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Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.

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"Wow omg you drawwwww? I wish I was a drawer soooo bad omg I suckkkk so bad at arrrt"

me:

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Do I get bitches? Idk, do I own a cat shaped charcuterie board with mouse cheese knife?

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Also to continue rambling lol

I've been feeling so good about my art in general since I got accepted into an artist alley. I feel like I've been improving a lot recently and I worked really hard to make enough product for that to even be a possibility so to get in was huge for me

Now a few days ago, we were talking about some character on a show we were watching who was going through it. I forget the characters exact issues, but my roommate goes "he's kinda acting like- oh well I don't want to hit too close to home" and everyone else in the room was confused because his situation was totally different from everyone else. We say oh it's ok and my roommate lookes me in the eyes with a sorry expression and says "a failed artist" and I was like ??? I don't feel like a failed artist I feel the most confident in my art that I've ever felt? Like it didn't shake my confidence in my art but it made me really sad to hear them say that and think I would find it too close to my own situation. Them thinking it'd hit close to home ended up hurting me more than the comment itself

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I yam once again feeling the staggering difference between i/nsta and tumblr like... wow my art account on here actually gets people commenting on it. I/nsta is just a wasteland even with 4x the amount of followers it's just posting into the void and feeling no connection with another person whatsoever.

But here?? People in the tags of my art are so..so damn kind. They're so encouraging and they talk about how it makes them feel and their own interpretations just.. actually inspires me to continue lol

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how it feels to be online these days

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Im at the point in my life where I just post tiktoks I get recommended

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Click here to check out my friend’s and my YuGiOh! folder icons :)

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Imma need them to post a second trailer or clips otherwise imma keep making Shadow beefing with Tails stuff

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Onions and Garlic 2

OiI on canvas

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this was me getting a migraine that gave me stroke like symptoms after working toward setting up and trying to get into artist alley network. But it feels like very normal things just cause me so much stress that even if im happy and having fun it takes a gigantic toll on my body

i ordered my first set of print samples and i was so worked up over everything being perfect and ok because this is my first time doing this that i had to lie down and nap after because i was so physically drained and within those 2 hours they emailed me saying there was an issue and emailed me again saying they had already sent some of the prints and their work day was over AND it started their weekend. so i emailed them and they got back to me the following monday. luckily it turned out ok the prints with issues got resolved and sent later, they didnt even charge me again for expedited shipping for the samples and im glad they did but i was so frustrated with myself for causing that much trouble just because my body couldnt handle it

if it isnt this its how it takes twice as long for me to complete things than it takes a normal person. this i think is a mixture of my constitution and adhd/mental issues that make tasks into huge convoluted undertakings.

the strangest thing i think is im not really sad about it right at this moment. its made me really depressed in the past but right now im just tired of it lol like... really? i have been having such a great time these past few months but because ive been working on this big project my body still couldnt handle the strain.

Why is it killing me to do the things everyone else can do

Why is my body weak

Why does my mind shatter

Why is it dying

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Not telling your kid they have a learning disability, chronic illness, mental illness etc. so they can “feel normal” actually does the opposite. They will not feel normal if they do not have the context to understand that their normal will be different from that of their peers.

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Why is it killing me to do the things everyone else can do

Why is my body weak

Why does my mind shatter

Why is it dying

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BRO w h y does this one day mall event artist application have a section asking how many followers you have.

artist alley venders I listen to talk about how they gained most of their following thrrroooough events so like. What? Even if someone's art is good are you gunna go "😬 you have under 1k followers......" like really?

I'm so glad most of the events I look into don't ask that wow

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boy oh boy do i know so much more about how my brain works because of posts like that last reblog it doesnt even really change anything in my day to day much except give me an explanation and justify that the way ive been coping with adhd is valid which is really really nice