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I haven't been able to be active lately due to my child and pregnancy, I need to take a step back. I have been invested more on my phone when my children need me, I am also taking a step back from cockles for a while as i have become a little too attached and invested when it has become a replacement for many real life issues.

I will sometimes be on tumblr for updates for a second but I will not be drawing anymore of Jensen and Misha. I am sorry for this but there comes a time with adulthood and parenthood that you need to take a full step back, to change how life is going.

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Why is there less and less pictures like this of them?!?!

https://x.com/jolauriang/status/1770645619171848583?s=46

so glad i wasn’t the one who noticed! 👀

oh??? 😳👀

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https://x.com/jolauriang/status/1770645619171848583?s=46

so glad i wasn’t the one who noticed! 👀

oh??? 😳👀

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phew, thank god

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So, as you know, or don't, an employee got fired from Starbucks and they posted all the recipes online =)

part 1

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So where is the gif of when Jensen banged his head because he was thinking dirty thoughts (he did that also 2017 Jibcon when drunk and thinking dirty). Also, when Jensen said "if he shows you his pose (crotch in face) I'm pretty sure everyone's eyes would pop out."

I need THOSE gifs, and now I just want to see Jensen's reaction to Misha in that... Pose 👀🤣

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https://www.tumblr.com/mishacolinsackles/745392131897704448/the-altar-boy-joke-got-the-crowd-feeling-a-little

I agree there’s definitely a difference in audience between CE cons and European ones, and I think Jenmish are both very aware of that. Probably why they try to be a little more mellow at CE cons versus elsewhere, although sometimes their particular brand of chaos still comes through lol

Here’s hoping they have a panel together at PurCon in May! (http://www.supernaturalwiki.com/Purgatory_8)

I personally still really enjoyed their panel, regardless of the setting. Their chemistry is always so beautiful to see! 🥰

Thank you so much for this. I completely agree and I am beyond happy we as the audience and fans, get to experience them together at panels almost every month in this year. It means the world to us and hopefully to them as well❤️💙💚

CE cons have regulations and rules they abide by which is good, but on the other hand it is them being able to be their true self infront of us that we admire and hope to see, there are other cons that allow that but yes, I feel CE is a little on the side lines of things. I can't wait for what the future brings 😍

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The altar boy joke got the crowd feeling a little off (understanding as children were involved) which makes the fact that Misha isn't at Jibcon this year even more upsetting, in Jibcon they get to relax more and have fun, inappropriate jokes that creates more of an enjoyable atmosphere along with the audience. Not saying alcohol drinks makes them closer, but it definitely helps ease off the tension of where is this panel going.

They have been able to be more open and I personally feel like it sucks that Misha isn't there this year.

Thoughts?!

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Wow and all the shit I got from ALLOT of people for me saying Misha has Autism in the past!

I had to apologise to them because of what?!

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Inspired by current events - The Whole Nine Inches in cinemas near you

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Parasocial relationships are strange. Parasocial relationships in a fandom like this one can be even stranger.

I want to preface this by saying that everyone is entitled to their feelings, and feelings are sometimes completely irrational. I am also aware that sometimes our feelings are driven by incomplete thoughts, and have a tendency to overwhelm us and those around us before we can process them. In saying that, I have seen a lot of conflicting emotions and reactions to the reveal that Misha Collins has a "serious" girlfriend (and a large cock apparently, but that is a whole other thing), and I know I shouldn't be surprised by it, but part of me is.

There was a conversation in my discord server over the complicated feelings people have about this news. As a cockles-friendly space this was to be expected, as any new development in the lives of either half of JenMish often spurs these kinds of conversations, but as it started to get emotional I was thanked for bringing some perspective. I hope that I can help anyone who also needs a different way of viewing this situation by making this post, while also helping myself to organise my own chaotic and complicated thoughts.

As I understand it, during the It Seemed Like A Good Idea At The Time event at this weekend's Burbank convention, Misha told a fun anecdote about gift-giving with his new girlfriend and her daughter, wherein Misha got some things delivered to said girlfriend directly from Amazon, and girlfriend wrapped them for the daughter including what she thought was a microphone but was actually another similarly shaped item not intended for children at all. He continued to say that this "microphone" was for his girlfriend so she wouldn't need to go searching elsewhere for intimacy, as they are currently living in separate states. Now, I was not at the event, and the lack of recordings (recording was strictly prohibited, so if you've got one shame on you, I don't want to know about it!) means that everything I will ever know about this story and the way it was told to the small audience who were lucky enough to be able to attend this event comes as a form of the Telephone game, and therefore lacks a whole lot of body language, tone and context. We, as a fandom, have been severely burnt by this kind of missing nuance before - think DenverCon'21 - and it's these kinds of kneejerk reactions that have the potential to spiral out of control and limit the things we get told at future events - think bishagate.

Think for a second about your personal perception of Misha Collins. He's chaotic, he can be a little self-deprecating or self-effacing, he likes to turn serious anecdotes into jokes. He is also a passionate and caring man, who has a lot of respect and appreciation for his fans. Think about the way he tells anecdotes at standard con panels - it's often a bit tongue-in-cheek, a bit sarcastic, a bit exaggerated - so why would his behaviour at this event, which was specifically set up for Misha to tell stories he wouldn't normally have the space to do in a convention setting, be any different?

I am going to go through my thoughts on some of the things I have seen mentioned about what this all means…

First off, the elephant in the room, what does this mean for Cockles? To me, absolutely nothing. Whatever Jensen and Misha have going on completely transcends a standard sexual and/or romantic relationship. Misha was in his relationship with Vicki for the majority of his life, including when he met Jensen, and we all know she literally wrote a book on polyamory; his perception of relationships is literally shaped and moulded by this, and it's not something he's going to just switch off. Danneel has been a permanent fixture in the cockles dynamic this entire time as well. The JenMish panel at Burbank this weekend will hopefully alleviate any of the doubt anyone is having here, and give us some knowledge that regardless of how Misha defines his relationship status, things will continue in the same chaotic, loving and ridiculous nature we've become accustomed to.

Which segues nicely into the implication that the vibrator was purchased so she wouldn't stray, and therefore their relationship is monogamous. See above thoughts about tongue-in-cheek, exaggerated and self-effacing - when I imagine him telling this story, I see that cheeky, gummy grin going the whole time. Without the nuance of watching this unfold, I think we are all safest to assume that this was a joke, not a firm declaration that he has left his polyamorous attitudes behind.

On thoughts of him "moving on too soon" from his marriage and subsequent divorce, this is where my own feelings get complicated as well, but also where we need to remember that the key feature of a parasocial relationship is that we only see and know what he wants us to. We don't actually know what the trigger for that dissolution was, so in terms of the actual calendar timing it might seem soon, but emotional development and change doesn't run on a standard calendar. We don't know how long the process was before the decision was made to separate. I am currently working through a messy separation, and while I can pinpoint the decision to somewhere in the past 6-12 months, my marriage has realistically been dead for 3+ years, and we're a (supposedly) monogamous couple. As a poly couple, I can imagine that Misha and Vicki worked through every alternative option possible before landing on the decision to formally separate, and had probably well and truly been through the mourning period before it was even all over. Adult relationships are complex at the best of times, and no one ever truly knows what is happening in them except the people involved. I also think that as a man who is nearing 50 and just come out of very long term relationship, that he doesn't actually know how to be "alone", nor does he want to…

Lastly, for some of us, this is someone important in our lives who has found happiness in another person when perhaps we don't have that for ourselves. When those feelings hit, they can be extremely disheartening, and I want to send all my loving thoughts to anyone who falls into this category. It's difficult when the envy turns your stomach in knots and then your thoughts spiral into all the things wrong that mean that no matter how much you want to you can't just be happy for someone. Love and life are complicated, human beings are complicated, society is complicated. There is this hugely widespread and toxic mentality that we are all raised on that says we are halves of something that is destined to find our other half in order to feel whole, and it's utter bullshit. We shouldn't need one singular significant other to feel complete, and sometimes we get so determined to find that someone that we end up sacrificing ourselves to make them fit. (see also; Daniel Sloss' thoughts on this subject in his stand-up special Jigsaw)

There are many different kinds of love, many different kinds of relationships, and many different kinds of people. If anyone proves that to us, it's Misha Collins. He is walking evidence that human life is chaotic and unpredictable and indeterminate and we can make our own fucking rules. I hope that we can collectively be respectful of him, no matter what (or who) he chooses, and feel grateful for everything he trusts us enough to share.

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As an actor, a trans parent and a human incubator, there are points no matter how good a role is, our children are the first forefront (thst includes hie good of money). Some try to intise you to come with working out a schedule or something similar, but nothing will come first, especially when your kid is crying over video call or they become sick and you are not there. It hurts deeper than throwing a role away.

Misha is an amazing dad.

Good for Misha turning down lucrative roles because they would take him away from his kids! He missed so much of their childhoods already due to SPN and you don't get a second chance at that. Once childhood is over it's over. I'm so happy to hear him say that. I'm proud of him. I love hearing about dads who put their kids first. I love knowing there are some dads out there would genuinely rather spend time with their kids (just doing boring everyday stuff like making them breakfast, driving them places and picking them up from school) than make more money or achieve career goals. Particularly after a divorce (when so many dads just leave or sort of fade away and allow themselves to become insignificant parts of their kids lives.) YAY MISHA COLLINS. Good egg. I knew I was right to stan him. I LOVE IT. (Footnote: I may have some unresolved abandonment/daddy issues.)

As someone who's parent got divorced when I was the same age as his kids were when it happened, I can clearly see the other route he could have taken. I'm proud to see him living his life on his own terms & I am sure his kids love having a dad around.

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This is honestly how I see Jensen and Misha 😂💙💚

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Oh Jensen I wonderer what was inside your big bag 😉💙💚

One of the accounts that tracks outfits just identified Misha’s blue over shirt as costing $190. Sounds like more than he wound normally spend…🤔💙💚

Someone’s been buying him clothes again 🤣💙💚

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🤡🤡🤡

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Few HOURS!

Girl wake up we've got cockles con tomorrow!! ✨🤲💞👨‍❤️‍👨🌈🚨👬🎸🥃🐎🍆 😍🎉

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This is just all of us autistic people, we mask best

A small Steve!Castiel blending in with the humans