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Rainy day in Kamakura

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Psycho (1960) dir. Alfred Hitchcock

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Voice Printer (1986)

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camera shy.

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my momma hair school graduation pic, 1990s.

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Dinka maiden with songbull wearing a trilby hat and carrying a spear. 1952.

Photo by Keystone

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Sha’Carri Richardson by Elijah Agurs.

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My anxiety

Avavav always has the most interesting concepts

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Saul Leiter

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Today marks 1 year since my insomnia began. After my endo surgery and 1 week before the clocks went back.

I have been working, living, existing on 4-5 hours of sleep every night. You know when you have a rough night sleep and feel like shit the next day? Times this by 365 nights, that’s where i’m at.

I have exhausted every remedy under the sun to no avail, bypassed countless doctors and specialists who dismiss my words when I say “I don’t sleep, please help me.” It’s been 2 months and still no response from a sleep psychiatrists receptionist, and I still don’t have an appointment.

It’s been very hard, depression is starting to sink, mainly because I feel a loneliness where people, friends, doctors and colleagues don’t understand the severity of it or don’t show they give a damn when it’s a serious problem for me. Hearing them talk about things and problems that pass feels toxic, and the small talk is killing me. Friends and family do not understand that every day it’s a struggle for me to connect, where i’m now become tired and disengaged, living as a shell of myself yet still showing up every day.

We all have problems, there is no denying that. But I’m here venting because there is no safe space in my life where someone physical will intervene despite being surrounded by “so many people that care about me.”

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I bought this shirt a long time ago now and it went on a complete journey with me around the world for many years. It was like my teddy and comfort. Then I decided to give it to my ex when we split. He said "are you sure? This is your FAVOURITE tshirt" I thought that if I let it go, I would learn how to let go of something I truly loved. I wore it to my first art show, and he too an artist, I left it all behind and I never found that side of me again.

This tshirt conjures warm memories of young adulthood and my dyed art hair and meeting travellers I never saw again.

One of a kind, freestyle collab t-shirt (large) by Pacolli and Mildred. Available at High in the Bay

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Genieve Figgis (Irish, b. 1972), Birth of Venus (After Alexandre Cabanel), 2018. Acrylic on canvas, 120.2 x 150 cm.

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so i'm in this backyard chickens group on reddit and someone just discovered their hen is transitioning and everyone is stoked

anyway in case you didn't know chickens will sometimes spontaneously f2m and it's pretty cool