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the weight of my existence and life weighs down so hard on me it’s draining what little is left of me and i don’t know how long i can keep going.

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is this how it’s supposed to be? being grown up and stuff? does nineteen even count as a grown up? so many questions yet so few answers.. so many questions i’m going mad. i feel like i know so much yet so little, this world and it’s people are going to make me lose my mind.

i never thought i would ever say this but i wish i was a child again.

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“I’m tired of everybody. Please forgive me.”

— Ernest Hemingway

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SHALL WE LOOK AT THE MOON MY LITTLE LOON WHY DO YOU CRY

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i miss the time i was happy..

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maybe it’s something wrong with me, probably..

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good fortune in october. divine energy in october. reverence in october. bliss in october. worship in october. magnetism in october. love in october. exultation in october. reward in october. the flow of wealth in october. soul in october. abundant riches in october. enchantment in october. blessedness in october. rebirth in october. sheer magic in october.

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me???? tired???? sleepy???? yes constantly

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physically i’m here but mentally i’m in the clutches of a deadly but gentle monster

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I have to admit. I am not living la vida loca

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Tiger kitty

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hello august you piece of shit

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hope your days get softer from here on out. hope the hurt lessens and the dark turns to light. you deserve gentleness and good love. I hope it finds you soon.

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no more recovery im going to walk into the ocean and turn into sea foam

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"girl help" you know what? no. girl hinder. girl hurt. girl... kill