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betapa merasa lemah aku yang tak pernah berhak tau alasan kepergianmu.

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When you are unsure about someone.

Replace “ Love “ with their name.

Love is understanding. Love is patient, Love is positive and spreads good energy. Love doesn’t manipulate me. Love isn’t judgmental and supports me. If Love is anyone of these, then you have your answer..

Ella

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and we go catch the fireflies together... and we go fly the kites in the ocean... and we go jump and climb into the sky... and we go... and we go...

sleep.

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Brandon Gray & Jessica Sikosek

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rindu ini tadinya tak pernah ada, dan aku tak pernah tahu mengapa ia muncul tiba-tiba, entah dari mana; serupa bunga yg menanti waktu mekarnya. engkaulah sang hujan yg pelan pelan membasahi apa-apa yg semula kering. membuat bunga mulai berani sedikit membuka hati hingga mekar sempurna.   lalu tertiup angin. terbang tanpa ada arah. sibuk berdebat luar biasa dengan waktu perkara kapan dan di mana bunga-bunga rindu ini harus berlabuh.   rinduku lelah terombang-ambingkan angin. sebab waktumu terlalu berharga untukku.

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Semesta,

terima kasih telah menyadarkan tentang bagaimana seharusnya seorang insan jatuh cinta, tentang bagaimana menjalani pilihan untuk tetap menyayangi tanpa peduli dengan rupa dan kondisi, tanpa sedikitpun berekspektasi, juga tentang seni merawat hati, tentang bagaimana semestinya kata tulus dan ikhlas dimaknai, untuk memberi tanpa menuntut apapun untuk kembali.

sebab, sungguh… membahagiakan sekali rasanya untuk bisa mencintai sesuatu dengan begitu dalam, tanpa terlilit aku-kamu harus bagaimana, tanpa risau pada sebuah balasan harus seperti apa, tanpa seonggok tanya yg membelenggu menunggu jawabnya.

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The Mountain (2018)

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sebab tak satupun dari kita, entah aku, dan tak juga kau, benar-benar memiliki andil atas semesta yang mengatur persimpangan ini.

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You’re going to realize it one day—that happiness was never about your job or your degree or being in a relationship. Happiness was never about following in the footsteps of all of those who came before you; it was never about being like the others. One day, you’re going to see it—that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself; it was always about embracing the person you were becoming. One day, you will understand that happiness was always about learning how to live with yourself, that your happiness was never in the hands of others. It was always about you.

oceans of sorrows

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memar-memar itu... ialah manifestasi pilu. sendu. hancur. peluh. rapuh.

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kita teralih...

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alih-alih merindukanku... sebab apa yang kau damba tiada pernah tersisip padaku. sedikitpun.

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kau-aku saling basuh luka-luka yang pernah tumbuh. perlahan mereka rapuh, meluruh, dalam rengkuh pelukmu yang teduh.

kau, yang menghangatkan selepas hujan reda.