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I'm not ready to leave LA

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I need this told me in my life.

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Mood

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I'm surprised she still has feelings for me. It was a pleasure seeing how much she's grown, but I don't know if it's for the better. She is elated around me, but there's still a deep sadness - lack of presence - unsettled spirit.

I still love her. I want the best for her. The difference between me now and last year is I know I can't make anyone happy. Happiness is only something we can give ourselves. Other people can make us happy or cheer us up, but that isn't happiness itself.

I've been finding my happiness by listening to my body and giving my soul what it needs regularly. I pray she can find her own happiness.

She cried so hard when I left. I forgot how deeply she feels. I'm still moved by it.

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personal oasis

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... 😋💦

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Love You Enough

I left you in the dark,

Where I held you close.

Told you it was fine,

It was fine.

I wasn’t fine

truthfully,

I never was.

But you were fine,

That was enough

For me

Because I love you

You love me 

I love you-

I do,

I always will-

But love 

Love 

The meanings 

Endless.

I’m comfortable

I’m happy

I would never hurt you,

I don’t mean to

Smile 

When I see them

No one specific 

Just, 

another person

It’s my fault,

I don’t like it

This way either

But I won’t hurt you

They wouldn’t 

Want me 

Anyway.

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let's take nudes together

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This could be us🎭🦦🌚

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Me dodging the bullshit