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Oh yea Lucas had to leave again for a few days so I’m being very paranoid about falling asleep again.

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Can you die from drinking too much tea?

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I don’t know what day it is. I haven’t been sleeping well because I’m so paranoid about getting up and going somewhere. Even though Lucas is here to make sure that doesn’t happen I still have this nagging feeling whenever I close my eyes like something bad is going to happen. Hopefully soon I’ll just get so exhausted I pass out.

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do u know what happened to u the other night? U seem pretty shaken up, maybe u should talk to alexia

Why the fuck would I talk to her?? I meant it when I said I wanted nothing to do with dmc anymore, the only thing I’ll take away from that is maybe a few shots for my portfolio but THATS IT. I’m moving on, and everyone else should too.

To answer your question though, I really don’t know exactly what happened. All I remember is going to bed then waking up outside in the cold.

I’m going to chalk up the sleepwalking to all the stress I’m under lately but everything else has got to be another stupid prank.

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What the HELL happened last night?? This is getting way out of hand, I need to have some tea and collect my thoughts because I am fucking shaking right now. I’ll update with more later.

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Felt like this blog could use something happy amongst all the bs, so here’s my dog

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I just woke up on the side of the road a little ways away from my house, this sleepwalking thing is getting out of hand and the clinic clearly isn’t helping so what the hell am I supposed to do???

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I totally forgot I got Lexi a Christmas gift MONTHS ago and now I don’t know what to do with it.

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I have never felt so betrayed and hurt in my entire fucking life. What she did was inexcusable and disgusting, I didn’t want ANYTHING to do with this in the first place but because I dared to call her my friend I took it as an opportunity to practice my work and to help her out. Now I’m done. No more creepypastas, no more “ghosts”, no more fucking men in suits. I’m sick of the bullshit and the lies just to further some stupid selfish desire for fame. Fuck you Lexi, I don’t want to see you or any of your Deadlift bullshit ever again.

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I don’t want to talk about Deadlift ever again, fuck your deceiving selfish ass.

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i saw you mention working on a portfolio on your Instagram a month or two ago. are you in school for photography? is that why youre a part of Deadlift? you don't seem as interested in the "creepier" stuff with it as the rest of the crew.

I am going to school for photography! And while the creepier stuff is more Lexis thing I can definitely appreciate it for the most part. Plus, creepy photos make AMAZING art! I’m really excited to get some fresh content from tomorrow’s outing.

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I just wanted to shoot a message and ask if everyone is okay? Weird things are starting up again on the Deadlift Twitter.

We’re fine! I mean some of us more than others obviously but for the most part we’re all okay. If by “weird stuff” you mean Lex being cryptic I say to just take it with a grain of salt, her imagination can be really overactive sometimes.

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Oh spring, I miss you.

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Damn, I think I've started sleepwalking again. I woke up in the bathtub and I'm SURE I crashed in my bed, I should probably go to a clinic or something.

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In honor of the upcoming train video!

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is the crew okay? the weird activity has been happening on the channel again and lexi's response on twitter was really cryptic. i'm kinda worried about her

I still have no idea what you guys mean by “weird activity” but I agree that Lexi has been acting… really weird. Like, not her usual weird. I’m kind of worried about her too but honestly I think you guys should stop filling her head with creepy nonsense, she’s kind of sensitive to that stuff and very superstitious so it’s probably not helping in the slightest.