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the enormity of my desire disgusts me

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It's insane how the same set of news has been coming out of Gaza every single day for the past 14 months and I know for a fact people have grown numb to it; numb to reading the numbers or headlines like "Israeli strike targets school" because Israel made it so. Israel has bombed the first hospital in this aggression and pretended it wasn't them. Saw how quickly the outrage died down so now they have practically destroyed the entire healthcare system in Gaza.

A genocide is being carried out against the besieged population of Gaza and you are bearing witness to it. Your one mission is NOT to grow accustomed to the mention of these crimes. Repeat things over and over again. So long as this Zionist entity is lying, you are going to have to repeat things until you don't have to anymore. Keep talking about Gaza.

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i keep thinking about the future. i keep thinking about the day the death toll from the genocide is fully acknowledged and what we'll all say in our defense. i keep thinking about compounding atrocities in palestine, in sudan, in lebanon, in syria, in congo. this is the second year where every holiday, every celebration, every wedding, every birthday, every achievement has been marred by the knowledge that our world is rotting. i think there's always been an awareness that there are many political forces that keep people suffering, but the genocide has been so telegraphed, televised, recorded, tolerated, defended, all-encompassing in ways that have brought everything else to light. things haven't been normal for me in a long time. i don't understand people who have had a normal year. i think it's appropriate to feel shaken and it's appropriate to feel angry. otherwise you are not prepared for the future. happy holidays to everyone else who feels that way

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what i loved best about this episode were the quiet moments of intimacy strewn throughout the scenes despite the obvious tension of the plot. heejoo and sa-eon are finally communicating — bridging the borders between their bodies and minds that three years of misunderstandings had erstwhile created.

film-director céline sciamma famously had one of her characters ask her partner: "do all lovers feel as though they're inventing something?" and the truth is they do — they all do. the gentle touches, the lingering looks — the scene in which sa-eon signs the words he wants to say most to heejoo in a crowded elevator (yet as a viewer all we seem to see is the two of them) are all evidence of a private language which only two people in love can speak. lovers invent their own language — their own particular promises of comfort — of care. of "it's you and i against the world."

i saw this whole episode as a metaphor on identity and invention: sa-eon's ability to accept heejoo in all the murky depths of her secrecy as 406 enabled her to offer him that same absolution — that same blind loyalty to whomsoever he is at heart. paik sa-eon's entire life has always been a veneer — he has always been surrounded by pretense on all sides. he's created so many personas — the powerful son, the polished spokesperson, the media-savvy mogul. but it's the identity that heejoo was able to bring to life in him — an ordinary man who loves his wife: that he cherishes most.

this is what it means to love someone to the point of invention: where only the person they can create in you matters. where only the identity formed from your devotion to them remains after everything else is stripped away.

"the only sa-eon that i want to keep is the paik sa-eon that belongs to you, heejoo." 🤍

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Sa-eon's team watching him descend to levels of loserism previously never seen before for their new employee who can't speak while he's been married for three years and hiding his wife.

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this is Kamal Adwan Hospital in Northern Gaza, a hospital is under siege

Statement from Dr. Hussam Abu Safiya (petitions at the end)

The Palestine Mental Health Networks and Doctors Against Genocide stand with Dr. Hussam Abu Safiya, Director of Kamal Adwan Hospital, in pleading with the international community: Do not remain silent as Gaza’s healthcare system is systematically destroyed. The relentless assaults on Kamal Adwan Hospital—a sanctuary meant to save lives in northern Gaza—are part of a deliberate genocidal campaign. These attacks on hospitals and clinics, places meant for healing and shelter, are not accidents of war; they are the cold calculations of those who would see an entire people erased.

For 15 months, Gaza’s hospitals and clinics have been turned into crime scenes. Airstrikes shatter operating rooms mid-surgery. Children gasp for air as oxygen lines are cut off. Parents search through rubble for their loved ones while doctors stand helpless, their surgical gloves empty-handed and their hearts heavy. These are not “tragic byproducts”—they are intentional crimes against humanity. They shred the promise of international humanitarian law, reducing the Geneva Conventions to hollow words.

The world looks on, as Gaza’s healthcare system buckles under siege and bombardment. Medical supplies blocked at borders. Ambulances banned from reaching the injured. The simplest lifesaving tools withheld. This is not mere negligence; it is a brutal strategy of attrition, starving a people’s capacity to live, heal, and resist. The mental toll is immeasurable. Imagine the terror in a child’s eyes when the bombs fall again, the despair in a surgeon’s voice when forced to turn away a bleeding patient. Families bury their children in silence, their cries muffled by international indifference.

We echo Kamal Adwan Hospital’s urgent, anguished appeal:

1. Open a humanitarian corridor now. Let medicine, surgical equipment, and ambulances reach those who are dying for lack of the most basic care.

2. Protect healthcare facilities and workers immediately. Demand that the international community enforce the laws meant to guard medical spaces and staff from harm.

3. End the blockade of Gaza. This decades-long siege has turned Gaza into an open-air prison where even survival is treated as a privilege, not a right.

Humanity cannot pretend not to see. Neutrality in the face of genocide is complicity. Every bomb that slams into Kamal Adwan Hospital, every nurse forced to watch a child slip away, every life lost from denied treatment indicts us all.

The world is watching. Will it once again stand idly by as another hospital crumbles, another child’s breath is silenced, another fragile hope is extinguished? Or will it finally rise to restore the sanctity of life and the universal right to health?

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In solidarity and profound sorrow,

Doctors Against Genocide

The Palestine Mental Health Networks (Australia, Belgium, Canada, Chile, Egypt, France, Germany, Iraq, Ireland, Jordan, Lebanon, Palestine, South Africa, Sweden, Turkiye, United Kingdom, United States)

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need to arrange these thoughts somewhere so:

zionists will try to convince you any palestinian civilian "deserves to die" because they may have harbored ill feelings about israel as a result of running a decades-long campaign to frame opposition to israel as an unacceptable moral flaw rather than a logical political position.

this is obviously part of connecting anti-zionism to anti-semitism and why they have been utilizing every means at their disposal to prevent even seemingly benign criticism of israel

but i can't stress enough how this hasn't convinced non-zionists so much as it has convinced zionists themselves that criticism of israel is an unacceptable moral flaw. they regard any criticism of israel with deep suspicion and believe it has to be rooted in an inherent characteristic somebody has (that characteristic can be "being arab" or "being muslim" or born hatred etc) rather than a rational response rooted in anti-colonial and anti-apartheid principles.

the idea is that if a palestinian hates israel then they are antisemites who hate israelis for merely existing, and more significantly, tolerate violence towards individual israelis (and most extrapolate this to include the worldwide jewish population) on an interpersonal level. but they never pause to consider that supporting israel in any capacity requires co-signing far more violence towards individual palestinians, and is viewed as explicit approval of the violent subjugation and dispossession of palestinians. even supporting a fantasy version of zionism where everyone gets along requires, on some level, accepting the extraordinary injustice done to palestinians as the price paid to get there. and yet far fewer (if any) zionists are ever subject to a moral purity test of being asked if they wholeheartedly love and support palestinians and believe a palestinian state should exist at any cost to israelis. israeli hatred is tolerated and justified, while palestinian opposition (and here it is important to stress it is not hatred because it is not rooted in irrational fear but rational historical grievance) is demonized.

this is also why it is important to extend allyship to palestinians by normalizing criticism of israel. palestinians are quite literally being murdered in part because they are perceived to have an inherent hatred of israel. they are so dehumanized that their rational political stances as being denied because they are seen as incapable or undeserving of rational thought. to illustrate this point, israeli perceptions of european antisemitism dictate the conversation of how palestinians feel more than palestinian history itself. imagining, for example, that a palestinian needs a book about hitler or knowledge of antisemitic tropes to hate israel when israel is literally starving them and killing their children is the height of israeli (and western) arrogance and palestinian erasure. israeli logic contends that no palestinian is allowed to have a legitimate grievance with the state and soldiers carrying out their genocide; and if they do then they deserve to be eliminated so it wasn't a genocide but a righteous act.

so rather than saying "no palestinians don't hate israel!!!! look how many palestinians work in peace projects/advocate for tolerance/condemn violence" it's important to say why on earth are palestinians required to love their colonizers? why is anyone on earth required to lend approval and loyalty to an apartheid state? are palestinians supposed to salute the israeli flag in their refugee camps between checkpoints and bombings? by legitimizing a moral purity test of loving israel, you throw every palestinian who (quite rationally) does not like israel under the bus and validate the idea that loving or hating israel is a moral position about individual values rather than an explicitly political one about states and rights.

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one of the things i despise the most about the world currently is how some people are never allowed respite. when someone experiences something horrific, if they are brought down to their knees, the logical response is to help them get back up. but the world has now normalized (universally) a decision to kick people while they're down. i can think of hundreds of examples. a cancer diagnosis that is exacerbated by insurance refusing to cover it. homelessness that is exacerbated by being arrested and your belongings confiscated. war that is exacerbated by countries refusing to allow refugees in. i can think of hundreds of examples. i think about it every time i see a gofundme campaign. to reduce people to begging, and then blame them for their own misfortune. palestinians have always been very good at refusing to forget who brought them down to their knees in the first place. the palestinian poet mourid barghouti talked about it as "beginning a story with 'Secondly:' "It is easy to blur the truth with a simple linguistic trick: start your story from "Secondly." [...] Start your story with "Secondly," and the world will be turned upside-down. Start your story with "Secondly," and the arrows of the Red Indians are the original criminals and the guns of the white men are entirely the victims. It is enough to start with "Secondly," for the anger of the black man against the white to be barbarous. Start with "Secondly," and Gandhi becomes responsible for the tragedies of the British." it feels counter-intuitive that the more information we have, the more aware people are of exactly where the oppression originates, the more they refuse to see it and instead blame the person on the ground. start your story with 'secondly,' and that's possible. and when you start your story with secondly, you prevent respite for the first act of harm. respite, it seems, will have to be seized, as it has been before and it will be again.

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Stages of expressing your feelings for your wife: A step-by-step guide by communication extraordinaire Baek Sa-eon

Have a crush on a girl for 20 years and refuse to admit those feelings because your home life is a bit crazy, to say the least.

Orchestrate a situation such that you end up marrying your crush without anyone getting a whiff about your feelings for her.

Maintain minimal interaction with said wife for three years because you believe that you're holding her hostage in your marriage.

Realize that your wife is equally obsessed with you and is more than willing to match your freak.

Some examples of things that you can tell her when you're in the final stage:

You look so ugly right now (while she's crying).

I like you (while you're drunk).

I like feeling your heartbeat.

I know far more about you than you think.

I feel regretful. I don't think I've done enough for you.

Tell me how to hate you. Tell me how to not love you.

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DOES IT DISPLEASE YOU THAT HEEJOO ENTERED THE PRESIDENTIAL OFFICE BEFORE YOU COULD

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Chloe Atkins’ portraits of lesbians at San Francisco’s Club Q featured in her published collection Girls Night Out (1998)

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Baek Sa-eon thinking that his wife is having an affair with the guy (himself) she's talking to over THE PHONE 🤝 Hong Hee-joo thinking that her husband is having an affair with her supposed kidnapper (herself) who has THE PHONE.

Communication experts in love, your honor!!

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I must say I love the absolute insanity that animated hee joo into believing that her husband couldn’t possibly know she was 406…. Like girlie, I know you smart so how are we here?!? I can’t fault her tho lmao; her husband is losing the same amount of brain cells as her BECAUSE THEY ARE BOTH UNHINGED !!

( I must thank these two freaks (beloved) FOR FINALLY KISSING AFTER THREE YEARS IF MARRIAGE AHSHSJSSNIJS )

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“Tell me how to hate you. Tell me how to not love you.”

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I really hope that by the end of the series Mr. Kang and Baek Sae On become besties. Because let's face it Sae On needs a best friend (for his and our mental health). And so that they can stand dramatically in the park and talk about how great their wives are like losers husbands are.

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Baek Sa-eon is actually so embarrassing… like what is this level of downbad-ism that you can’t even control IN THE WORKPLACE??? A true loser for his wife

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