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Set up the ps4 guys!!! Milo-1

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I’ve tried all my life to be good

To be kind

To be gentle 

I’ve tried to be calm and collected 

I’ve tried to be smart and sweet 

But the rage that boils in my stomach 

The screams that rot in my throat 

I can feel them aching in their restlessness 

The person I was is buried inside me

The shell of myself I puppeteer for you

I’d rip out my own ribs and deliver them with bows if it made me enough for you

But it won’t

I’m not good enough for you 

Because I’ll never be sweet 

And I’ll never be kind

A dead soul never lies

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Frero roches.

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I take great pride in this

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I know shits like user friendly and stuff now but can we start working towards idiot friendly???

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more things rattling in my brain

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I’ve spent my entire life proving myself to everyone else

Being a young blond girl with hope in her eyes turns dark fast

The trip of a wire and the snap of life’s cruel hand will change you

Faster than anything you can prepare for 

I worked my add off to be the best of the best in everything I did and it was never enough 

Like the stars in the sky I’d shine so bright I’d burst and blow up

I’d break myself in the process of being worthy of love

And I’d kill myself slowly burring my own body and then digging myself up

Never enough are the words that rattle and chant in my head 

Shaking and beating the bars as my heart beats out of my chest 

I’d fold my lungs in half just to be something worth while

I long to live

I long to be worthy of not being forgotten 

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I look at you like the sun looks at the ripples on the water

I look at you like moon looks at the stars in our sky

I look at you with every fiber of love in my broken being

I look at you and hope you will one day see how incredible you are

I hate being stared at but when it’s your eyes my skin doesn’t crawl

And when you look me in the eyes it feels like being seen for the first time 

The sun and the moon

The lake and the river

Me and you

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I was born under your wing and grew up into your right hand

As I grew I dreamed that I would have half the person you were

You walked right foot first so that’s the way I learned 

I would match your stance and copy your every breath 

My idol

My god

The blueprint to me

I don’t think I’ll ever amount to the woman you were 

I don’t think anyone could fill that void in our world 

I wanted to be you

To do what you do

But you took what you were and burned it to ash

The fire and flames ate away at you 

They charred who you were and now your a burnt up version of you

I think in the fire you burned all your love the fight in your heart and the world full of love

What happened to the woman with the earth in her eyes 

Did she die in that fire with her pride by her side

I think when you burned the person you were you laid me to rest in the dark stained earth 

I’ll love you forever until the earth shatters down

I hope that you’ll be there with me in my grief stricken crown

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I am in fact that

Do you guys think [redacted] is gay? *remembers it’s bad to speculate abt people’s sexualities* I know for certain [redacted] is gay

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it’s me!!

Shark from Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time

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As long as the strings not blue

putting a polaroid of you on my unhinged conspiracy board and linking you with a red string to a post it note that just says "gay"

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I’m about to start walking into random stores with my resume in hand like it’s 1972 and asking for a job

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RELIGION RANT

ok my rant on religion and why I think it’s bad and why I think I’m bad for thinking it’s bad.

I was raised in a cult with super strict rules about god and Christianity (not Mormonism it’s a different one) and so when I grew up I realized how wrong and bad my religion was (just for reference my grandmother got me exorcised when I was a kid) and so I have always had very mixed emotions about religion. Because on one hand I was raised that way and there’s a comforting aspect of it and all of the things I do because of it but on the other hand I was raised horribly and I look back at the past and i realize how horrible it really was and I see all of the things in my self that I do because of the way it messed me up. I think religion is a good and healthy thing when it makes you happy and gives you hope but when it gets to a place where your entire life is revolving around it all of the time constantly and it’s the only thing you think of I think it’s a problem. The point of religion is to better you as a person not scare you into submission. I always support my friends in their religion and religious journeys because I believe and know from what I now believe that we are all on our own paths in life and that they will find their path and I am no one to stand in the way so when my friends are discovering religion I will always support them because that’s what friends do. I am also lucky that generally my friends aren’t pushing their religion on me which I appreciate because again trauma. A lot of my friends have started to find religion and have been getting baptized and I have recently found out that I am very afraid of churches and that’s now hard because I am always going to go to my friends events and things that matter to them but I can’t go to baptisms because they are terrifying and I feel awful. I did however go to one (where i found out I am in fact still scared) and i walked in what I thought other people would be wearing (black slacks and a white button down) and I was over dressed (i thought i would be underdressed) because people were wearing jeans or even shorts. I saw tshirts I saw sneakers I saw LEGGINGS. That was wild to me. I’m glad they have made religion more accessible for people who want it but the whole service was just so culty and maybe that’s just me having defense mechanisms now but I can safely say I’m never going back to any church ever because that is terrifying.

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Dr. Miles Clown.

MOSCHINO Pre-Fall 2022 (part 4) if you want to support this blog consider donating to: ko-fi.com/fashionrunways

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I am made out of layers of flesh 

Each part a new beginning 

Part of me that has ever seen the world

Part of me that is pure 

Undamaged 

My bones ache for a time I cannot return to

To a time before they were shattered and broke

They want to see the world again 

They want to be set free

My heart beats to the tune the ground would sing

The feeling of the water rushing over your face

It sings with all its might 

It’s never enough 

I breathe and live as all those before me have but I can’t help but wonder if I am me and you are you why must my skin feel unclean?

Why must my bone wish to wander free?

Why must my heart me silent?

Why must it be me?