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Ok, here it goes, my FULL report on Soukoku and how it went vs how it’s going

First and foremost I think the singer that describes their love life best is Childish Gambino (this post is inspired by Les)

anyhoo, onto the report! So, this all started in Age 15, when these two pretty boys met on a mission, Chuuya being y’know..Chuuya- and Dazai being reserved and not really comfortable with sharing ANY of his feelings other than hate for Chuuya

Storm Bringer…ooo, danger, Chuuyas getting more comfortable with Dazai now, and Dazai’s still reserved and kind of..Eh, y’know? Like, he cares but will never admit it to Chuuya’s face.

Current Manga, well first, chapter ten, when they first met again..THE TENSION GOOD LORD- I can picture Chuuya being just..cold with him because on the inside..He so wants to yell how much he adores Dazai..as for chapter whatever the fuck Chuuya nearly got drowned in..I CRIED YALL. But, I think..I don’t think Dazai was lying with what he said..he meant it, because as I’ve mentioned, Chuuya fell first, Dazai kind of lead him on and just..abandoned him, and when this happened, Chuuya covered all his feelings with rage.

(ALSO, WE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT HOW I KIN DAZAI MORE THAN CHUUYA BUT FOR SOUKOKU IM ON CHUUYAS SIDE-..seriously kin bingo made me realize I kin Dazai WAYYY more then any human should)

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I’m a bit weary and tired but here’s a Drabble for you guys

‘How pretty..’ Dazai Osamu thought as he stared at the small red haired male in front of him..he was pretty, that was all there was to it, the piercing blue eyes, the silky, soft golden ginger hair that fell like a waterfall over his shoulders, and especially the attitude he carried himself with, it was all just so..attractive, and to Dazai it was obsession worthy..he had multiple photos of Chuuya hung up in his room, all kinds…including some..spicy ones to say the least, he was not proud of stalking Chuuya online and in real life..it was so..vile. But then again, so was Dazai, and he loved him, and if it’s in love, then it’s ok, right?

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Y’all need to stop posting genderbended Dazai…

YOUR GIVING ME A TYPEEEEEEE HELP

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my thoughts on dead apple!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING-

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Get to know me

( ik this is longgggg over due but whatever)

Hello! I’m mindless, I take she/her they/them pronouns, and I mostly post vents and fanfics ( I’m mentally unstable hahahaha-) I hope you enjoy my blog and find something ya like, I’m apart of a few fandoms bsd, hq, csm, Danganropa, etc

I’m a huge simp for a lot of people within these fandoms and I give no apologies for it

I’d love to connect with more people here so please, if you wanna talk I’d be very happy too :]]

this song describes me best rn ( prepare for song updates lol)

anyhoo, thanks for being here and liking my dumb shit :D

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this is a random ass vent, so be warned tw

COMFORTING SOMEONE THATS SUICIDAL DOESNT DO ANYTHING, IT DOESNT, I WANT SOMEONE TO SCREAM AT ME THAT EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG AND AWFUL, DONT TELL ME “ no it’s ok! Your perfect!” THATS SWEET BUT THATS NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING

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Take my hand

Dazai Osamu x y/n ( not proofread sorry)

the night was always a hard time for Dazai, he was used to being alone and scared and just..vulnerable. What he was not used to however, was having a warm, kind y/n next to him while he slept, taking care of him, and loving him. He liked it but it took him a while to warm up to you, you can recall the night that he had a nightmare, he doesn’t typically talk about his nightmares, but you know that their bad. This night that he had a nightmare was in the midst of a storm, thunder booming outside when he woke up in a cold sweat and tears brimming in his eyes, he couldn’t find you, he needed to find you and make sure you were ok. He carefully walked down the stairs to the second floor of your home, softly calling your name trying to locate you, you who were simply trying to get a glass of water to head back up to bed. When you saw Dazai, now crying and calling your name louder, you were also nearly brought to tears, he looked just weak, weak and scared, when he saw you he stopped walking and tried to turn around praying you didn’t see him in his roughed up state ( which you did) you followed him. Now finding yourself in the bathroom while Dazai dabbed his eyes with a cool wash cloth, you walked toward him slowly, as not to startle him “ hey..you ok?” You whispered, you gently moved the towel away from his face “ now that your here I am, don’t ever make me seem that pathetic again” he chuckled. You didn’t share his laughter, you knew that their was more to that laugh than he admitted. “ just take my hand, please?” You murmured softly, he did take your hand, your soft, small hands fit so nicely in his larger calloused ones. “ let’s go to bed” he said, you nodded and slipped back up the stairs, collapsing on the bed and almost instantly falling asleep, but you swear you could hear a small “ love you” come from Dazai before drifting back to sleep.

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My version of Soukoku ( more details!)

Basically, I can really only see Soukoku working as one sided love, Chuuya adores Dazai and Dazai just doesn’t feel like that, or he does but won’t admit it at all ending in them being in a constant loop of “does he care, no..no he doesn’t. BUT DOES HE”?

anyhoo, have a nice day, drink water, eat something, make the most of life while you can

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this is hands down one of the most Minnesotan things I’ve ever heard-

This might be my favorite submission so far

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Help the bsd fandom has given me a warmer welcome then my own family-

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I Love You Like An Alcoholic

Soukoku, my version lol

It was Chuuya who fell first, he realized he fell for Dazai after the battle against Verlaine, looking into the taller males eyes was a trap those eyes held a thousand dark words, but also held a thousand days of trauma. After Dazai left the port mafia Chuuya may have celebrated with some wine, but deep down he was in denial, “ in deep shit” as he’d put it. Dazai on the other hand was more..confused on his feelings for Chuuya. He’d protect him at nearly every chance he got, but also would kill him himself if he wanted. But he didn’t. He just wanted a kiss, just one kiss. It wasn’t until they met again ( in chapter 10) when Chuuya wrapped his hand around Dazai’s neck they both realized just how adoration, love whatever they had was like fire, a fire that would burn you from the inside out until you couldn’t take it anymore.

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you mean…I could argue with my friend against her stupid ass crush?? YES PLEASE!

fyodor with skk

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hmm I do enjoy torturing people I care about-

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WHERES MY CREATIVITY YOU QUACK-

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I’m lost, I have made minor posts about my friend before but this is just me screaming into the place I might be heard, my friend ( whom I adore more then the fucking stars) I just wanna tell them I care so so much about them and would love to be their partner but I can’t. Because they just don’t requite my feelings. They’ve made it so clear, but I just can’t get over it