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One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

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geto suguru ☆ 夏油傑

happy birthday Elena! @ashiromina

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Devastating! Art museum gift shop doesn’t sell prints of specific and unpopular painting that struck a cord with you!

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07.11.2023, Tuesday.

Feels like I have regressed. That one step I took forward feels insignificant compared to the two steps I’ve taken back. How much more patience and strength will this take? I’m not sure how long I can hold on.

Prepped breakfast and lunch

Replied to emails

Unpacked suitcases

Halfway through laundry

Journaled

Read a book

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04.11.2023, Saturday.

Feeling pretty good but also not at the same time. Airports make me feel good. Not as much as museums. Pushing aside the thoughts of my next steps.

Travelling.

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29.10.2023, Sunday.

Taking a well deserved break. Away from people I know. Much less anxiety. Even less confusion. I wish to live a quiet life without too many societal pressures and judgements.

Last minute research for the whale article.

Trying to meet the deadline for the whale article.

Packing to return “home”.

Overthinking a casual date in a few days.

Enjoying the 1989 re-release.

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Venus meets the Pleiades

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How it started vs How it's going Jujutsu Kaisen Season 2 OPs

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10.10.2023, Tuesday.

This again. Anxiety-riddled and self-sabotaged. Do I deserve this? Does he deserve me? Am I just in my head?

Long day naps.

Somehow managed to prepare dinner.

Ended the day with doubt and started now with sad.

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“Äiti itki. Isä lähti huoneesta. Vivian istui nurkassa ja kuunteli vaiti. Kissamme Minni hyppäsi vuoteelle ja käpertyi jalkojeni päälle ja kehräsi, sillä kehräämällä parannetaan sairaita.” — Emmi Itäranta. Kuunpäivän kirjeet

“Mom cried. Dad left the room. Vivian sat in the corner and listened quietly. Our cat Minni jumped on the bed and curled up on my legs and purred, for through purring the sick are healed.” — Emmi Itäranta. The Moonday Letters. Quote tranlated by me (unofficial)

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Rainer Maria Rilke, Selected Poems

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30.09.2023, Saturday. The ambience of the cafe was wonderful. Not the brightest or the warmest weather out there. I don’t regret that milkshake but maybe the fish and chips.

Finished my laundry early.

Tutored for a couple of hours.

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September 10, 1931 Journals of Anais Nin 1927-1931 [volume 4]

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