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Holy shit. Maybe I'm just a little ~toasted~ but I just listened to Hold My Hand, Lady Gaga, and behind my eyelids I just saw a massive montage of my F/Os taking my hand to comfort me. I feel like I could cry.

It started with Tali' taking my hand and taking me to look at the Normandy's drive core, then finished with Sephiroth descending as "I heard from the heavens" played. Guys, I'm like crying, that was incredible.

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Spin this wheel to get a weapon for a zombie apocalypse.

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I think it's about time I add Tali (Mass Effect) to the repertoire. For years she's been very special to me, ever since I played the original ME, and I'm state of breaking down crying because I don't know what the hell is wrong with me I held onto her figure and felt better. I don't know what spurred me to bring her to work, she's mostly just sitting on my desk under the monitor, but whatever did it had the right idea.

I'm gonna come up with some stuff tomorrow, but it really was one of those moments.

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I...

Am pretty bad off. Like I don't think I've been this bad since high school.

I just feel so much self "depreciation" going on that I just feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like I can't do anything and like I'm just watching everyone around me just doing stuff. Example is the restaurant is opening a general store attached to it and a lot of people i work with are making stuff to sell and I just feel left out and useless. It looks fun and like they're not only having a great time but also it'd be nice to sell some stuff for some extra windfall.

I don't write, I don't draw, I hardly imagine or do anything at all it seems, it feels like I'm just hopping from mindless task to mindless task. Like grinding in games, and it feels like I *should* be able to do something with that (no man's sky for example, or wow) but I just don't have any *drive.* I don't know how to just force myself and I hate being cornered like this. I just feel so useless. I don't even reblog things, like come on that is zero effort.

I feel so invisible at work and stuff and I can't really blame anyone because I'm barely even a person! I'm just an amalgamation of "interests" and trying to do what people want or expect me to do! But even so just seeing my coworkers laugh and chat and I'm just in the background is so infuriating.

And I just feel so irritable, maybe even angry, and I know I'm being a bit of an asshole and I hate it. I feel like I'm being snappy and I don't want that to be me. Maybe I'm always just an asshole and j don't know it. But I just feel like I can't do it, I just can't be around people today. Part of me just doesn't want to be around.

I just want to go home, I just want to lay in bed or just sit at my desk. There's no doubt I feel better at home (it's probably because Adri 💕) but I just haven't been able to do it lately. Please let it just be the medicine that got lost in the mail.

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Oh wow, those are both so perfect! I mean, I obviously expected the Mal one to be, but you knocked it out of the park with Rosalina's Docs!!!

RB Game

I had an idea so

RB with a picture of your f/o or s/i (and maybe a little description of them plz) and I'll assign them a pair of Docs

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I've got two:

Easy mode:

Hard mode:

RB Game

I had an idea so

RB with a picture of your f/o or s/i (and maybe a little description of them plz) and I'll assign them a pair of Docs

[no pr*ship]

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Do you ever get hit by thoughts of your f/o during a bad day and suddenly feel like this ? 

Negative emotions begone : no sadness can match the joy that my beloved gives me ❣️❣️

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reblog so prev can get a kiss from their f/o !!

proship DNI

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Hear me out wheel! C: If you don’t know who someone is just look em up and vote based on vibes

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touchstarved f/os who don't want to admit they want something as simple as a hug. but its all they can think about. how comforting it would be to feel your body wrapped around theirs. they stare at you longingly as words fail on them. eventually after so long for yearning to you, they whisper out if you could hold them. even if its just this once. of course you give them a hug and they melt in your touch, falling deeper into you as they hold you like their life depends on it.

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Not particularly a "date" per-say, but Rosalina and I like to take walks through the park while it's snowing. We're holding hands and bundled up to keep warm, and we both love watching the snow fall. She compares it to stargazing, and eventually we just lie down on a snowy hill to watch.

Not to ask for distractions from the horrors AGAIN but I'm pulling out my rolodex of topics to avoid the Ideation™ creeping over me and making me feel like I'm going to disintegrate

Mutuals, either rb this or get in my inbox telling me about uhh -spins a wheel- you and your f/o's -throws a dart at a board- favorite winter dates, idfk

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At this rate, I think it'd just be faster (and cheaper) to buy a used car from Craigslist

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Please leave extra tip for this handsome waiter, he deserves it 🥺

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There were SO MANY fucking ants on the inside of the window today that I could hear them moving around on the curtain. I told Adri that I, quote, "hope that isn't the sound of ants" after seeing a queen-to-be on my desk. Lo and behold, it was the sound of ants. Neither of us wanted it, but we decided the best decision would be to go scorched earth and just bug killer after I got home from work. But when I got home, they were all gone. Every. Single. One.

What the fuck.

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Another YCH, let's hear it for another YCH!

$15 each or $25 for two. I can change the expressions (as best I can) and add little facial details (eyelashes, thicker eyebrows, piercings, freckles, etc.) You also get to choose the scarf color.

No Pr/oship, fuck off.

pay/pal is here, dm me if interested!

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