missnakehole

[missnakehole]

[missnakehole]

I wish the account wasn't private. I know it's basically self harm to look at it but I want to know what's going on. Why was it privated? Did he say something? He's never going to get divorced. It feels like you don't even want to. "It's scary". You said you wanted that. You told me right away you were divorced. But you lied and you're never going to leave her. You're not happy. You say you're depressed and unhappy. You could get your own insurance. You could tell her you want a divorce. Tell her about me. Tell her you're in love with someone else and you want a divorce. You and her family are so connected. How would I even fit in?? It's never going to happen. So what am I doing? I love you. I want to go to bed every night next to you. I want to wake up next to you. I want to be there when you get home from work. I want to cook you food and take care of you and fuck you and have you love me forever and ever. Why do I only love the wrong people? He's so amazing thou. He adjusts his behavior based on what I say. I don't have to beg. I can talk about my feelings. We have similar interests. We click. We want the same things sexually. I just want to be his little girl and be safe and loved and together forever. And I'm ready. I would move there if you asked. I hate it here. I would work something out with my dad. Idk. I'd keep doing long distance especially if you were mine. Legally you're someone else's. I hate her. I wish she would leave or die. I know you don't like when I say that. I know you don't hate her. But then if she was gone we could be together. I just want you. I want to have a real life together. I want to say "I was talking to my boyfriend" I want to say "me and my boyfriend did X" I want to tell people I'm in love. I want people to feel like this is serious and real. Because it's so real to me. So real. And I don't care what anyone thinks. I love you and I want you and I want to be together and I need you to let that happen. I know you still live together. Do you still sleep in the same bed? I have so many questions that I want need the answer to and that I also don't want to know. I just want you to leave her. I don't think you will. I didn't think I'd see you ever either. But I did. But I think that's only because you had a few days where she wasn't there. This is the one thing you lie about. I believe you're honest about pretty much everything else. I wish we could actually talk about it and me not cry and you not shit down. But it just hurts so much. It makes me want to scream and cry and hurt myself when I think about her touching you. I don't want to be the other women. I don't want to just be an affair. I want to be your wife. Ya that's what I want. I want to be a wife. I want you. I love you.

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I can't even really say I'm suicidal I just wish I wasn't a person anymore. I just want to lay someplace safe a quiet. I just want someone to love me.

[missnakehole]

I wish I was dead

[missnakehole]

I'm sad and I don't wanna be sad anymore. I wish I was beautiful

[missnakehole]

I'm so lonely and tired

I don't feel good

[missnakehole]

1. Stream a movie together

2. See him

I can get tickets and hotel stay for under $1500.

It's just me who's motivated.

Why is the account private now?

What am I not supposed to be seeing?

You want to keep something from me

Maybe she knows he has his side shit.

[missnakehole]

I want someone to love me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to love.

[missnakehole]

I want my mom I'm so overwhelmed. I can't do all of this I can't. I don't know how I'm going to keep up with everything. I don't know how. I can't do it. I'm stupid. I'm stupid. I'm stupid. I'm stupid. I'm such a retard.

[missnakehole]

Please please please please let me be a part of your life. I love you and I want to tell you all the time.

[missnakehole]

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

[missnakehole]

[missnakehole]

quitmell

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Filters have ruined my sense that I'm actually beautiful. When I see what I'd look like without all these marks and likes and uneven skin... It's like wow I'm beautiful, like truly. But I don't look like that

[missnakehole]

I want to tell you I love you all the time

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