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My headaches take control of my life just as a storm controls a sailors path. Strike me down if im wrong

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Marya Hornbacher, Waiting

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from “dead schoolgirl’s confession”

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Alejandra Pizarnik, tr. by Yvette Siegert, "Extracting the Stone of Madness", Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962 - 1972

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I wanna write a poem (After Rudy Francisco)

I wanna write a poem

I wanna write a poem that speaks what we cant say

I want to tell the truth making the world see whats real for the first time 

I wanna write a poem that would touch your soul, making you finally feel whole

One that burned into your brain 

The the type of poem you really wanna understand, 

The one that says "your not alone" that "when you hear it you know its home" poem 

That "one of a kind like your grandmothers broach" poem 

That "hope it heals you, makes you feel" type of poem

I wanna write the poem that goes outside of the box so far you cant find it 

The poem that bridges the gap between me and my speech impediments 

The poem that talks about talis about the unspoken pain you gulp down after a seat change in school

Or 

The hope that cant seem to fade after the 15th time your dad canceled and showed up late 

I wanna write a poem for the ones who dont have a boice or are afraid to use it

I wanna write about the kind of love that doesnt have to rhyme or make me red

I wanna write a poem thats a spark in the dark 

Not only for now but generations 

So when im hone everyone can still hear my voice in my ink stained books

I wanna write a poem that heals you as it ends 

That "mind blown" "come again" poem 

That "sad its over. Happy it happend" poem 

I just wanna write a truly good poem

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my curly hair. And it's problems. A rant.

Everyone likes my straight hair better. Which makes sense, it makes me seem normal, perfect, manageable. While my curly hair is consistently a mess. My curls are never defined, never perfect and frizzy, just like my brain. I dont like my straight hair. I feel like if i mess up in my straight hair its worse. My hair is my life, short, long, brown, orange, blue, curly, straight. My hair is the reflection of myself. And if im not perfect like my hair why should i have perfect hair

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In regards of the Trump government scraping all trans inclusion in its queer information portion of its websites I have made this thing. Spread the word. Don't let them pretend we never existed.

P.S: Don't like! Reblog! <3

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thoughts...

I feel like my ribs are lined with old love letters i never sent

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a poet drowned

So am i bound to be drowned in madness? 

Am i bound to smotherd in my poetry? 

Leaving myself gasping for air as my pen writes another word onto my heart, stabbing my mental health into another part of my brain

I will be consumed by madness like every other artist

Its the curse

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love letters part 1 of a million

Your hands are works of art

Same with your body

Like you've been sculpted from marble

Honestly every peice of you that you dont like makes you more interesting, more things to study on your body

I want to know every part of you by memory

I want your soul burned into my brain

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"Too gay" I fear

"Too gay" 

Fear was rooted in those words

Never wanting to look "too gay" 

Though i wasnt myself in my long hair 

And "girl power shirt" 

It was a layer of skin i had to shed 

If i wanted to feel at home

Again

So i worked it out 

Alone in my room

Name generators

And

 "Am i gay quizzes" 

Open in every tab

Finally saying my name

First day in class

That one teacher ill never forget

Called me max, still does ever since then

So maybe

I started by myself

But in the end 

I got a teacher, or maybe a few

Some friends 

And a guy too

Surprise Surprise 

I got almost 100% on all those quizzes 

And a whole new wordrobe as a bonus