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30 DAYS CHALLENGE

Day 3. A Memory

For many people memories of funny or happy moments always linger on their minds. Yeah same with me. I have a special place for it. But I choose to recall bad memories more frequently than the good ones.

Today I’ll write about my college memory. The worst era in my life. 4 and a half years that I felt like in hell. I didn’t have many friends back then, been in a toxic relationship, took hard major, family problems, mental health problems. I didn’t know what kind of life I want to live. at that time I was more like confused fish dragged by the current on the river. Until I finished it I didn’t get better.

I confused about my life. And I still until right now.

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30 DAYS CHALLENGE

D.2 Things That Makes Me Happy

Another hard question, but I’m gonna break down all the things that make me happy into 3 points. So let’s check it out.

1. The most thing that take my attention for the last 1 and a half year is fangirling. HAHA I know it’s feel cringe but trust me I am being the happiest version of myself when I do fangirling activities. FYI, I have an interest in Korean idol group named BTS. Every time I scrolling through Twitter and other social media one thing that I saw is them. Yeah, all the aspects of my life are full of them. I feel really close to them even in reality it isn’t. Besides they have a lot of great and meaningful songs, they also interact with ARMY through social media they own (which seems too ordinary but they are different). Whenever I sad and my anxiety increase to a high level, I immediately hear those songs.I recommend Mikrokosmos, Answer: Love myself, Magic Shop, Epiphany if you need healing songs. BUT I can say, all their songs are masterpiece.

2. Maybe because I want to be a productive person these days so I really enjoy reading novels. It can be any genre, but mostly I crazy about reading mythological novels. One author that I praise really hard is Rick Riordian. He is also the author of the book of the famous film “Percy Jackson”. I’ve already finished about 7 books written by him, and those books never disappoint me. So I highly recommend his book if you have an interest on mythological. The other book that I finished to read was “Midnight Library” by Matt Haig. It is such a masterpiece. After I read it, I start to be someone who want to always grateful:”). For another recommended book maybe I would write about books that I owned and I finished on next session. So just wait for it.

3. I have been learning Korean for 1 year since the beginning of 2021 and I really enjoy it. I guess Korean is easier than Japanese (I can assume it because I learned Japanese in high school and they have sooooooo many alphabets). So the reason I decided to learn this language is for Bangtan :’) as ARMY know mostly the member of bangtan couldn’t speak English fluently, except for RM. One day when I get the opportunity to do fanmeet or attend their concert, I really need to know what they talking about and can talk to them in Korean. I want to say thank you for their presence in my life. It’s getting sad. Haha nvm.

So yeah that’s it. The 3 points above are all the things that make me happy for now. Maybe I would add another if I have some more. HAHAHA have a nice day. Please check my recommended songs above. 안녕히가세용. 잘자 <3

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30 DAYS CHALLENGE

D-1. Describe My Personality

Helluuuuuww. Here I am again. Long time I didn’t appear on this blog since the last time I posted picture about 30 Days Challenge. So, today I am going to do Challenge D-1, in which I describe my personality. Honestly, I am a little bit confused about myself but I’m gonna try. So let’s check it out.

1. Very neat and organized person

One of my personalities that I’m really proud about. I could say I got this personality from my mom. My mom is the kind of person who really like everything being organized and really discipline about cleanliness. It happen first when I took college, I moved to another city and my mom frequently visited me twice a year. One thing that always she said after arrived at my house was “Oh my god you are such a lazy person. Look at that dusty chair, you must never clean the house properly” and that happen every time she visited me So I guess after live alone for years I start to act and react everything like my mom did. I stressed out whenever I woke up late and hadn’t cleaned the house, I felt like my body easier get itchy, I can’t think properly when my bedroom in mess condition. Sometimes it's troublesome especially when I'm tired. But at least I am proud I can take care of myself and make my own environment cleaner and neater. Hehe

2. I hate being ignored by the other/too emotional

This personality kinda ruined a lot of my relationships either with my friends or my ex-boyfriend. Every time someone send me a message on WhatsApp or just texted me back with short sentences, I immediately feel ignored by them, and feel instant sad. Maybe I am too sensitive, but I don’t know maybe in the past I was ignored by someone and Left any scars that I don’t realize yet. I’m trying to calm down every time I feel that kind of feeling. But sometimes I can handle it and get too emotional. LOL I hate myself

3. Hate being ignored but having interest on cool person (man)

This is crazy and weird but It’s really interesting when I meet people especially boys who talk less and look cool haha. I like talkative people, but somehow the cool one is the most attractive to me. Oh, maybe the reason why I easier to get il feel with someone is because they speak and act nonsense. I mean you could play cool and let it flow.

Hmmm, I guess three point above is enough to describe personalities of mine. Maybe I would write another after I meditate and do self-reflection. Haha nvm, I'm just too lazy to think about my personality. And suddenly getting emotional *haha again.

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30 Days Writing Challenge

I'll take this 30 day challenge :) wish i can be patient

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Our Close friend named Insecurity

         Henloooo minty back! Today I’m gonna sharing a little bit about my experiences face and deal with my insecurity. Now I try not to always deal with it, also found myself getting well to accept it, but sometimes it still hard to find the clear path or the exit door for my insane mind. So here we go…

         The first stage in my life i felt that kind of insecurity when I was in junior high school. Until now I can clearly remember that day when the best friend of mine suddenly told me that A (pseudonym name of the other girl) told everyone “how can boy having interest on minty and ask for a date, she is literally tan and ugly enough for have bf”, fyi back then I had tan skin because the distances from my house to my school was about 20km ish, and I got exposed really hard by sun and I wasn’t familiar with sunscreen, so you guys know how tan I was :’). I can told you, at that moment I felt my world like thorn apart, I grasply looked my skin and talked to myself what she told was true, I lost my confidents, and I just want that day to end quickly.

         Fortunately after I got that offensive words by that girl, I started to take care of myself by scrubbed my body, tried soooo muchhhh face masks, facial  (started when I was 13, and now I know that harmed my skin :’ ). I kinda felt crazy about did that activities everyday back then. But the hardwork never deny the results, and my skin slowly changed brighter than before, and I liked the results. My friends also told me that my skin brighter and I prettier than before. I was so proud of myself ihiii.

        After that moment I spend my life so peacefully, I entered highschool and made so much friends, I also dated a couple time and never got bad words towards my body again. And suddenly on 3rd grade I dated someone that until now I found out he is the most person who bring the insecurity on me. at the beginning his closefriends tend to compared between me and my ex exgf, they said the same words that my junior hs friend told. They said I wasn’t as pretty as the previous girl, I wasn’t that sexy or had a good body. And guess what, my exbf didn’t give a f*** to his friends, he wanted me just forget it. OF COURSE I CAN’T.  There were a lot of red flags my ex did, such as commit on cheated to many girls, gaslighted, and compared me with his girl friend (muchly his campus girl friend). My self confidents really hit the lowest part in my life. I realized now I dumbed my self. How can I lend and trust that kind of trash guy. Hell yeahhh young and dumb.

       I dated almost 4 years with my ex and at that time I had bad university life too. I felt so behind on my academic, also can’t made a friends too because I spend my time mostly with him. My worst era in my life . I hate myself because not good enough, not preety like others in instagram/ in real life, stupid, I also had family problem too. Oh my life was complete

      I got myself back in 2019, when I brokeup with him. I met another boy who brought me joy and happiness (but now we broke up too ahaha). In september 2020 I guess, I met BTS and diving in on their contents and felt really fallin love with them. They bring me a lot of happiness, and make me love myself more day by day. I never find persons/ figure that give these so much positive impact on me. I start to deal with my flaws, I start to learn a lot of things such as studying Korean, getting back to writing again, start to make an account where I can spreading positivity too. I feel reborn as a new person, a positive one.

       But after all, My insecurity mostly appear when I burn out, or get my pms day. I still battle with it. But I realize now I have place feels like home (BANGTANNN), whenever I feel that kind of emotion I hurry up grab and watch all their contents and musics which is soooo gooodd and motivated.

       Here is the summary, it’s okay to have the insecurity. Everyone feel it too. Just accept it, feel the sensations, it’s okay to cry and take a break from activities, if you have family or friends who can bring joy just catching up on them, got a chit chat. Life like a roller coster, very fluctuative, sometimes your life in the lowest point, but it can increase to the highest too. Just live in the moment.

Your Beloved Girl

Minty Yoon

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Henloo

Hello this is me Minty. This is gonna be my first post ever. As you can see from my profil picture and also the header photo it’s really clear that I am an ARMY. If you curious about my real name I wouldn’t reveal it. Pssttt I might consider to reveal it someday if I decided to end my account. But now let’s just live in the moment.

I am really glad because I finally start  writing again. It had been almost 10 years since junior high school. I left my dream to become a writer or novelist. I litteraly feel about losing my writing abilities. In these 10 years I have been do such a lot of things. Become a senior high school student, entered a major in university and back then felt like a hell. And here I am as minty, with my journey as an baby ARMY, and also fulltime life fighter.

I would like to write and share about mental health, lot of random things, BTS of course, and I wish it's okay to share my messy life.

Hope you enjoy it

With love, your Minty yoon