the floor may use energy you need to say, feed yourself. ) What are your boring things you do which are self care? #boringselfcare

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Medication is often stigmatized and that really bothers me. I’ve taken meds on and off for years to supplement my focus and combat my anxiety. I’ve adapted because of prescriptions. None of us are weak for this, we’re simply helping our brains get the chemicals they need to function better.

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© Megan Fabbri 2017

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Medication is often stigmatized and that really bothers me. I’ve taken meds on and off for years to supplement my focus and combat my anxiety. I’ve adapted because of prescriptions. None of us are weak for this, we’re simply helping our brains get the chemicals they need to function better.

Available on RedBubble!

Please do not repost or share without credit.

© Megan Fabbri 2017

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Anxiety.

Hello?

*Some incoherent statement*

“That thing when people”

“Your house before...”

... like an open house?

“Yeah, an open house”

“Not doing that again”

What are you talking about? Why are you talking about an open house?

Are you drunk?

“No.”

Then what is wrong with you? You’re not making any sense

“I don’t want to talk to you now.”

Uhh ok?

“Bye.”

...

Call #2

What is going on? What is happening?

Are you ok?

“Yes.”

Thoughts..

What is going on?

Is he drunk?

Is he alone in whatever state he’s in?

Is he so drunk he’ll pass out and hurt himself on accident? and he’s alone so there’s nobody around to help him?

Why is he that drunk by himself??

What is going on?

What if he throws up and aspirates?!

What if that’s the last conversation we have and I’m not there to help him?!

*Almost in tears*

Call again ... voicemail

Again ... voicemail

He turned his phone off?!?

He doesn’t want to talk to me so much that he turned his phone off??

What the fuck.

What is going on??

What happened?

What did I do.

Is he ok?

*Panic*

*Panic*

*Panic*

Just shake it off, he’s probably fine.

If he is that drunk, he’ll probably just sit in the recliner and even if he throws up he’ll be ok, because he’s probably sitting up.

What if he isn’t though?

What if something happens to him and he’s alone?

Stop it. He’s fine. This is just your anxiety taking over.

He’s fine. Even if he is drunk. He’s ok. You talked to him. You’ll talk to him again later tonight or in the morning. It’ll be ok.

An hour passes.

Still panicking internally.

Just do laundry and watch Netflix. It’ll be ok.

The phone rings. It’s him.

He was asleep. He remembers me calling, but not what we said.

You literally had me worried sick. (and literally was accurate - flushed and nauseous starting with that first weird call)

I was freaking out and then your phone was off.

“When I woke up I thought it was weird it was off. I don’t remember doing that”

He was just SLEEPING.

YOU CALLED HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF A DREAM.

All of that worry and he wasn’t drinking or drunk or going to aspirate and die.

He was literally in the middle of the dream, answered your call and didn’t make any sense, because he was half asleep.

THIS IS ANXIETY.

It’s knowing that you’re spiraling into the worst case scenario and that more than likely nothing bad is happening, but you can’t stop.

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À bout de souffle, 1960

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you can still radiate light if you’re sad. you can still be kind and soft-hearted if you’re a bit cynical. you don’t need to be the happiest person to make someone else’s day better.

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Treat yourself like a princess, and make Aphrodite proud.

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Do what feeds your spirit and nourishes your soul

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Casablanca (1942)

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“It would not be much of a universe if it wasn’t home to the people you love.”

— Stephen Hawking

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She understood that her heart operated on its own instructions, that she had no control over it or, indeed, anything else.

Jeffrey Eugenides, Middlesex (via the-book-diaries)

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She was the kind of girlfriend God gives you young, so you’ll know loss the rest of your life.

Junot Díaz, This Is How You Lose Her (via the-book-diaries)

Damn

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People who feel deeply, live deeply, and love deeply are destined to suffer deeply.

Juansen Dizon (via juansendizon)

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MONDSCHEIN 

[noun] 

moonshine (shine of the moon). 

Etymology: from German Mond, “moon” + Schein, “shine”.

[James R. Eads]