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I’m just saying. Why does Schoolhouse Rock keep getting more and more relevant?

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Cara mia

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@a-captions-blog

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This wasn't me because of autism, I just couldn't connect to my peers and got Othered and bullied and made to feel like a weirdo. At least 4 people signed my HS yearbook to the tune of "time to start being yourself". MOTHERFUCKER, WHAT DO YOU THINK I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO??

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

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ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.

ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week

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I feel this in my soul

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Where else can you get Little Nemo snack cakes at 3 AM? Don’t kid yourself, that cat lying there on top of the stack of NYTs is the owner. The humans work for her.

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Most niche bit of crossover fandom ever!

For the West Wing fans and the Doctor Who fans, with apologies to Ronny Jordan. River Song presents…The Jackal

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I was asking an old friend the other day what he thought about the idea of me going back to school. And while he was all for the idea, he said something that I can't get out of my head, something about am I going to be keen to put myself into a system that's all about following rules and doing things the way people tell you to do them. And in the moment, I said, well yeah, I can do that when I want.

But I keep thinking about it - first of all, because - is this what he sees? Some jerk who can't follow the rules in an institutional setting and doesn't want to? Because from where I'm sitting, the times I have gotten into trouble in situations like that, to me it has always seemed like I'm trying to get people to be straight with me on what the rules ARE, just so that I CAN follow them. Or someone will say "yes, it's totally okay to do this", so I take them at their word and behave accordingly, only to have it turn out that it WASN'T okay, and then I'm the bad guy.

Does this happen to you too? Do you spend a not-small part of your life going "why didn't you just TELL me that?" Is it bad that I don't like to assume things? Because I never saw that as a flaw. This is not me being emo or seeking support about anything, I am legit just asking a question in case any of you have experienced similar.

Does this make any sense to anyone? Does this happen to you too? Not feeling up to a selfie today, so instead I offer you my stuffie Bernadette - they are my non-binosaur, the best stegaysaur ever.

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What Aidan said on Patreon about fivelila and the program:

●fivelila

X: Aidan, What was the most difficult scene for you to film in season 4?👀

Aidan:

I think the kiss...it was hard to make it real. I really had to let go of myself and be Five. It's really not easy to give a kiss and make it real. There's a lot of the relationship with Lila that we filmed but they cut it. It took weeks to film it and they used a few minutes in a montage. That wasn't right. It also made it very hard for viewers to believe when we spent weeks filming scenes to set up that scenario Ritu and I were there for weeks before someone else came to Canada to film our secret scenes first

There are also articles online that are not true. For example, David never had any problem with the romance between Lila and Five. Neither did Ritu. That's completely made up to attract clicks.

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X: What was the most difficult thing for you recording the last season

Aidan:

Knowing it was the end

We also didn't know how it would end. Steve always hides the last script until the very end.

Steve basically wrote what he wanted and we were paid to do it.

No cast member has a vote on anything.

I would change it back to the original 10 episodes that Steve wrote.

When Netflix told him to cut it down to 6 episodes and remove all the expensive scenes, I'm sure that hurt the season a lot. It's like reading a well written story that has everything you ever wanted to explain about the show.

I mean, I understand that the show was no longer profitable, so it was a business decision.

We were lucky to be able to get a fourth season; it was actually a gift from Netflix to the fans because they didn't make any money on it

Actually, you should thank them for season 4. Any other network would have just cancelled the show. I heard they tried for years to fix the deal with UCP to make it profitable to move forward and UCP didn't do it.

OK, so UCP owns the show and struck a deal with Netflix to distribute it on their network. But with each season, the show cost Netflix more and more money from UCP. By season 4, it was no longer profitable

Anyway, I'm glad they made UA. It almost never got made. For years it was going to be a movie

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I Believe (In Altos)

From my cabaret, The Tough Made Lemonade (also on my YT).

Speaking up for fellow altos, because lord knows somebody has to.

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One year ago today, the word “bearotonin” was born. To celebrate this anniversary, here is some of the bearotoniniest bearotonin we have

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Team Sondheim! ♥️♥️

Meeting this lovely pair made our morning.